A/N: I see backlash from the last chapter! DX I'm sorry I made many of you mad, but I do hope you all will stick out until the end of the story, as we're getting close.

The song is "Scared to Death" by KZ Tandingan. It's an original song from the Philippines, but it's really great to listen to! And I also love the music video. I recommend you to listen/watch! The song and the video are both touching, and I hope this chapter is touching too. Enjoy.

"Raven!" cried Beast Boy. He heard a shrill scream, and his expression daunted when he recognized its recipient.

At that moment, everything was silent to Beast Boy. All he wanted was to get to Raven and make sure she was alright. He knelt beside her and the crying children that she had saved. Raven had her palms pressing the shot area and wincing. Raven was not alright.

"Raven..." Beast Boy was trembling. His mind racing. His heart racing. His fingers tracing just over Raven's affected patch.

His allies - Robin, Starfire, Cyborg, Slade, Red X, Phobia, Jericho and Brian - all turned to Raven, all with grave expressions.

The fight was not over, though.

"Arbitraries, attack!" shrieked Mrs Markov. For a moment, the foyer vibrated. Suddenly, an army of Arbitraries rampaged into the Castle, charging at the opposition. The very same beings that were imprisoned in the top-secret underground laboratory.

"Our new friends!" said Starfire. "Why are they heading for us?"

Cyborg examined the Arbitraries from afar. What he noticed most evidently was their emotionless faces and still eyes.

"I think they're brainwashed. Defend ourselves, but let's try not to harm them!"

"That is difficult," retorted Phobia, sighing reluctantly.

"That's what my parents are trying to do to Terra!" said Red X. "Manipulating her mind! I bet they've managed it on their past test subjects, but they want them to be less robotic."

Robin faced Beast Boy. "You have to bring Raven and the kids to safety!"

Beast Boy nodded shakily before transforming into a pterodactyl. Robin carried the children and Raven on to Beast Boy and he flew out, his thoughts going haywire. He could not take it if Raven would be gone forever.

Gone forever. And it seemed likely.

You can leave me
Take away all that I have
You can want me
Love me for who I am

Choices, romance
Taking me high in the air
Flying, so scared
Afraid not to see you again

Beast Boy found a quiet place and recognized it amid the dark and the lamps. Serenity Pid Park. He placed Raven gently on a bench and quickly guided the children to Tarbal Avenue.

"Raven..." He knew he had to do something, he just didn't know specifically what, and his emotions were getting in the way.

His heart was beating fast when he returned to see Raven unconscious. Raven was hovering, and Beast Boy knew she was self-healing. But did that mean she was going to be alright? Her self-healing when Beast Boy was the Beast for the first time took a long while, and it was just a few minor scratches. Plus, they were in the middle of a little country, in the middle of the night, in the middle of a big fight. It wouldn't be wise for Beast Boy to bring Raven to the nearest non-Markovian medical facility. Instead, he could only watch her.

She was glowing, her innocence and heroism warmly radiating as her powers go on autopilot. He would always find her endearing, powerful and vulnerable no matter the circumstance. This couldn't be the end of her. The end of them. It couldn't, could it?

"Raven," he whispered softly, his hands gently on her cheek so as not to interrupt her, if she could even be interrupted. "Please, don't leave me. I believe in you. You're strong and you will recover. And we can go back to our friends and we can kick the Markovs' butts."

He let the crickets be the sole sources of sound as he gently slid his hand from her cheek down her hair. Who was he kidding with to crack a joke at this time? Raven would respond nonchalantly and indifferently to that.

Beast Boy winced, as if his own words stung him. Those weren't what he truly wanted to say. He had to say more, for just in case it would be the last Raven would hear from him. But then wouldn't that go against him believing in her?

No, he had to be realistic in the situation, Raven would wish that for him. But he knew she would also wish him to keep his most affectionate personality.

"Sorry about that. You know me. You're the only one who knows that my humor is my only mask for my insecurities and push me out of it naturally. We are always there for each other to push each other's buttons, but it was never out of spite. We both want each other to get out of our shells - well, in my case make sure I don't break my shell in the wrong places - but we also are always there to pick each other up and mend our cracks, because even though we get on each other's nerves, we want the best for us.

