It's been a week and a half of Kakashi's absences, and having Sakura and Ino around wasn't all that bad. I mean they did bicker at times, but I didn't mind. They also introduced me to a few other girls, no doubt them being Shinobi as well. Their name's were Hinata and TenTen. Hinata was a shy girl, but very kind. I also discovered that she had a bit of a crush on Naruto when Ino mention it, leaving the blue haired kunoichi red as an apple. TenTen had a perky personality, but simply went to a lethargy one at the mention of her team. I was a bit surprised that Gai was her sensei, but it made sense after she shared a few stories about him and one of her team-mates named Lee. I chuckled as she shared thoughs moments. The five of us went out for a girls night and each one of them helped me with getting my accent in check. By the end of the week Ino commented that she could barley tell that I had one! I also regained a new memory when we went out to eat. Again, It was with my mom and brother. I think we were celebrating my seventeenth birthday; I had to hold back my tears and quickly snap my self out of the trance before one of the girls noticed. Right now I was laying belly up in my bed; it was the middle of the night, and I couldn't get any sleep! My body wouldn't relax and just shut down.
'Dammit...I'm going to be tired as shit in the morning if I don't get some damn sleep!' I grabbed my extra pillow and shoved it in my face. "Sleep!...nope nothing..." I sighed into the pillow letting my arms fall out to the sides. "I miss Kakashi.." My lips moved on their own. My eyes widened. 'Did I really just say that?!What the hell!...' I began to think about it some more, but the fact was I really did miss him. These feelings I've been having for Kakashi have only developed more over time. It was so confusing and I couldn't just grasp the concept of this foreign emotion. "...Could...Could I really be in-love with Kakashi?" I asked myself through the pillow. "..No! No way." I swiped the fluffy puff of my face and quickly sat up. "I mean I don't even know what being in-love is like! I've never experienced it!..." I placed the puff back on my face as I threw my self back down. "At least not that I could remember...BUT-" I sat back up again the pillow falling into my lap. "-there's no other words I could describe this confusing feeling with other than... well confusing and just...happy.." I put my hands in my face and let out an exhale. The room was filled silence. "...come back soon,okay? So I can just punch you for making me feel this way,Kakashi-san." I added the honorific hoping somehow he could hear me. After a moment or two I swung my legs over the bed and stood up making my way to the silver haired man's room. When I made it there I lifted up his duvet and dove under it; grabbing his pillow holding it closely to me as I laid my head on the soft puff. Once I soon settled, the musky sent of Kakashi then filled my nose causing my body to instantly relax. After I took in a few natural breathes, I felt my self begin to drift off.
Ever sense then I ended up finding myself into Kakashi's bed. Somehow, just his scent made me feel safe and secure which led to a good nights rest. As much as it pained me to admit; I was in-love with Kakashi, and it would make my temper BLOW because I knew that there was no way he would return the feelings. I sometimes found myself crying some over it, but I would quickly put myself in check. I wasn't going to let these feelings get the best of me!..I hope. I was currently once again sleeping in his bed, but even in my dreams I would have the debate of how I ended up falling for him.
"Meta?" I heard Kakashi's voice call. Damn, I was even hearing his voice in my head.
"Hmm?" I cuddled against his pillow a bit more.
"Why are you in my bed?" I heard his voice ask.
"because I like the way you smell..." I mumbled still in my sleep. The voice of Kakashi paused for a moment.
"Ah, so you've missed me that much hm? It's nice to know that I'm cared about." His voice was filled tease.
"wha-?" My eyes peeked open to meet a man with a mask. My eyes widen as I screamed and jumped back against the wall. "W-What the hell?!" I threw the pillow at the guy. He easily caught it.
"Mah,mah Meta. Calm down, it's just me." He pulled his mask off and placed it on the side of his head. I blinked a few times just to make sure I wasn't dreaming.
"Kakashi?" I asked astonished.
"Mh-hm." He nodded. "and what was this about you liking the way I smell,hm?" He narrowed his eye and smirked with a snicker as he leaned over a bit with his arms crossed.
"A-Ano" My eyes widened and I huffed. "Never-mind that!" I waved then pointed at him. "I thought you were going to be gone for two weeks! There's still like three days left or somethin'!" I prosecuted. He striated back up and put his hand over his heart.
