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Brittany's realization. It's tough to write in Brittany's POV.
"I'm not making out with you because I'm in love with you and wanna sing about making lady babies."
Brittany remembered every word Santana said. She was mad at her not because Santana turned down her offer to sing a duet, but because that she was ashamed of what people might think if they thought that they're dating. She knew that's why Santana decided to do a duet with Mercedes. She didn't really get why Santana had to say that she wasn't in love with her. They had been saying that they love each other for a very long time. Or did Santana mean the other love? Brittany hears that word a lot. She hears it from people she's had sex with, from her parents, from her other friends and she says I love you all the time. She never really understood what love meant.
She decided to ask the nerdiest looking guy from the glee club (whose name she'd had to ask Quinn first) to define what love is. As she was approaching him from his locker, she had this fantastic idea. She'll sing a duet with Artie then have sex with him to make Santana jealous.
Turns out, Artie was pretty into her. She promised to be Artie's girlfriend. Brittany successfully banned Santana to her benefits, she took his virginity and all was going according to her plan until Santana caught a hint of what she was doing and turned Artie against her. Of course, the poor guy got hurt and mad at her so they broke up.
A week after the incident, Artie did some pretty sweet stuff like taking her to the movies, or the park and they started dating again. She liked it. Artie would say "I love you." and something about the way he said it reminded her of the way Santana says it. She asked her why he loves her and he said "because you're the best thing that ever happened to me. You're my ray of hope, my love." and she wished Santana would say things like that too. She felt bad for comparing her boyfriend to her best friend and so she stopped thinking about it. She's falling in love with him. That's why she was comparing.
Another week has passed and Brittany was in her room, trying to study for biology when she heard rocks being thrown at her window. She peeked to see Santana, holding a bottle of wine, obviously have been drinking alone and crying. She hesitated to let her in, at first, but she hated seeing Santana like that. It's been weeks since they last spent time alone together. She wanted to hug her because she missed her so much. She quietly opened the front door and gestured Santana to come inside.
"Hi, Britt-Britt. You know I had a date tonight? Then I completely blew it up because I didn't want to sleep with him! I wanted you. I'll always want you. Why? Why did it have to be you?" she gulped at the wine.
"How many of those did you drink, San?" she led the both of them to her room, trying her best to be quiet. She covered Santana's mouth and Santana bit the fleshy part of her palm. Santana's free hand started wandering and found her ass and gripped it tightly. "I'm not going to have sex with you. Not when you're drunk like that. Besides, I-" she was about to say dating Artie, but she knew it would only make things worse.
"Dating Artie? Of course I know that. Why do you think I'm drunk as fuck right now? And horny. I want your touch. So, sex." Santana shot Brittany a lascivious look.
"That would be cheating on him... I don't want to do that." Brittany's jaw tightened.
"It's not the same game, Britt. It's not cheating." Santana licked her lips and bit her lip. She was so good at the seduction game and she knew what it does to Brittany.
Brittany was fighting every will of her being not to pin Santana against the wall for contact. The feel of her skin against hers, her smell, their hands together... She shook her head to get rid of the thoughts. "So, what the hell did you drink, Santana?"
"I was in a bar, so I probably drunk like 5 shots of tequila, few beers... I dunno. I lost count." Santana's hand moved from her butt to her core. Brittany's vision darkened. She let out a small moan and she can see Santana smirk from her peripheral vision.
When they finally reached her room, she pushed Santana to her bed and kissed her, hard. She pulled away and turned around even before Santana had the chance to wrap her arms around her. "You are so irresistible. But I'm still kinda mad at you." she looked at the bed to see Santana, snoring, sleeping soundly. She put a blanket over her and kissed her forehead "I miss you." she had this urge to say 'I love you.' but the words Santana had told her still stung. And she didn't know if she was saying it as her best friend or as something more. She decided to call Artie because it was overwhelming for her.
Artie answered the call with a sleepy voice. "Hey, baby. I thought you'd be studying biology all night?"
"I was. But my friend from dance class called. Had some kind of problem with the guy she's dating."
"Okay, wanna tell me about it?"
She told him about her 'friend', that was dating someone, but has this guy that she frequently hooks up with. She said that her 'friend' might be in love with both guys. Brittany asked Artie if it's possible to love two people at the same time.
"But babe, that's cheating. She's already dating someone then she hooks up with another?"
Brittany was offended with Artie's answer. She doesn't want to think that she'll be cheating on him if she sleeps with Santana. The thought of not being able to touch Santana longer than she already has made her sad. "Oh, okay. I'll go tell her that. Thanks, baby."
"Bye, Britt. I love you. Sweet dreams, I'll see you there."
"Bye Artie." a pause. She does love Artie. The way he treats her makes her heart skip a beat. The way he looks at her like she's the most precious girl in the world. "I love you too."
She meant what she said. She loves Artie. But at that moment, she realized that she loves Santana too. How could she not? Santana has always been there for her. She defended her when people called her stupid. They knew everything about each other. Santana has made her feel special. Brittany has loved Santana way back; she just didn't know it yet. She loved her even after she rejected her. She loved her even when she was dating Artie. She seduced Artie to make Santana come back to her, but now, she's dating Artie and loves him too. Brittany hated herself at that moment. She looked at her cat and whispered "I will make it work, Lord Tubbington. I will." She decided not to sleep near Santana at that night. She slept on the chair at her study table.
She woke up to sound of her phone ringing. It was Artie. It took her a second to move because her body was numb all over. Her back hurts. She answered the call. "Hello."
Artie started singing Johnny Cash' You Are My Sunshine. "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy, when skies are gray. You'll never know dear, how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away."
"Mornin' to ya too." she mumbled sleepily.
"Hey, you okay? Normally you'd start singing along. Or did you forget the lyrics again?" Artie sounded genuinely concerned.
"Mmkay, just sleepy. Can I call you back? Wanna sleep."
"Okay, beautiful. Take your time. I love you." Artie ended the call.
Brittany was walking without thinking towards her bed and tucked herself in. She felt another body in her bed. Was Artie in her room? Did she forget something? She withdrew the blanket to see a beautifully naked sleeping Santana. "Holy shit."
Naked Santana started blinking, as if she was trying to figure out where she was. Her eyes met Brittany's then she looked down and saw her own naked body. "What the fuck?"
Brittany explained what happened last night and Santana listened carefully, brows scrunched together as if trying to remember what happened.
"Oh my gosh. This is so humiliating." Santana covered her body with the blanket.
Brittany was shocked at what Santana did; they never really got shy with one another, so her reaction was something new to her. "Since when did you start getting shy at me?"
"Since we started drifting apart." Santana slowly rose from the bed, trying to look for her clothes. Brittany held a part of the blanket so when Santana stood up, the blanket stayed behind and she was naked again. "Fuck. Not helping, Brittany." she muttered under her breath.
Brittany kneeled on the bed, grabbed Santana by the shoulder and kissed her. Santana's lips quivered at the touch and parted a little so Brittany's tongue entered her mouth. Santana moaned on the contact of their tongues. Brittany's hand went from her shoulders to her hips, pulling her closer. Santana wrapped her arms around Brittany, grabbing her blonde hair, fingers clawed on her back. After what seemed to be an eternity, Santana pulled away, breathless. Brittany looked her in the eye, "Nothing has changed, Santana. We will never drift apart."