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Chapter 4

The week has passed by really quickly. Things have been really weird. I have stayed in my room and Adrian would come with food for me and hang out with me. He is a really nice guy and funny. He flirts with me like there is no tomorrow. I know more about him and Dimitri now.

I miss Dimitri and Christian. In a way I am glad that I haven't seen them because I just can't look at them. Adrian told me how come they are Queens's grandchildren. Nathan Ivashkov fell in love with their mother Olena Belikov but since it was so forbidden she became his, blood whore. Queen never allowed Nathan to marry Olena. See I am right she is a bitch.

Queen got Nathan to marry with a royal Moroi Danielle but they couldn't have kids together so when Dimitri was born it melted Queens heart and she brought Olena from Russia to live at court with them, so she could see her grandson everyday. Nathan stayed married to Danielle but had a relation with Olena and Danielle never objected. She loves Dimitri, Adrian, Viktoria, and Paul as if they were her kids.

Danielle and Olena live together in the same house and are best friends. I just can't believe it. I mean how can, Danielle still live with Nathan when she knows that he only loves Olena? Nathan also loves Danielle to but still how can a wife share her husband with someone else? They didn't get the Ivashkov name because they are Dhampirs but their father love them a lot and spoil them.

Adrian talked about his family like they were the perfect family. I kind of felt jealous of him because he has a father and two mothers who love him and his brothers and sister a lot. I have a mom who I haven't seen since I don't know how long. I don't even know who my father is. I just wished that I had parents who would be there for me but I never had parents.

Today is Sunday and I am sitting in the church. The services have been long over and I am just sitting here to get some peace. I have seen Christian with Lissa in there own world and again there was jealousy. I didn't see Dimitri but Adrian was here with Viktoria and Paul who were actually with Christian and Lissa.

Adrian told me that they hanged out with Christian and they grew up together and Christian is his best friend. Adrian knew about Christian an me and said that it hurt Christian a lot when I left right after we slept together without saying a word to him.

I told him what happened. I told him that it was Lissa who wanted to leave from here and since I was Lissa's best friend and a bond mate I had to do what she wanted and I still love Christian. He said that he can see I am not lying and trust me but there is no one except Dimitri and him who believe me. He said that since Lissa is a Royal Moroi and the last Dragmoir and she have her charms people believe her.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't when someone came and sat next to me.

"How are you?" I looked up and it was my Russian god Dimitri. I was so disgusted that he was actually asking me this. He didn't even visit me at the hospital. It was not my fault that he was smashed in to the wall. But I was happy that he believe me that I was not the one who wanted to run away and supported me.

"I am ok. How about you?" I asked looking straight ahead.

"I am good." He said. We sat there for I don't know how long in a silence. I was dying to ask him why he didn't visit me and if he was mad at me, or something. I did know but the words were already coming out my mouth.

"Why didn't you visit me?" I asked he didn't say anything.

"Are you mad at me? I don't even know what happened in the gym that day." I said. He looked up at me and he didn't have his guardian mask on and smiled at me. It was a sad smile and I don't know why he was feeling like this.

"Did you not remember anything about that day?" he asked me.

"Well we were fighting and all the sudden you were smashed in to the wall and I fainted." I said to him.

"Not before you healed me," he said. What was he talking about? I can't heal anyone. I am a Dhampir and a spit user can only heal.

"You are a shadow kissed just like I am now. When Princess Vasilisa healed you, you became a shadow kissed. You were brought from the shadow lands, which is the land of dead. When that happened you were given gifts, which makes you powerful then a strigoi. I visited you and was there beside you for the whole month.

"I knew when you were waking up so I left the room telling Adrian to lie to you and look after you. I needed to do some research. Princess Vasilisa didn't heal me. It was you. I died that day in the gym but you brought me back. I don't know why you don't remember but when I opened my eyes you were sitting next to me, your hand on my heart and then you fainted.

"I brought you to the hospital but no one knew what happened to you. I got sucked up in your head and all there was darkness and nothing else. You were not even thinking, your head was just blank. When I came back in my own body I fainted and I don't know why.

"For the last week I have been doing some research on what happened and I found out about being shadow kissed and all the gifts of being a shadow kissed. You can't tell anyone about all this because you would be in danger. Strigoi would come after you and me. We both actually have all the five elements.

"Adrian said that Viktor Davashkov has been actually keeping tabs on you so you are in danger. I don't know what will happen but both of us aren't safe, not even in the wards." He finished. Ok someone has gone a little crazy.