"and here I thought you actually missed me,Meta-Chan." He parented to be hurt.
'You have no clue...' "Tch." I crossed my arms. "Answer the question, Hatake."
His hand dropped and made it's way into his pocket. "I finished the mission early and I thought I'd stop by and see how you were doing before I reported back to the Hokage."
"Can't you get in trouble for that?"
He shrugged. "Haven't so far." After a moment my face softened.
'He wanted to see...how I was?...' I thought before I crawled over the the edge of the bed. "Come here." I beckoned.
"Hm?Why-"
"Just come here ya dummy!" He hesitated at first but then took a couple steps towards me. I reached my arms out and wrapped them around him giving him a hug. "Thank you for checking up on me. I appreciate it, Kakashi." There was a short paused before I felt his arms wrap around me as well.
"Mah, it's no biggie. Besides, I had to make sure you didn't burn up the place which Im very surprised you didn't." He staid in a matter-of-fact tone. I whacked him up-top the head.
"Seriously?!You totally spoiled the moment, idiot!" My temper bursted.
"euhe." He rubbed the back of his head before putting his Anbu mask back in place. "I'll be back in a few." He took a step on the windowsill. "Ja ne." The leaf-nin then hopped out the window and made his way to the Hokage's building. I got up and walked over, sticking my head out the window watching him fade into the distance. I let out a sigh before hearing a voice from below.
"Hm?" I looked down to see Ino and Sakura.
"Who was that?!" Ino demanded.
"What are you guys doing here? and It was just Kakashi."
"Kakashi-Sensei is back already?" Sakura asked.
I nodded as I rested my elbow on the windowsill and placed my chin in my palm. "Yeah. He said he finished early. So, he just quickly stopped by before heading over to the Hokage." I pointed my thumb in the direction of the building.
Ino raised a brow. "What else did he do?Or should I say what did you both do?" I rolled my eyes.
"Oh, get your mind out of the gutter! He just came to see how I was doing." I grumbled. The girls just exchanged looks.
"Yeah, okay Meta!" Sakura agreed a bit sarcastically. "Well, if Kakashi's back then I guess we don't have to stop by as much." The pinkette informed.
"But that doesn't mean we're never going to come over! We still need to talk about you and Kakashi!" The blond exclaimed from below. I let out an irritated sigh.
"Yeah yeah, whatever. Now shoo!" I motioned my hands. "Before you make an even bigger scene!" Both girls chuckled as they locked arms and began their leave.
"Oh!" Sakura paused. "And tell Kakashi-Sensei that he owes Naruto and I an apology for bailing on us!" It took me a while to understand what she was talking about.
"Oh. You mean the sparing match?" She nodded. "Alright!" I chuckled. "I'll be sure to hit him upside the head." I nodded with a smile.
"See ya!" The two spoke in unison.
"It's about time Kakashi-Sensei found someone." Sakura talked to Ino.
"Yeah. I always thought he was just going to live alone forever, but it seems like that's not going to happen...Now, all we have to do is fine you someone so you wont end up that way." Ino snickered.
"Oh shut it Pig!" I sighed, stepping back and closing the window. I went to walk out, but I stopped mid-step as I got a good look at the bed. It was just screaming Come lie down! I'm fluffy,warm, and I smell like Kakashi! Nope, that was it. I couldn't resist the temptation. I ran over and jumped back on; quickly sliding underneath the covers. I was woken back up from what seemed like only minutes of sleep by a shake on the shoulder.
"I leave for nearly twenty-five minutes, and I come back only to find you still in my bed." I didn't reply to the voice of Kakashi. "Come on. Get up." He urged. I grumbled as I sat up still with a full bed head, instantly locking my tired eyes with his half lidded charcoal one. "Good. Now get up, and ready. It's already pretty late for just waking up." Kakashi stated. I watched him leave, and I kept a good stare on the door as it shut. Letting gravity take over; my body fell face first back on the comfy cushion.
Silence.
Just as I was about to doze off again the door was slammed open.
"I knew it!" Kakashi accused. "If you lay in bed all day-" He walked over and swiped the blankets off. "-you're going to get fat."
"Go awaaaayyyy." I complained which only resulted in him grabbing my ankles.
