Freakin disclaimer: I do NOT own Twilight or any of its characters. But well, who doesn't want to own Edward? He might have some self-esteem problems, but he's perfect besides that.

Jess dropped out and I'm writing this alone, alone. I hope I become like Steph one day. Btw, already counting days for Eclipse! Haa, my friends are sick of hearing me shout '118 DAYS LEFT!' but happiness takes power over me. I love you, vampires.

Twilight fell on the little meadow. The end of another day, the start of a new night. A night that would hold many surprises, fears, pains, and a lot, a lot, of love. A love between two vampires who desired more than anything to stay together as long as times lasted. A love that was, perhaps, a bit too dangerous. Or, better said, a love that attracted danger.

'Bells?'

His voice sounded soft in her ear.

'Hmm?'

She had been all day in that position, between his arms, crying her heart out. She was overwhelmed with sadness. And even though he seemed to care about her feelings, he also seemed decided about something Bella couldn't decipher.

'Do you want to go back home?'

She lifted her head up and locked her gaze in his. Edward's eyes were dark, but filled with worry and love. Bella couldn't believe what was to come. She sighed and slowly got to her feet. Her boyfriend followed her with his eyes. Neither of them was in the mood of talking.

The walk back to the car was very slow. Edward had offered Bella to carry her if she didn't want to run, but she had denied the offer. She just wanted to be left alone to think what she was to do with her life once he left. They were already in the car when Edward decided to speak.

'Bells...' he started, staring at her golden eyes, 'What is wrong?'

Bella didn't answer. She looked through the window, trying hard to concentrate on the good times they had passed, but she turned to him when she felt a cold hand touching her own.

'You know what will happen if you don't tell me.'

'What?' Bella managed to say, feeling a knot in her throat.

'I'll assume it's something worse than what it really is. And I'm already assuming the worst I can imagine,' Edward explained softly. He looked sincere, honest, worried for her. The girl shook her head slightly and gazed through the window again. Edward thought on pressing her a bit more until he got what he wanted, but she looked as if she was suffering terribly in her insides, so he pressed his lips together the rest of the journey.

'Edward...?' Bella said when he had stopped in front of Charlie's. The addressed stared at her, but she bit her lip and avoided his stare. He sighed.

'Do you still want me to take you out this night?' Edward asked her. She looked awful, and most probably she wanted to be alone. But Bella shook her head hurriedly.

'No, no, I want to go with you,' she muttered. If he was to break with her, she wouldn't make him wait. She was already feeling the hole in her heart that had been open a long time ago but had never cured completely.

Edward hesitated.

'I'll pick you up at seven,' he said, and waited for her to get out of the car.

Bella stared at the dark window as she closed the door. But as Edward's hands held the steering wheel again, she felt the need to tell him something.

'Edward!' she exclaimed bending to look at him through the car's window. He lowered the crystal and stared at her once again.

'I love you.'

She wanted him to know that. He needed to know that. No matter where he went and what he did with his life, he had to know that she would always love him.

Always.

Edward kept his face unexpressive and didn't look away from her. Bella felt the longing to grab his face between her cold hands and kiss him one last time, like in the old movies. But she resisted, and Edward finally turned to the steering wheel and drove away, leaving her there in the street, watching how the car disappeared around the corner.

One single tear rolled down her cheek as she crossed her arms over her chest to try and make the pain in her heart leave.

' Alice ,' Edward said when he entered the big white house. He wasn't surprised when a high-pitched, yet beautiful, voice whispered in his ear a soft 'Yes, Edward?'

He sighed and watched her walk – or dance – up the stairs.

'I need to talk to you.'

Her brother followed her into her room, where she sat down on the floor and stared at him. She already knew what Edward wanted to know, and smiled sadly.

I'm sorry, Edward. I won't answer that.

Edward stared at her in disbelief. He needed her help in such a moment, and desperately.

