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Author note: This woulsn'r be posible without the help of my beta, Iheartjensen or Ellie, thank you so much for helping me with this one, really apreciate it!

Painful Memories

Mark knew that Steve would never agree with this but he couldn't say no to Julie. He did some calls and got the address to the road house. He searched for Julie and found her in her father's room, emptying his weapons and everything he had. He knew that it was a bad moment to bother her, he waited for a while until he hard some shots, he went outside and saw Julie shooting at a bag of dirt with the picture of Sam glued on it. He knew she was pissed and that the moment she had Sam Winchester in front of her, she was going to kill him. It hurt him to see her like that; there was no smile or life in her eyes, only hate and an incredible thirst for revenge. If Steve saw this he would be devastated. He approached her carefully but sadly not careful enough, she turned around pointing the gun right at his face.

"Whoa, calm down Julie, is just me, I got you address" Mark told her, keeping his hands on the air. Julie lowered her gun and grabbed the piece of paper, without a word she went inside the house and packed her stuff, she was heading there today. She had turned cold and distant when her mother had being killed in their own house which had made her father start hunting, she didn't like relationships but the casual one night stand kept her from killing someone. She needed to release everything she had inside and the shooting had helped a bit but not enough.

Mark walked into the room and tried to comfort her, she pushed him away telling him that wasn't what she needed, he asked her what it was and she kissed him, mark tried to stop her but she kept on kissing him and touching him in places that made a men loose his ability to think. They practically ripped each others clothes and between kisses and bites, he entered her, the movements were hard, frantic, there was no love in her only desperation and a need to forget. After a while he came but she didn't, even though she pretended she had and laid there just breathing. He kissed her and told her she was safe. After he fell asleep, she got up, took a shower, letting the water wash over her, she got dressed, put everything in her car and headed to the Road House Run by a Woman named Ellen. Just a few more hours and she would be face to face, with her father's killer.

She drove fast and Renegade by Styx was playing loud. She kept remembering the times she had shared with her dad, how he always made her feel safe and loved, they would play games and order pizza. They had a great relationship, he always told her she looked like her mother and that he would protect her with his life. Her birthdays weren't sad, her dad would go and buy a cake, invite his friends and make her feel like a normal kid, mark had always been there, he was the youngest of her dad's friends but if her dad ever found out what had happened between them, he would kill mark. I mean she was 23 but her dad still saw her as a ten year old girl His eyes who once held so much love were no longer there, his embrace which made her feel loved was gone and she was going to make the son of a bitch responsible for this regret ever being born.

She parked the car, got out and walked into the place. It looked old but it was okay. She saw a woman near the bar serving some drinks, there weren't that many people in there, only a guy who looked really strange, two guys a girl cleaning their guns.

"Hi welcome, name is Ellen, can I get you something?" Ellen asked. She walked closer to the bar and removed her jacket, she had a really tight top under it and as usual the men turned to look at her. She was use to this and had realized that sometimes it helped her on the job.

"Can I have a beer?" Julie asked. Ellen smiled and went to get it. She sat down and waited. Ellen brought her the beer and smiled.

"So what brings you here child" Ellen asked leaning over the table.

"Not much, working a hunt near by and needed a break, hey you have any idea where I can get a decent place to sleep" Julie explained, taking a sip of her beer.

"Well I got a few beds in here, you could use one, or stay in my daughter's room, since she isn't living here" Ellen replied, with a hint of sadness at the mention of her daughter.

"We daughters don't know how much we hurt our parents until we loose them" Julie told Ellen, with a look of sadness in her face.

"Oh sweetheart what happened?" Ellen asked taking Julie's hand in hers.

"He wanted me safe and I wanted to hunt, he loved me and always took care of me. Sadly I came to realize all that when is already too late." Julie explained. Ellen understood that he father was dead and she felt sorry for the girl. Julie ordered a couple of beers and something to eat. She heard the hunters and saw the weird guy working on his computer.

"The name is Ash" the guy told her. She approached him and sat down beside him, the guy knew what he was doing, and he was an expert on computers. She smiled and kept on drinking her beer until Ellen brought the food. In that moment a petite blond entered the place and at the look of Ellen's smile she knew it was probably her daughter. Ellen ran and hugged the girl and asked her about her life and everything. Julie watched the display remembering how many times her dad had done the same. Tears were threatening to come out, but she kept her act and forced a smile into her face. Ellen introduced them and Julie acted friendly, Jo went to change and fix some things.

"I guess I should look for another place to sleep in" Julie told Ellen.

"No I have more beds, in fact I know I'm going to be having two hunters staying in this place, don't worry there is plenty of room" Ellen told the girl.

"Glad to see you and your daughter together" Julie told Ellen smiling.

"I'm sure your dad is watching over you" Ellen told Julie. She nodded and sat down at the bar to eat. She had finished her meal when she heard a car parking. She heard the door being opened and saw Ellen smiling.

"Dean Sam is good to see you boys" Ellen said. Julie turned around and saw two guys. One she didn't know and the other one her father's killer. Dean she assumed had dark blonde hair, hazel green eyes, wearing a pair of blue jeans, grey shirt and a brown leather jacket. Sam was tall, had brown hair, green eyes, jeans, green shirt and a warm smile. To bad that his smile didn't warm Julie all it did was make her want to get up and beat they guy to dead.

"Dean and Sam Winchester meet Julie" Ellen told the boys.

Dean smirked and looked her up and down; Sam reached out his hand and greeted her nicely. She shook his hand, noticing how warm it was, she faked a smile, thinking soon his body was going to be cold and lifeless just like he father's.

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