She was sitting peacefully in front of the window when he came. She had invited him for tea and a conversation, two things they did often recently. She was head of the clan, he was an important figure in the council and her advisor. It was normal they met all the time. But this time it was different. Her husband was away again, which happened rather often. Too often for his taste. He was alone again because Tenten as always had much more important things to do then join him in what she called the most boring duty in the world. This meeting felt different. There was something about her that was different. A glimpse of sadness in her eyes, a glimpse of despair. He knew she had many arguments with her father recently and he could guess the reason, most probably it was her inefficiency to lead the clan on her own. Hiashi still was officially leader, slowly teaching Hinata her duties and responsibilities, but he never was satisfied with her.
He felt like asking her what was wrong, like helping her, but he doubted he could do anything more. He trained her for many years, he supported her, helped her with the overflow of duties, but there was nothing more that could be done.
"Neji, please sit down" she told him showing the comfortable sofa "I will go and prepare the tea." She quietly left the room. He looked around noticing several new elements, she changed the curtains, and a new plant was sitting on the window pain.
She came back within minutes, gave him his cup of tea and sat down in front of him.
"So what is it that you want to talk about Hinata-sama?" He asked her. She flinched a bit when he used the sama suffix, but no matter how many times she told him to stop using it, he continuously added it.
"Neji I need your advice again…" she began and brought the discussion to family politics. They talked for almost half an hour, they drank their teas, but Neji still couldn't shake the feeling that something was wrong. There was something about the shaking of her hands, something in her hesitant stumbling voice that made him worry. The look of despair in her eyes from the beginning of their meeting slowly changed to a decisive look, as if she finally made up her mind about something.
"So Hinata-sama is there anything else bordering you? You don't look too good…" He told her observing her shaking hands.
"Neji there is one more thing I need to ask you…" she began hesitantly.
"What is it?" He asked quietly.
"Don't hate me..." She told him.
"I don't hate you anymore Hinata-sama that was a long time ago…" He told her the words she was waiting for years.
After a minute or two she began again. "Don't hate me for what I am going to do now." She whispered getting up from her seat and walking up to him.
"Hinata-sama what do you mean…" He began but in the next second she was sitting on his lap hushing him with a kiss.
He wanted to take her off him, he wanted to move away and ask her what she meant to do. But his body was stiff and didn't obey his mind. She continued to kiss him, touch him, and make him want her. But it wasn't right… He dreamt about it in the past, but after she got married he gave up all hope… And now she was on him, torturing him, playing with him, and not even asking his consent. She had drugged him with something, he could feel that in the way he couldn't move and do something about her actions. He wanted her, he always wanted her, and just one look at her made him more aroused than anything else could ever. But this was wrong, in just several weeks he was getting married, soon Tenten would be his wedded wife and companion for the rest of his life. He liked her, he liked spending time with her, and even though he never had any erotic inclinations towards her their relationship was stable and solid. And now Hinata was sitting on him, tugging his clothes, taking her own off, and forcing him to do something which was simply wrong. She kept kissing him not letting him say a word, when she reached to his pants he made a strong move to get her off, but his body did not obey him at all. She wrapped her hand around him, and he could not stop himself from moaning. He wanted her badly, no matter that she drugged him, that she was married and he was engaged. He needed her. Never in his wildest dreams could he have imagined her sitting on him and taking him by force. But it really was happening. She was gentile and subtle, but it was not right. His mind kept fighting to move, to get away, but as she gently sat on him, and she gently pushed her hips back and forth, everything vanished from his mind. It was only her, her body, her touch, her scent, images of her from the past and present, dreams he had, everything mixed up. He was consumed by her, he was lost in her moves and nothing else mattered to him. Soon everything turned to a rainbow of colors before his eyes, and he lost consciousness.
He opened his eyes just several minutes afterwards. His body was still numb but he was regaining control slowly. She was still on him, still holding his member tightly inside her. He reached his arms towards her, and he could feel her flinch as he touched her. In her shivers and in her reaction he could sense that she was scared. Scared of what she had done, scared that he would hurt her. But he just wrapped his arms around her. He reached his hand to lift her face so that he could look into her eyes, she was crying, tears falling down and wetting him.
"I'm sorry, please forgive me…" she whispered and hid her face in his chest again.
He did not know what to say. All what happened was so much not like Hinata, and her crying afterwards meant she was lost and in pain.
"Why Hinata?" he whispered, he just had to try to understand her. He was angry, but he tried to control his voice.
"Because… it's all because of father and the clan." She finally whispered.
"Go on…" he told her in a firm voice.
"I need to have a child as soon as possible." She told him.
He shook her, "A child? What about your husband Hinata? Why me?" He was getting really angry.
"My husband… my husband despises me; he said he can't do it with me… He never touched me..." She began crying louder.
Neji was shocked, Hinata was married to prologue the Main family line, her husband was well chosen, more of a businessman then a ninja, but from a respected clan. It just didn't make sense. She was beautiful, gentile, kind, she was perfect. How could he not want her? Neji thought.
"I need to have a child Neji. And I just couldn't do it with just anyone. It had to be someone with the byakugan and from the family otherwise my husband's family would doubt it was his. If the child looked like a Hyuuga they wouldn't say anything…" She whispered.
"Why me Hinata?" he asked her again.
"Because I can't imagine having children with anyone else but you…" she said so quietly he could barely hear it. "I talked with father already about my divorce, but he said I need to have an heir before I separate with my husband. Otherwise father would not let me leave him. It would mean my child will the heir of two clans and that's what is most important to him…"
"Hinata I don't know what you were thinking, but you shouldn't have done it." He told her in anger.
"I had no choice, my husband likes boys!" She yelled at him and sobbed. "Boys for God's sake! He can't even look at me without despise in his eyes. For him I am disgusting! I need to have a child, and then father will let me divorce him… I had no choice… and you are the only one I could think of, I just couldn't go to Kiba or Shino with this…"
"You could have asked me first…" he told her bitterly.
"And what would you have said?" she bit her lip in agony "You would say it's the duty of my husband, you would say it's improper, that I am married and you engaged. You would say you don't want me, that you despise me too…" she choked on the last words got up and ran away as quickly as possible still in her state of undress.
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He came back home feeling empty inside. His life had flips upside down in just two hours. He did not know how he would look in Tenten's face after what happened. He did not know how he would be able to start their marriage and intimate relation having in memory the tight embrace of Hinata's legs around him. He did not know how he could live with Tenten knowing that Hinata's child will most probably be his. He was enrage by the way she did it, it made him really mad. But something deep inside was happy that she chose him, that she wanted to have his child. He did not know what to do with his life. But one thing was for sure, nothing would be the same.
The same night he asked Tenten to come over to eat dinner. He did not want to go out with her knowing how she would react to what he had to say to her. When he finally managed to start the topic, at first she thought he was struggling with his love for her, but when she heard he would not marry her she blew up. She yelled at him, cried, demanded an explanation. But he had nothing to offer her.
He felt bad inside, but there was no other way. There was only one woman in his life, she had been there for years, and it was high time he stopped pretending Tenten could take her place in his life.
The same night he returned to the house Hinata lived in. She opened the door dressed only in robe, her face red from crying, and her eyes full of pain. He hugged her, kissed her, and fought with the false ideas her husband planted in her head. Because for him she was everything. Because he really wanted her and he could prove it.