Thank you for all the reviews, it's been overwhelming. I want to thank you all for being very patient with me while I write the next chapter. I honestly take my hat off to all those who write and post everyday. I have been freaking out trying to juggle work and not keep you all waiting forever. I am enjoying this journey I am glad you are all with me, if you feel like I am doing it wrong please don't hesitate to guide me in the right direction. All of you I am sure have seen the movies, multiple times if your like me, but there is something about the song "Lets get lost" by Bat for lashes & beck From the eclipse soundtrack. Which is what I was listening to on the plane heading back out to Alice Springs in the Northern Territory, Australia when I wrote chapter one, ever since then I have started this journey and I felt the need to share how it started. I hope you enjoy this chapter as I have enjoyed writing it. Thank you and don't hesitate to drop me a line and say g'day.

BPOV

I managed to get home with no major incidents other than the encounter I had with Paul at work. I grab my stuff and head to my room where I let my brain relive the conversation

"what were you thinking telling he had beautiful eyes, you don't tell a guy he has beautiful eyes. you idiot Bella." I continued over analysing everything I said, I didn't say much but I'm over thinking again and wearing tread marks in the wooden floor with my pacing i kept talking to myself.

"he likes me, this much is a given seeing as he wouldn't leave me alone, but I haven't been with a guy before, crap! what if is one of these douche bags that only sleep with a girl and then leave.? oh jesus what do I do? I need help, if I call Jessica it would be broadcasted like breaking news, repeated every hour on the hour. Angela would be the likely choice but she is currently experiencing romance for herself too, but I know she is on a date with Eric right now I need my best friend who up and left bout a month ago. "I could talk to jake, thats right no I can't because he told me that used to be a good kid and now he is not, and that we couldn't be friends. all of a sudden I get treated like a stupid pale face." I stop pacing and flop down on my bed with a sigh. Since when did my life become difficult i have no major ambitions other than being invisible. I am not sure but i feel like there is a pull leading me to Paul but what does that mean?

After some thought I notice the time and need to get dinner started otherwise dad will come home and attempt to cook something, god knows that the last time he attempted to cook the local fire department was called out with dad looking at them with a blank look saying how was he supposed to know that aluminium foil wasn't supposed to go in a microwave. Getting lasagne put together and in the oven i jump in the shower letting the hot water wash away the day.

PPOV

I followed her scent to her house where i could hear pacing in her room, i know i shouldn't be listening but when i heard "what were you thinking telling him he had beautiful eyes... oh bella you silly girl your the only one who has noticed that makes you special. I can hear her talk bout talking bout wanting to go and talk to Jessica or Angela. i couldn't help but think ain't no girl you can talk to about this hon other than the two other girls in the pack, you can talk to Kim or Emily who no doubt will help you, but other than that you my dear are bound by tribal lore. When Bella mentioned Jakes name I started to back away and head back deeper into the forest and shifted and started to talk to Jake who was patrolling with Sam.

"Sam we really need to wave the privacy that you got going on especially now Bella is freaking out and doesn't exactly have anyone to talk to."

Jacob let his thoughts go and we were bombarded with memories of him and Bella sharing everything together, it was laced with feelings of guilt and longing for his friend.

"I get what your saying Paul but as Alpha you need to understand that there isn't exactly a how to lead a pack of young juvenile werewolves. What if something was to happen to Bella because either you or Jacob's emotions got the better of you and you end up hurting her. I can't have you feel what I feel everyday with Em, " It was then that Jake and I felt the full effect of Sam's feelings not just with the knowing that he scared his mate but his fear that one day Emily will resent him for disfiguring her face.

"Dude, you can't honestly think that" Showing Emily's reaction from my point of view when he walks in to their house after a patrol. "If you can't see from that just how much she lights up like a freakin christmas tree then you have some serious issues, we all look up to you and Emily and if anything we are more aware of our emotions because of you."

"Yeah man, I agree with what Paul is saying, but you gotta let me go and talk to Bella, cause she will be freaking out. She is my best friend and I need to help her make sense of this"

"Alright you have made ya points, but I will be lurking around in the shadows"

Jake and I change direction and head back towards Bella's house, I could the worry and stress from Bella, and the excitement from Jake was not helping.

We pull up and shift back, "Oh man do you smell that?" Jake taking a deep breath, "she has made lasagne do you reckon that there will be enough for us?" "I dunno man, but i reckon you should go knock on the door and go talk to your best friend try and mend that bridge but you might wanna wait for her to finish in the shower first."