HERE. HAVE ANOTHER. Also the song I decided to go with is "This Love" by Ellie Goulding! Trust me when I say it took FOREVER to decided on which song.
Killing Loneliness
Chapter 15: Who Are We To Be Emotional
Loki awoke in Tony's bed. The spot next to him was empty of the man which he had lain with. Loki sat up stiffly, glancing around the room. Sitting on the end table next to him sat a pile of clothes which consisted of a t-shirt that had Black Sabbath on it and pajama pants. Loki raised an eyebrow, but put on the clothes Tony had picked out for him.
After getting dressed he glanced down at the apparel. This was definitely a way for Tony to see him in clothes other than his suit. Loki couldn't help but laugh at the prospect. He began to walk towards the door exiting the room.
He began to smell something that didn't seem to appealing. Opening the kitchen door he smelled, once more, burnt eggs.
"I am starting to believe that you are unable to feed yourself," Loki stated, walking up behind Tony to look at the black eggs. "As I recall, eggs are one of the simpler things to create in this realm."
"Shut up." Tony pouted before placing the pan in the sink. "I doubt you could do much better."
Tony finally glanced up at the god eyeing him. "You are wearing the outfit." Tony grinned. "You should totally wear things like that much more."
"I do admit these clothes are highly comfortable." Loki paused before getting another pan out. "And I can create some eggs, Anthony, just you watch."
"Alright, but if you mess them up, you owe me…something." Tony was looking at the pan Loki had placed on the oven.
"And what would that be?" Loki raised an eyebrow before breaking an egg on the side of the pan. Two eggs began to simmer.
"I can't tell you that now. It won't be too bad. Just an answer to a question." Tony shrugged before watching the god cook.
Loki thought about the arrangement before nodding. "I shall agree to this."
"Great!" Tony got a mischievous smile. "Have you looked up any of those sayings yet? Or are you going to continue being clueless when we mention them?"
Loki glared at the man but continued to cook. "No. I have not," he told him stiffly. He flipped one of the eggs as he did.
Tony hummed in acknowledgement. He shifted himself so he was now closer to Loki. "You are just going to continue asking us to explain then?"
"If it bothers you so, I shall stop asking," Loki told him, getting a bit aggravated. Humans had such a wide variety of sayings, Loki could not learn them all.
"It doesn't bother me." Tony was now standing directly behind the god, his breath on his neck. Loki turned around quickly.
"Anthony, what are you doi-" Loki questioned with a raised eyebrow before being interrupted as Tony kissed him. Tony grasped his shirt pulling him down to deepen the kiss. Teeth and tongue battled it out attempting to come out on top; neither wanted to lose to the other. Loki grasped Tony's head, bringing him closer. It wasn't long until they both backed away for air.
Tony took a couple breaths before turning to Loki with a massive smirk on his face. "I win."
Loki gave the man a curious look before turning back to the stove. He began to curse. The eggs were burnt. "That is cheating."
"Hey, you did not add any rules. I just helped so I would win." Tony chuckled, still having a grin.
Loki glanced at the eggs mournfully. He placed the pan on top of Tony's old one in the sink. "So what is it you wish to ask?"
Tony, no longer having a smile on his lips, looked straight at Loki. "When you made a deal with the Frost Giants," he paused, "what did you get in return?"
Loki stiffened. He was not expecting such a question.
"It has been bugging me. You made deal with the giants, to the point of betraying everyone." Tony was studying the god. "What is worth such a risk?"
Loki gave Tony a humorless chuckle. "Out of all the things you could have asked, why that?"
"Every time you mentioned it, you had a weird expression on your face. It was as if you just wanted to forget it ever happened," Tony stated, looking away from the god.
"A tracking spell," Loki mumbled. "It was a tracking spell."
Tony gave him a confused look. "I thought you said Asgard had its own tracking section. Why did you need to get another one?"
Loki gaze fell upon the man. "Asgard has no such division. I told that as a lie."
