AN: Thank you everyone for Review, Favourite and follows :) Sorry for the late update I was sick and got busy with the holidays. Anyway here is another chapter for you all I hope you all enjoy! Sorry for any grammar and spelling mistakes.

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Chapter 18

DPOV

I leaned down and my lips were almost touching her lips. I could smell her breath I was about to kiss her when my phone buzzed. Crap! And thank god for the phone because otherwise I would have kissed Rose. I pulled away and got my phone out. It was a message from Alberta.

Meet me in my office in an hour.

I looked at Rose and she looked hurt and pained. I brought my fingers up and moved the hair strands from her face. It hurts me to see her like this. "Roza, try to sleep. I will be back." I said and got up. Thank god she didn't held on me this time. I looked at her again and she was just looking at her hands not saying anything. The bond didn't have much she was also numb inside. She was thinking about Lissa again and how we almost kissed. I walked out and went to Christian's door and knocked on it.

He didn't open so I literally banged the door and almost broke it down. Finally he opened it up. Took him long enough his eyes looked puffy and he was in his pyjamas bare top. "Belikov what do you want? It's fucking four in the morning."

"Shut up and get dressed. You are going to stay with Rose." I said. He looked at me as if I have gone crazy.

"If you don't know it's still curfew time and I know Rose would not want me with her at this time."

"Vasillisa is dead." He eyes were wide open from the shock and mouth hung open. I don't have time for this.

"H-how?" He stuttered. I went in the room and he closed the door behind him. The good thing about Christian was he had no roommate. No one wanted to share a room with him since his parents turned Strigoi and most of people thought he was not far from being one. I sat on the bed. His room was messy. I looked at him and said,

"She shot her." I said and his eyes went even wider if that was possible.

"Are you joking? She can never kill her, hell Rose can never kill any one except Strigoi." Thanks god he didn't yell. So I just told him everything what happened. "The bitch deserved it." He crossed his arms and looked at me.

"I know but still Rose didn't want to kill her, neither dead. She is gone but have left Rose in a lot of trouble. She is in shock. I want you to stay with her."

"I would be the last person she would want to be with." He says.

"She loves you."

"No, she loved me. I turned my back on her even knowing she did what she had to. She was so close to Lissa even closer then me. She left to protect her and when you got them back I did the worse possible thing I could do, to date Lissa just to take revenge." He came and sat next to me on the bed.

"I knew everything about her. No one liked me so I use to hang out in the cabin and thats where she use to come to. We became friends. We were just twelve. No one knew about our friendship. It always stayed in the cabin. As we grew up we both started having feeling for each other. She is the only one who thought I would not go Strigoi. Everyone has seen her rebellious and disrespectful site thats only because she tries to protect her self. She is one of the kind and a caring person I have met."

"Lissa was everything for her. A family, a sister but Lissa was just like other stuck up royal Moroi or even worse. Only if she knew Rose always just wanted to protect her. Rose is so passionate about guarding you don't even have an idea. You might have a bond with her and know what goes in her head but I know her better. She would not want me there." Whats up with everyone today giving big lectured about Rose.

"No, she loves you and I know it you will make her feel better."

"She does love me but as a friend thats all nothing more. She is moved on from me. She is confuse between Adrian and you. She has mix feeling which she don't understand."

"How can you say this?" I was confused. He was so right she did look at Christian as a friend and she was confused between Adrian and I.

"I told you I know her more then you. I know her like an open book because we shared everything our secrets, fears and dreams. So I know better." I never had taught about that

"Can you just be with her as a friend. Comfort her. I can't be there and neither can Adrian and the only person that leaves me to trust is you." I looked at him he was deep in thought and finally said,

"Ok i'll stay with her." Thank god. I got up and took my keys out from my pocket.

"Here this red one is to her room." He looked at me and said,

"You have her room key?"

"I have all the novices keys." I said.

"Does not look like it seeing you only have five keys one key chain." Yeah I am such a good lier.

"Shut it. Here this golden one is to my room. Go in there and in the third drawer there are a lot of bottles. There is an alcohol bottle take it with you — "he didn't let me finish

"Why?"

"Clean Roses hand with that, and destroy her clothes. Clean her up, give her a bath — "he cut me again.

"What do you mean give her a bath? There is something called girls privacy."

"You have already seen everything does it matte?" I asked.

"You are a jerk."

"Look I know you wont take advantage of her and I know you wont do anything to hurt her. There is no one else I can ask this from." I said. I know its not right asking him to give her bath but there is no other option. She is to stresses and shocked and he will help her.

