(A/N: This song is Goodbye To You by Michelle Branch! I hope it's okay! Please review, favorite, follow, anything to show that you support/give your opinion on this story! =) )
As the Sun begins the daily routine of the majority of Jump Citizens by rising itself over the city, the heroic Teen Titans themselves got up to start their days. Even Beast Boy, who would usually wake up a lot later in any normal circumstances, had woken himself up at 7 a.m.
Starfire had left the tower to take Silkie for a walk. She was allowed to walk him anywhere in Jump City not because she was a local superhero, but because she thought it was allowed. None of the 'Not Allowed' signs mentioned killer moth larvae in their restrictions.
After a meaty, hearty breakfast, Cyborg had excused himself to the garage to tend to his 'baby'. That left Robin, Raven and Beast Boy in the Main Ops room. The three had decided to look for Terra and find out what they did not knew that she did.
Robin, as the leader, was ready for hero work as always. But this time, he let Beast Boy take charge. After their fight in the Brotherhood of Evil, he realized that Beast Boy can handle anything massive if it's most personal to him. And his past relationship with Terra was as personal as a person can personalize themselves with. Raven was there to help because after finding out that Beast Boy had been right all along, that Terra had returned from being stone and that she had been pretending that she had no memory of being Terra, Raven wanted to know Terra's explanation for her acting. And especially since Terra had escaped from her and Beast Boy after she saved her (but then again, Terra still had her powers so she could have escaped herself nonetheless), that meant her mission had not been properly completed.
"What do you want to do, Beast Boy?" Robin asked Beast Boy as the masked leader concentrated on the screen of scans of local newspaper clippings in front of him while Beast Boy stuffed the remains of his breakfast down his throat.
"I'm going to see Terra in her school," Beast Boy responded. "If she's not there, I'll track down her friends and ask them for where she is. If they know what's good for her," he punched his open hand for emphasis, "they will tell me what I need to know."
"Just don't get disappointed with what you find, okay?" Raven told her boyfriend. After that encounter yesterday, Raven had no doubt in her mind that Beast Boy was going to do everything he could to get answers. She wouldn't do so much if she were in his situation, but they're different people. Ultimately, she had to respect his decision.
"Don't worry, Raven," Beast Boy assured, giving his concerned girlfriend a smile, "I'll be neutral going into this task. You don't have to be concerned of us getting back together. Pah, with all the lying and running away Terra's been doing, the likelihood of that's drifting away from reality."
Raven nodded and replied, "I know, Beast Boy. It's just you I'm worried about."
"So when are you going?" Robin asked. The time at that moment was 8:45 a.m.
"Now, school should be starting if it had not started," Beast Boy said.
"Are you sure you don't need any help? We can help convince Terra," Robin offered, but Beast Boy rejected the help, stating that centering the attention around the high school would be overly suspicious.
"When you're out, Robin and I will be looking for any reports on Slade's whereabouts," Raven informed Beast Boy before he took off as a pigeon.
Beast Boy arrived at Terra's school in a matter of minutes. Beast Boy scanned the crowd of students for Terra or her friends. He quickly spotted the two friends waiting by a bench.
"Hey!" Beast Boy called. The girls had to be familiar with that high raspy male voice by now so they knew that whoever was screaming was calling them. They glared at the direction of the call, directly at Beast Boy. The two sides were separated by a net, but the girls made their way to Beast Boy, which surprised him. But he realized that there was no sign of Terra.
"Hi, ladies," he greeted. They were obviously sneering at him.
"Where is our friend?!" they both shouted loudly in unison, making Beast Boy whimper.
Beast Boy stood his ground, in disbelief that Terra's friends would believe that the Teen Titans had kept her from them.
"What are you talking about?" Beast Boy inquired in equal volume. "Terra was gone when Raven and I returned from the fight!"
"Liar! She would've contacted us by now!" one of the friends argued from the other side of the gate.
"It's the truth!" But that had Beast Boy wondering where Terra truly was.
"This is all his fault," the other schoolgirl told her friend, referring to Beast Boy. "If he hadn't returned to her life and ruined it, she wouldn't have gone missing under her own accord!"
"Me?" Beast Boy yelled incredulously. "I was trying to help her!"
"Get this one last time," the female began imperatively, "she does not want to go with you and your superhero friends! Leave her alone! Get on with your life! Don't run towards something that's been long since gone!"