"The truth is, I'm scared of death."

'Cause I'm scared of death, now that I'm losing you
I'm scared to death, knowing I can't get through
I'm scared to death, living this so lonely life without you
Baby I'm scared to death

Something's changing
Giving me fears run through my head
Only find me
Give me the eyes I will understand

Words left unsaid
Leaving me weak on the edge
Getting over
I'm running scared I can't comprehend

Beast Boy continued, wiping the escaped tears and struggling to keep steady breaths.

"I'm scared of losing you, when I still have so much left to tell you, and not because I've been hiding them, but because there's always something to express. And well, yeah, we were separated so I never got to actually say anything to you. I'm just sorry for everything that's happened, I know you don't think it's my fault, and I don't either, but who else would take the blame for Luck? All of this started from our first date, and amounted to this. Even though it's only been months and even though we barely spent time together because of the mission, that's never changed my feelings for you. I have always been thinking of you.

"You are the one who's fallen for me first, who saw me for who I am first, and for that, that takes a lot of realization. I'm so grateful you managed to make me see the light about you. If not, I would be seeking for Terra for the wrong reasons. I don't want to lose you now, you mean so much to me."

Beast Boy couldn't help but be mad. But at who and for what? He didn't know. He probably wasn't meant to know, the feeling just happened in that instant. After thinking about it, though, Raven wouldn't want him to do that. She wouldn't do that. She would rationalize the situation, or deal with it.

Beast Boy stifled more tears. Raven would give him a sarcastic comment for that, or she would comfort him in her empathic way. Whichever, he was wishing he had received such reactions, such comforts, instead of reality at that moment.

"Please don't go," his voice cracked. "Please don't leave me... I don't wanna lose you..."

'Cause I'm scared of death, now that I'm losing you
I'm scared to death, knowing I can't get through
I'm scared to death, living this so lonely life without you

I'm scared to death, falling in love with you
I'm scared to death, there's nothing that I can't do
I'm scared to death, what if you won't be around anymore

Slowly, gently
Choosing me will make me then
Your one and only
I pray that our love will begin

The trembling returned to Beast Boy. He was like an emotional volcano, about to lose it.

He shut his eyes as a way to calm down his nerves. He opened them and looked at Raven's grey face.

"You're probably thinking how soap-opera this all is hehe," he said shakily, knowing Raven would be proud of him for being sarcastic for once. If only she were there to see that. "I love you, Raven..."

He leaned his face toward Raven's, and gently kissed her, his tears finally streaming down his cheeks. This could be his last contact with her, and he wanted it to be what he and Raven wanted it to be all this time.

He was scared. He was always scared. Of losing her. Of losing the ability to love. Of losing the fight against the Markovs. Of death.

Beast Boy's lips felt weak, like they were shaking too. Last kisses were meant to be as scary as the first ones.

Finally, their lips parted, and he whispered before standing up straight, "You won't die in vain, Rae."

'Cause I'm scared to death, now that I'm losing you
I'm scared to death, knowing I can't get through
I'm scared to death, living this so lonely life without you

Oh I'm scared
Na na na, na na na
I'm so scared
Na na na, na na na
I'm so scared
What if you won't be
You won't be around anymore

The glowing slowly faded away. Beast Boy had not actually seen Raven's only other self-heal moment, so he had no idea what the disappearance of the glow meant, but he had a good idea. And it was a bad one.

Raven's body slowly went lower and lower until she reached the ground, on patches of grasses, looking lifelessly beautiful. Beast Boy wiped away more tears with his arm.

Raven's body then glowed again, and this time there were rays of light passing through her. Her gunshot mark on her stomach somehow stitched itself and looked nothing more than a scar. Raven's body hovered up again.

Baby I'm scared to death...

Beast Boy felt his right hand getting warmer as he watched what was happening to Raven. He looked down at it, and saw a hand holding on to it.

"I'm alive," said Raven, taking Beast Boy by the hand. "Don't be scared."