"No I have not gone crazy." He said. What the hell? How did he do that?

"Because I am bonded to you, like you are to Princess Vasilisa." He said. I looked up at him and just stared. I think I am just going crazy or something.

"No you are not going crazy." He said and this was getting really weird.

"Ok I am really confused." I said to him. He chuckled and handed me a book. I looked at it and it said St. Vladmir and Anna. Why was he giving me this book?

"Because Anna was a shadow kissed and it tells about how many gifts she had and tells about her life. You should read it, it will clear things out for you." He said and I nodded. We just sat there again without talking.

"How were you smashed in the wall?" I asked him.

"Because you were angry and you used your magic." He said. What?

"What kind of magic?" I asked.

"I don't know. You have to find out. Adrian and I have researched but couldn't find anything." He said.

"Why did you make Adrian lie?" I asked.

"Because I wanted you to hate me. All these feelings that you have for me need to stop right now. You can't have those." He said. Shit he knows all about it. Oh how I hate this entire bond shit.

"I can feel what I want to feel, you can't tell me to stop because I am not your slave or you don't own me." I said.

"It's wrong. I am seven years older then you are and I am your mentor." He said.

"Age doesn't matter." I said.

"Your seventeen."

"So what?"

"You are underage."

"Just because I am underage that means I cant has feelings? I can't love someone? I am a person to, you know. I get hurt just like everyone. I am not a stone that it doesn't hurt me."

"I am you teacher."

"I don't care. I would be eighteen in couple of months."

"What about Lord Ozera?"

"What about him?"

"You love him."

"I do, but he doesn't love me anymore and I am just a lowly Dhampir."

"I want kids." He said and I just couldn't say anything else. I had nothing to say to him. He wanted kids, which I can't give him. We are both Dhampirs. Maybe I could never get my happily after. Christian doesn't love me and Dimitri would never love me.

Why do I always give my heart and find million pieces of my heart after I gave it someone. I am just stupid.

"You are not stupid. You are a human, well half human. You have a heart and you can't just stop your self, it doesn't make you stupid." He said.

"If I was able to give you kids you would have been ok with me?" I asked him.

"No. It's not that. If you love someone you can scarifies anything for them. We can't have a relation it's really forbidden. I am your teacher and you are my student. I am seven years older then you and I have other reasons." He said.

"Other reasons are that I have a reputation of a blood whore?" I asked.

"No. You know my mama was a blood whore." He said.

"So what are the other reasons?" I asked.

"I can't tell you those." He said.

"Why not?" I asked and to my surprise we were both so calm.

"Because I just I can't. I don't want to."

"It's not fair."

"Life is not fair."

"Is it because that I had a relationship with Christian?" I asked because the curiosity was getting to me. He laughed and shook his head.

"No, and I am not telling you. You got enough information out of me already." He said.

"Can we be friends?" I asked.

"I thought we already were."

"I thought you were my mentor."

"Well I am but didn't that changed a long time ago? You told me all you secrets and you only tell secrets to your friends." He said and I smiled. I can never understand him. He laughed at my thought.

"Well you will one day, just need to know me better." He said.

"So you have powers to?" I asked.

"Well yes. I was able to put Adrian's shirt on fire." He said.

"Oh my god! Did you burn him?" I asked.

"Well I did and then I felt bad and I put my hand on his burned chest and it healed him." he said.

"Wow that is cool having magic." I said.

"It is but again it's not a good thing because we are not safe anywhere." He said.

We talked more and then left from the church. He walked me to my dorm and told me that he would see me tomorrow and we would practice with our magic and I got excited about it. He kissed my cheek and left and when his lips made contact with my cheek I got goose bums.

I went to my room and sat on the bed smiling like a stupid teenager girl. Dimitri didn't hate me and I was happy for that. Adrian became my friend and now Dimitri and both of them make me happy. The only thing I hate is that the bond with Dimitri and I have now. He can hear my thoughts and I don't know how this bond will work.

I just hope it's not like the bond that I have with Lissa because that would not be cool. I am just confused and don't know what really is going on. Dimitri said we are not safe because we shadow kissed, what does he mean by that?

I looked at the book that was in my hand and decided to read. It doesn't hurt to read sometimes. It will just give me the information that I am looking for. I open the book and started to read and spend the rest of the evening reading the book.

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