"Fine." He still kept glaring at me.

"I'll see you later." And I walked out toward Adrian's room. I still had time to go to Alberta. I knocked on his door and he opened up quicker then I thought. He was in his pyjamas by the look of his face he was not sleeping. I walked in and he closed the door behind. Adrian also didn't have a room mate because being the grandson of the queen had it perks to.

His room was just Royal more Royal then Royal Moroi. He had a queen size bed with a white leather head bored attached to the wall. He had a black antique mirror with an antique table to finish the look. He had a lot of branded perfumes, gels, and whatever he used. He also had white sofas across from the bed, with a love seat. There was also a TV attached to the wall. There was a lot more in this room. He has always been grandmas favourite. He got whatever he wanted. And he was just Royal.

"What are you doing here?" He asked with… what I thought venom dripping off. I turned around to look at him and he was glaring at me. He raised his eyebrow at me.

"I want to talk to you."

"I do not want to talk to you. It will be nice if you leave." And he walked past me pushing me with his shoulder and sat on the sofa. He picked up the remote and turned the TV on. I know he is mad at me. I went and sat on the next sofa to his. All he did was get even angrier and kept changing the channels.

"Adrian-" he cut me of. "Don't you start. You insulted her. How can you?" He yelled at me.

"She was thinking bad things about grandma." I tried to reason with him. I know I should have not reacted like this but I just want Rose to hate me and stop the feelings she is having for me.

"Having a bond with her does not mean you treat her wrong. Whatever she thought was her own thinking. We all think, you cant change that. You can't change anyones thinking. Grandma did wrong and how she put the picture in front of Rose thats how she will treat Grandma. You have no right to insult her." He was standing now in front of me and yelling.

I got up and ran a hand through my hair. Before I could say something he started again,

"Why are you trying to push her away? Why cant you let her know how much you feel about her? Why are you running like a coward?" I looked at him in the eyes. He was one of my closest friend I shared all my secrets with him and he knew everything.

"It's complicated." I replied lazily.

"Complicated? How is it complicated? She has feelings for you it clearly shows on her face. Then how is it complicated? Don't give me the crap of you are her mentor and she is your student." He crossed his arms and glared at me.

"Grandma would never accept her." I tried to reason with him this was also one of the reasons I pushed Rose away from me.

"Oh so you have to think about someone who would have never accepted you if she had Moroi grandkids. She only loves us because she has no other grandkids. She would never care who you love all she care is for you to end up with a Royal Moroi, like Natasha Ozera." He spat. And I flinched at the mention of Tasha. She is a royal Moroi and was one of my good friends but grandma and her both wanted more then friendship and I couldn't give her more. Because all my life Rose held my heart.

"Adrian I just cant be with her." I whispered.

"Why cant you? She is the girl who has been coming to your dreams since like you can remember. You wondered if she even existed. You also searched for her and the only reason you found her was because of the dreams. You love her more then anything why cant you be with her?" He was right. I had loved and will always love Rose. Not a day went by since I turned five that I dreamed about her.

I thought she was not even real I thought she was just a goddess. She was just my imagination little did I know she exist and I am all over her but I just cant show it to her. I don't know I feel insecure. I am afraid of hurting her. I am afraid of loosing her. I am just afraid to get close with her.

"I don't want to hurt her." I said.

"Come on Dimitri you would be the last person who will hurt her. If I could have a chance with her I would but I cant knowing she is your life. I know you have loved her and always will. When you love someone you can never hurt them." I kept looking at him in the eye. He was right.

"Don't hold back Dimitri. Life is short you never know what will happen us Damphir are not here to just do slavery for Moroi. Live it as much as you can and enjoy while you have time." I closed my eyes and took a deep breath in.

"You are right. I will not hold back and let her know about my feelings to." I looked at him and he had a smile on his face.

"She shot her." As the words left my mouth Adrian eyes went wide and he went pale.

"S-she can't." He stuttered.

"It was meant for Viktor. But he put Vasillisa in front. She had no time. It was not her fault."

"What does this mean?"

"This mean you both are in great trouble you will get of the hook knowing dad and grandma will do anything in their power to save you, get your name cleared but Rose I don't know what will happen. She is in shock I don't know what will happen." He just stared at me not knowing what to say. I just left him there because it was time to see Alberta. And I hope its something good she will tell me good rather then some bad news.

AN: I know I am mean didn't let them kiss. I just felt it was not the right time. So how was it? Please comment!

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