As days and weeks passed the tension between kendall and I had eased slightly. we would talk on the phone a lot, but avoided any conversation that may start an arguement.

Carlos and tammi had just set off on a two week break to Hawaii, Carlos left james with instructions to look after me. much to tammi's dislike. she found it hard that she wasn't the centre of attention in carlos' life every second of the day. she couldnt get it in to her head that I was part of his family.

My back was still in pain, I found it difficult to drive because of it and sometimes enlisted the help of some crutches to take the weight off when I was out and about.

James and I Hung out constantly, he didnt like to leave me on my own looking so frail. my sickness was still hanging about but I felt more perky, it was just the pain in my back that was absolute agony.

just before I had got together with kendall i started the 'Sheriden Lloyd Foundation', it was a charity that raised money for people who had similar stories to mine, spinal injuries from accidents that caused your life to turn upside down, at this moment in time I had never felt so glad that I had started it.

On a daily basis of living with a spinal injury you kind of just deal, obviously I had been lucky, some of the people I had met over time had lost the use of there legs or their entire bodies. but i never even thought about the increased problems doing something as natural as having a baby caused someone like me.

At ten weeks pregnant my back had gotten the better of me, I was fed up sitting around the house and once again it was James that was there for a shoulder to cry on.

"Sheriden you have to remember its not for ever, you need to stay focused".

he had just run a warm bubble bath for me and sat just outside the semi shut door of the bathroom to keep me company while I soaked my aching back.

I didn't reply.

"I was thinking sheri, maybe it would be nice if you got away from it all for a few days?" His voice optimistic.

"You trying to get rid of me James?", I looked toward the direction of the door.

"No...I meant both of us, you know just get in the car and go to vegas or something before the media circus begins, least we could spend time in the pool or something, that would help your back... plus its my birthday soon" he said.

My first thought to this was no way! I could just see kendalls smug face at the thought of me going on a birthday holiday with james, but then I thought why not.

I had seriously gone through the mill and back, and James had never once let me down, he had been there for me when he didnt even need to be. I owed him a break aswell as my self.

"Okay" I replied

"Serious?" Came the doors reply.

"Yeah but on one condition" I aimed at the door.

"What's that?" He said as I heard him shift about on the carpet outside the bathroom.

"I pay... for everything I mean. It be my treat" the door was silent.

"Okay" came james' drawn out answer after a few seconds.

I figured it was easier for him to not be the gent and argue about money than risk me changing my mind about going.

I layed back in the bath and smiled, for the first time in weeks I meant it.

The trip to vegas was going to be amazing, I had booked us 2 seperate suites in the las vegas hotel and casino, James and I were gonna slug it out in the pool and the spa and have some fun. even if it killed me.

James drove us up in his SUV, it took us just over 5 hours to get to Vegas due to him insisting we stop to eat and give my back a stretch. I flatly refused to fly.

The hotel suites were amazing, although James was famous in his own right now and had a large capital of money behind him i dont think he had been in a $50. 000 hotel suite, our rooms were luxurious and huge.

We spent our days in vegas mostly in the pool or in the spa at the hotel, we ventured in to the casinos in the evening of James' birthday, I donned my crutches as my back was bad, James got lucky and won money on the black jack. it was a fun evening. some eagle eyed big time rush fans would spot james every now and again. he would pose for pictures for them and hand out autographs.

he loved it, he always had time for the people that helped him achieve who he wanted to be.

We went up to my suite to chill out before calling it a night, watching some late night rubbish on the 50 inch flat screen tv. we chatted about normal stuff for a while, ignoring the seriousness of life, james confessed that he wanted to go all out in the music industry one day, and create and run his own record company. his dreams in life always amazed me. to anyone else it would all seem far fetched but with james it was always just a matter of time.

I joked that he could sign me up on his record label once he got it going but he insisted that being able to sing was kind of a necessity, I honestly could not sing a note. james had often ridiculed me if ever he heard me sing.

I playfully hit him as he watched the tv.

"You gonna find out what sex the baby is?" James asked casually.

I looked at him then at my stomach, it already looked bloated in my tiny tummy.

"I'm not sure, I got my 12 week scan next Friday, what do you think?"

I patted my stomach still looking at it.

"It's up to you, I think if it was me i would probably find out tho" he was still watching the tv show.

"Kendalls coming with me, he said he wanted to" I pulled up my top to examine my bloated belly further.

James looked over and laughed."Cor look at that! fatty" he joked and gave my bare stomach a stroke.

"Oi" I laughed as I watched his hand circle my abdomen.

"Sheriden..." he paused.

"James?" I mocked his tone.

He sat up from his slouched position,

"you know how I feel about you don't you? I mean nothings changed for me" he took his hand away from my belly.

"I do know James, and you know I care for you, and to be honest I wish I had been screwing you just so kendall had a decent reason to throw it away". I was rambling.

"No sheriden, what I mean is... well if you ever think you wanna give me and you a shot..." he ignored my reference about kendall.

"James!" I said in a sarcastic sense,

"I'm having your friends baby, don't you think that would be beyond fucked up?" I tucked my stomach back away.

"I couldn't care less if it was triplets in there", he pointed to my bloatedness, " if I got you then I would take on anything with you" He looked me dead in the eye.

"Your actually serious arent you?" I tilted my head to one side and looked him back in the eye.

"I love you sheriden, and I will carry on waiting if thats what it takes" with that, he got up kissed me on the head with a smile and walked towards the door,

"hey fatty" he said with a smile as he put his hand on the door knob, "if you need me"and he looked at and wiggled his iphone at me.

I nodded, "night James"

We didnt talk about our chat the following morning, we spent most of our last day in vegas in the pool messing about.

We had so much fun, I was shattered. by 7pm I was ready for bed.

James called in on me to say he was heading off to the gym for a while but he would check up on me on his way back to his suite, he took my key card so not to wake me.

I fell asleep on the sofa in my suite, I did think I heard James come in not long after but when I awoke in the morning I was in the huge comfy bed and looked over to see James asleep in the chair in the corner of my room. I smiled with a sigh, "oh James".