"Kakashi don't you dare." I warned. He responded by pulling me off the bed and throwing me over his shoulder. "nnnoooooo" I groaned as I let my body stay limp. I was to groggy to do anything physical while he carried me away.
"I am going to start up a bath, and you are to get washed and woken up."
"Hmf, and who are you to tell me what to do?"
"I'm the guy who takes care of you because I do in fact care about my lazy-ass,short tempered, brunette roommate."
'Oh yeah sure. I'M the lazy-ass' I rolled my tired eyes, and stayed quiet for the rest of the short trip. Kakashi then placed me down outside of the bathroom before entering, and starting up the bath. I stared, half lidded, at the wall in front of me blankly before finding my way back to Kakashi's room and into his bed.
Again silence.
The first noise I heard was the creak of the door opening. I lightly lifted my head and peeked my eyes open to see Kakashi standing in the door way glaring right at me...and once again I was was slung back over his shoulder and carried away.
"Kakashiiiiiiiii" I whined, and the only response he gave me was by dropping me into the tub fully clothed.
"Don't take too long." He sang before leaving, shutting the door behind him.
"Ass-hole." I growled before peeling my now soaked clothes off.
"Cursing won't get you cleaned." I heard him through the door.
"Shut it,BAKA!" I threw my wet shirt at the door resulting in a light thump. "Hmf." I crossed my arms over my now nude body, and puffed out my cheeks. 'That damn Kakashi...not letting me sleep n' all!...' My cheeks soon relaxed. 'but I am glad he's back unharmed, so...' I exhaled before I splashed some water in my face, and quickly started to wash my hair. "This bath does feel nice though..." I commented. I started leaning back, and sinking into the water until my head was completely under, and I stayed under until my lungs demanded for air. After a few moments of scrubbing down my body I took this time to relax, and let my thoughts once again take over.
"I need to find a job...become a shinobi maybe?..." The mention of being a Ninja had brought me back to the memory of my little brother Kan...If I do recall, he did say that I was sixteen at the time and that he was about to be seven, so now he must be around...eleven? I sighed. 'So I know that I have an eleven year old brother and a Mom out there somewhere, but...what about a Dad? I remember Kan asking if our Dad was ever going to come back. What's that supposed to mean?' "I wonder If I should tell Kakashi..." I muttered before splashing some water in my face for the last time. I then stood up and stepped out, unplugging the drain along the way. I pushed my wet clothes aside, which I would have to deal with later, with my foot then grabbed a towel off the rack, and wrapped myself in it. Reaching out for the door knob; I opened it feeling the cool air hit my skin. I made my way to my room, and put a new layer of clothes on before drying my hair some. I brushed out the medium length hair of which I had, then set the brush back down on my desk before heading back out. I walked into the main room to see Kakashi leaning against the counter reading his book still in Anbu uniform. I knew it was Anbu because for one, it looked similar to the one the other Anbu dude that was here a few weeks ago had on, and two; the mask. Kakashi told me that each member receives a mask to better the chances of keeping their identities hidden. It made sense. I walked over and reached up to grab a cup from the cupboard. "So Kakashi."
"Hm?" He grunted not bothering to look up from his booklet.
"How'd the mission go?"
"Meta, you know I can't-" I put my hand up before he could finish.
"I'm not asking for the details." I waved off before going back, and grabbing some juice. I heard him snap his book shut.
"It went smoothly."
I huffed a laugh as I poured the said juice in my cup. "You don't seem to be too happy about that." I put the juice back in the fridge. "You thirsty for some action?" I took a sip of it as I looked to him only to see that both of his eyes were open and he had scrunched up his nose a bit. "What?" I scanned his facial features, and that's when I realized how badly I had phrased my last sentence. "O-Oh! I didn't mean it like that!" I blushed resulting in a chuckle from him.
"Sure you didn't." He gave me a wink before reaching over, and patting my head which only made me blush even more. I started to feel my stomach fill with a pool of butterfly's. I quickly tried to shake off the feeling before It developed.
He retracted his hand. "How've you been? You're accent is hardly even notice able anymore, did you work on it while I was away?"
"Oh,I've been...good, and yes." I looked to him. "Sakura and Ino were the two shinobi assign to watch me, but it was more like girls night out every-night!" I chuckled. "I also met two others named Hinata and TenTen."