It was only then did Beast Boy swallowed the thing he had been in denial about. Hearing it by a third-person view just seemed to give him the bigger picture. Terra was over with the Teen Titans. With him.
Beast Boy sighed, and said calmly, "You're right."
"I am?"
"Yeah. Dude, I don't know what came over me. I became too desperate, but Terra did not want to go back to us. I should've stopped when she refused. Thanks for telling me, though."
"Anytime," the girl said offhandedly as Beast Boy turned around and walked away. "And her name is not Terra!"
Beast Boy sighed one last time and whispered, probably the last time he'll utter the name, "Her name was Terra."
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
Beast Boy decided to walk the way home, allowing him ample time to reflect everything over, like a concluding thought to his rocky relationship with Terra.
"All these years, my heart stayed with her. I've never forgotten about her, and I was readily prepared to embrace her back after I saw her. I never left her, save for the Brotherhood of Evil mission, yet she left me in a heartbeat. She didn't even explain herself despite us knowing the truth about her so-called reincarnation. She still has a place in my heart, probably will forever as a childhood friend and the woman in my life that I had 'woulda coula shoulda' moments with...
"Enough, Beast Boy," he scolded himself. He halted and took a look at where he was. He sighed. He saw the new complex in construction. The one that replaced one of his favorite hangout spots. Like that spot, Terra had been replaced without him realizing.
"You're repeating your thoughts now," Beast Boy continued to scold himself. "Everyone's telling you to move on! Cut it out!"
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said
Beast Boy continued walking, trying to shadow his past with something else. He just didn't know what. But he just needed something that would enable him to say goodbye to the people and places that had left him.
"Goodbye to you, Terra," he gravely uttered under his own breath.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Beast Boy arrived at the park, and more memories of Terra and him together bombarded his thoughts automatically.
He vividly remembered those times when he shamelessly looked into her bright blue eyes, telling her jokes that she would laugh at. He missed those moments. But hearing laughter from his jokes was not the only thing that meant the world to him, he came to realize.
He pictured Terra's long blond hair. Beautiful, elegant, strands of sunshine that he got blinded by.
He had to face those memories if he were to move on. He walked past the park and basically put those memories in the back burner.
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
"Goodbye to you, Terra," he repeated slightly louder. He wanted to be confident in saying it until he got tired of it and until it ultimately any sentimental value and painful dagger stab feeling.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Beast Boy made it to the shore, with the small island, premise of the Titans Tower, across the sea. From afar, he could see the shore. Where he shared some of his most emotional and heartfelt moments. With Raven and with Terra. Today, he was thinking of the moments with Terra.
The rocks held the most memories and they were nearest to his home, so he had to try the hardest to face them. Facing them would also hurt the most.
But after several tries, this time he was to overcome the treacherous slope.
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
Goodbye to you, Terra, he shouted in his mind as a hummingbird as he flew to the other side, to the tower. He vowed to himself that once he set foot back into the tower, he would not be involved in any Terra incident unless it affected the team or if Terra was - like in any other normal superhero circumstances - in distress.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Beast Boy resumed human form and landed on his favorite spot on the shore; the night where he first learned how to skip rocks, with Terra.
With the wind sweeping past against Beast Boy's front, the heartbroken green-skinned self-proclaimed heartthrob faced the sea. He inhaled the scent of the splashing sea before he took a deep breath.
Then, articulately and with finality, he bellowed in a half-despairing and half-empowering tone.
"Goodbye to you, Terra!"
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
That was his last step to moving on. With one last swift glance at the shore, he turned around and headed for the tower. This is it, he thought to himself. He was to never think of Terra again. Beneath the stars where she wanted to be, he would still be there, alive and awake, but only if the stars fall, when she is in her greatest need or if anyone else was in their greatest need because of her, would he go and help.
He entered the Main Ops room, and saw Raven and Robin.
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
"Beast Boy!" Raven called out, in a tone that Beast Boy interpreted that she missed him.
"I didn't find Terra, she's gone incognito. Voluntarily, I presume," he said with indifference in his tone.
"There's a legitimate and serious explanation for that," Robin said.
"Why?"
Raven gestured her hand to lead Beast Boy's attention to the large computer screen.
She said, with, now Beast Boy realized, worry in her tone, "Terra's with Slade."
(A/N: Sorry for the cliffhanger!)