'Please, Alice ,' he started crouching in front of her with a pleading expression, 'I have to know... You didn't see her today in our meadow,' his voice trailed off and his eyes became darker. Alice grabbed his hand.

Edward... I don't know what is going on with Bella right now, but I don't think it's got to do with you.

'You don't know, Alice ,' he scolded her seriously between clenched teeth, 'You weren't there! She started crying all of a sudden, and -' he couldn't continue. It hurt too much. Bella was suffering, and he couldn't know why.

Alice gently approached him and kissed his ivory cheek.

She loves you. I can't show you that in a vision. Learn to trust, Edward.

Learn to trust, Edward repeated to himself. How can I learn to trust after all that's happened to me? After the Volturi? After her transformation...?

He pushed Alice away from him softly and stood up.

'I have to pick Bella in an hour,' he announced darkly, while Alice spread on the floor face-up, looking for a comfortable position, 'If you change your mind about telling me, it will be better for both of us. Bells and I,' Alice nodded slowly, hesitating, 'And perhaps you,' Edward finally added under his breath. He turned around and left the room, but not quick enough to escape from a flying shoe and hear his sister say, 'Was that a threat?'

Bella opened her bedroom door and sat down on her bed. Everything was wrong. Her life. Her love. Her soul... If she still had one. What would happen if Edward left her? Charlie wouldn't stand another episode like the one that had happened almost a year ago now. Her nineteenth birthday was coming, and apparently, she would have to live it on her own. And now, she didn't have Jacob with his arms opened wide for her. He was a werewolf, and she was her mortal enemy. If Edward was gone, she would have no one. She was all by herself.

'Bella...' came a voice from the corridor.

'Yes, dad,' she replied, repressing a sob. The door opened and Charlie popped his head in. Bella turned around immediately to hide her destroyed expression and pretended to be very interested in her CDs.

'Oh, I just didn't hear you come in,' Charlie said cheerfully, 'You're changing, and I know it. You're not the trippy Bella you once were. It must be the age, I guess.'

Bella swallowed.

'I suppose...' she muttered as a response. Charlie was still there, waiting for something to happen.

'Weren't you going out with Edward tonight?' he asked after a while. Bella made a face as she heard the name of her boyfriend, the one who would surely abandon her...

'I am dad,' Bella picked a CD and spun around to face his father, wishing she looked normal, 'He'll be here around an hour or so.'

'Oh, right... Well, I'll leave you to get changed,' Charlie said and closed the door behind him.

This is wrong, Bella thought. Charlie wasn't indifferent to the changes in Bella – to her suddenly extraordinary beauty, her grace, her pleasant smell, the paleness of her body. And she had to be very careful in not touching him. Bella was still waiting with nervousness and fear for the day in which Charlie's curiosity would burst and she would have to tell him the truth. And she would also have to tell him about Edward and his family. Charlie would hate him.

The vampire sighed and closed her eyes.

'Silly Bella,' she whispered to herself, 'Nice mess you're in.'

Her phone rang all of a sudden and she gave a little jump in surprise. With the quickness only vampires have, she ran towards it and snapped it open.

'Bella,' Alice 's voice came from the other side of the line.

' Alice ,' Bella smiled. At least, it seemed this time her best friend would say goodbye to her, 'How are you doing?'

'I'm...' Alice 's voice trailed off and Bella shivered, 'Fine, I guess.'

Bella didn't believe a word.

'So why are you calling at this time?'

'I just wanted to check in how you were doing, you know how the meadow and my brother together overexcite you,' Alice was good at lying, but Bella knew her enough to know that either Edward had told her something, or she had seen it beforehand.

'I'm alright, getting ready for tonight,' Bella said trying to sound happy, but Alice seemed to know much about her too.

'You sound as if you were falling into depression and deeper,' Alice told her off, 'What's wrong?'

'I'm just –' She hesitated and thought of a convincing lie, but finally she sighed, 'I know what will happen tonight, Alice .'