"Ah, I see, and I assume that's how you picked up how to speak more fluently?" I nodded.
"Yup!and...I discovered other things along the way as well." I grew a bit silent towards the end.
"...memories?"
'That and my confusing feelings about you.' "Yeah...I've gained two so far."
"When?"
"Well the most recent one was during lunch with the girls and the other one was when...when we were having breakfast together. It was the same day you were assigned to leave." I cleared my throat a bit.
"Ah...so you were crying." I tilted my head a bit.
"Hm?"
"You told me that you had caught some dust in your eyes, but I could tell you were a bit off." I was surprised he remembered that, but I guess Shinobi do pay attention to detail.
"Y-You did? Why didn't you say anything?"
"Well, you were obviously uncomfortable with talking about it, and I wouldn't want to push you on something that makes you unhappy." Now THAT made my heart flutter.
"...Oh.." I adverted my eyes.
"But Metairie." He started up again. I looked back at the man to be met with a serious but caring expression from him. "Never think that I'm not willing to listen, and don't be afraid to cry in front of me. We are only human, and being human comes with the price of having emotions. Emotions in which show who we really are. So, don't cover up who you are. Okay?" He stated wisely as he gave me his signature eye crinkle smile along with his relaxed pose.
"Yeah..." I softly began to nod as my face grew a smile. "Okay...you like to hear about my memories?" I already knew the answer, but asked anyways.
"Of course." I took in a big breath before exhaling.
"Alright..Well the first one I had, the one from breakfast, was about my little brother named Kan and I. We were having breakfast as well which is probably what triggered it." I paused. "Then the next one was about me dining with him and my mother. Which I gained when I was having dinner with the girls...Kakashi, I think every-time something similar happens now in which somehow relates to my past; I gain a memory."
He nodded. "Yeah. I had came up with that theory from your first experience; back with the fire-works. I was going to inform you, but I thought I should wait and see if it occurs again just to be safe." I nodded in understatement. "Does it give you pain every-time you receive one?"
I shook my head. "No, these past two haven't hurt at all, unlike the first one. Now that hurt. All that happens now is I kinda just zone out, and all my senses become dull."
"Hm." Kakashi looked else where. "The more we know about your past, the more we get to know where you came from, and the easier it will be to handle your situation."
'Wait, was that really all he cared about? Was to make this all easier for him?' My thoughts began to run on their own. 'And what if this was all just some act to make me feel as if I could talk to him?' The negative kept flowing. It's hard not to keep them back, and my brain was just blowing them WAY out of proportion.
"But what if I don't want to know..." Kakashi glanced at me from the corner of his eye.
"And why is that?" The whole room was silent beside the sounds of our voices, but even then it seemed like we were the only ones on this planet.
I sat my glass down with more force than intended causing some of its content to splash out. "I mean why would I want to know about a family that could possibly be dead?" I began to once again rant on. "What if that's how I ended up like this?! Like some tragedy happened resulting in me having this DAMN memory loss, and somehow appearing in the middle of the woods!" I yell. "and if my family is in fact alive how do I know they haven't stopped looking for me?! Hm?! Maybe they just gave up!" My rage grew more and more as I continued on and on. Kakashi only stood and listened. "Maybe things would be better off if I just killed myself!" Those last words sorta slipped out on their own. I was now lightly panting after letting all that out with-out hardly taking any breaths in-between. I stared at Kakashi's expression which has yet to change. "Well?!" I yelled shaking my head a bit.
He only stood there, looking down upon me with both eyes open. "I only advise to you not make a permanent decision for your temporary emotion." He walked off leaving me to think about thoughs words. The house seemed so empty and quiet that only the sound that I heard was of his door opening and closing. I was now staring at the once filled space where Kakashi was standing. Alright, so I did over react. My thoughts do tend to speed off into their own direction and not really think them through. I looked down to my feet.
'No. Kakashi has been nothing but kind to me over these past few months. This wouldn't be an act.' I shook my head. "Maybe I should apologize." I padded down the hall and to his door. "Kakashi?" I knocked. Nothing. "Look, I'm sorry for sorta blowing up back there." I rubbed the back of my head. "and I take back what I said about ki-" I was interrupted by the door quickly opening and Kakashi wrapping his arms around me. He then bent down and made contact with my lips against his masked ones.
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