'I know what will happen too,' Alice laughed, but when her friend didn't, she started to worry, 'Aren't you excited?'

Bella opened her mouth in horror and couldn't help tears from falling from her dark eyes.

' Alice ...' she tried to say, 'How... can you say that? Is that what you want too?'

'Bella, there's nothing I want more than that!' Alice exclaimed, confused by Bella's reaction. They must be talking about a different thing, 'How can you be horrified by that? I thought... I thought you loved him...' her voice trailed off once more.

'Don't you see it, Alice ?' She didn't even care about the irony in the phrase, 'That is just the problem, I love him too much to stand this.'

Alice was quiet. Appalled.

'Is it because... the other vampire?'

Now both were quiet, drowning in an awkward silence.

'Yes,' Bella finally admitted.

'But then why...?' Alice left the question there, and thought to herself. Bella didn't want to be part of the Cullens because of a vampire no one knew about? 'But when Edward asked you, you said...'

' Alice , if you are going to talk to me, then complete your sentences,' Bella said, tensed. Alice was being terribly mysterious, and what was more... She also thought this time, leaving Bella behind was the best choice.

'You said, 'Of course',' Alice finished.

'I don't know why I'll say that Alice, I didn't even get changed for tonight and you're already telling me what I will reply to a question I haven't heard yet!' Bella shouted, getting frenetic.

'Bella!' Alice exclaimed, 'Please, do calm down.'

Bella gazed around the room in desperation, then breathed in and waited.

'Listen,' Alice started, controlling the tone of her voice, 'I don't know why you are so terribly sad and nervous –'

'I'm not –'

'Please let me finish,' Alice interrupted, 'I didn't want to see what was going to happen tonight for your privacy, and Edward's, so I just saw the ending of it, and I can assure you there is nothing you should worry about. Besides, that new vampire hasn't yet arrived to Forks or anything, so please, please calm down, go out with Edward tonight, and I hope everything goes okay.'

'Okay...' muttered Bella angrily, 'Thank you Alice , for you kind support!'

Alice was shocked by the aggressiveness of her words, but when she was about to reply, the line was dead.

Alice stared at the phone, confused. She couldn't understand what was going on with Bella. She had been excited the previous day when Edward had asked her out, and suddenly she was sad at the vision of both of them living together for ever. Should she...? No, she didn't want to watch the whole dinner. It wasn't her business.

Jasper entered the room at that moment, holding a shoe in his hand.

'Edward says he found this and that perhaps is yours,' he laughed, but when he saw the alarmed expression of his girlfriend he sat down next to her and calmed her down.

'No...' Alice said pushing him apart, 'Don't repress this. It's important.'

'What is wrong?'

'Bella.'

Jasper waited.

'Is it something related to what is happening tonight?'

'Apparently...' Alice replied, unsure, 'She seems to hate the idea of... marriage. At least, she sounded horrified when I told her I was very excited about it.'

Jasper's expression became more evaluative. He narrowed his eyes.

'What will she answer tonight?' he asked her.

'Well, I just saw that part, since the rest must be private for them, and she was relieved as she exclaimed 'Of course!',' Alice said, 'So I can't understand why she was all freaked out just now.'

Jasper didn't answer. It surely sounded strange.

But Alice had omitted the part that involved the strange vampire. Maybe Bella didn't want to marry her brother because of her, because she knew what was coming. And she couldn't tell Jasper about it. A sigh escaped from her marble lips.

'I just hope everything turns to be alright,' she finally said and hugged Jasper.

'It will, Alice ,' Jasper whispered, kissing her head, 'It will.'

He was already planning a special night with the vampire he was holding, too.

A/n: Awwww. Little Jazzy wants to marry Aliiice. Surely Edward started a marriage revolution. Anyway, I know vampires can't cry, but where is the sadness if not? There is no sad, terrible depression without tears. They wash away the pain inside. Ooh, yes. I'm so inspired today.