"Then why did you -" Tony eyes widened in realization, "You didn't. Please tell me you didn't."
Loki could no longer look at the man, turning away.
"You gave everything up to help me?" Tony asked perplexed, "Why? I didn't deserve it!"
"But you did, Anthony," Loki told him. "I felt so alone before I met you. I couldn't lose that."
"You had Pepper and Happy," Tony told him. "You could have been fine with them."
"It wouldn't have been the same." Loki couldn't help but mumble, "Even with them, I felt alone."
"But you are not alone. You have those two. You have me. And your brother; he cares about you, doesn't he? There is your family. They have to care about you."
"My brother," Loki held so much venom as he spoke, "is a greedy, arrogant idiot who does only what he wants. My father never cared for me. After all, he has his perfect child ready to take the throne."
"You don't really believe that, do you?" Tony asked.
Loki glared at him. "I can and will. You do not know of the looks I have received from my father, nor the punishments."
Tony was silent. His eyes only studied Loki in front of him.
Loki, not being able to take the silence, spoke once more. "I do not want to lose the one person whom I have never felt wanted to use me for their own purpose."
Tony walked up to the god before stopping right in front of him. "Loki." His voice was soft. He moved his hands, placing them on Loki's face. "You are crying."
Loki had not noticed the cascade of tears that poured from his eyes. Tony grasped him, hugging him tightly.
"Please don't leave me behind again." Loki grasped a hold of Tony. "I am always left forgotten."
"You will never have to feel the way again. I promise," Tony told him with conviction. "I will always wait for you."
Loki just held Tony tighter, unable to let go of him. Loki looked Tony in the eye, whispering a quiet "Thank you."
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After that morning Loki stayed near Tony much more than he had prior. Even when Tony was in his garage, Loki would watch him create his little devices. Tony had even taught him how to make a few things of his own. Loki could also repair Tony's suit to the point where it looked new.
"Anthony…" Loki said one day while Tony was working on his many projects. Loki bit his lip. "I was wondering if you would show me how to create an Arc Reactor."
Tony paused, glancing over to Loki giving him a questioning look. "Why?"
"It is just-," Loki pondered his next words. "I am concerned if you get into a condition where you will be unable to create your own reactor."
Tony eyed the god before shaking his head yes. "Sure. Come here and I will show you."
Loki stood and walked towards the man. Tony had grabbed many different items to create the device. "I have changed it since the prototype."
Tony began to explain the inner workings of the Arc Reactor.
About an hour into explaining Tony asked, "You are coming to my birthday right?"
Loki seemed surprised by the questioned, "Of course. When is it?" Loki began to think of how old Tony was and flinched a bit. Loki hadn't thought of how fast humans aged compared to gods until Tony had mentioned it. His mind started to go into overdrive, trying to think of a way to slow the aging process of mortals.
"Next month. It is going to be huge! You are totally going to love it," Tony told him, taking his hands away from the device he had been creating, cutting Loki out of his thoughts. "It is the 29th actually."
Loki realized the issue immediately. "The 29th? Why does it have to be that day?" Loki mumbled the last part more to himself.
"Why? Is there an issue?" Tony asked, looking over towards Loki.
"Yes. I -" Loki fidgeted, annoyed, just like every time he thought of Thor. "That is the day of the crowning."
"Oh," Tony responded. "Well skip it! My party is way more important." Tony tried to get Loki to go to his party instead. He appeared to be much more desperate than Loki had thought he would be.
"I cannot miss the crowning," Loki murmured. He would have skipped out on it if not for the deal with the Frost Giants allowing them access to Asgard on that one day. He would have missed the crowning any day for Tony. "Even if I do not receive the crown, as Prince of Asgard, I am obligated to attend the event."
Loki let out a sigh. "I truly wish I could come to your birthday, Anthony."
"It's fine. You will have to make up for it in some way." Tony gave him a wink.
Loki let out a chuckle. "Perhaps I shall repay you after your day of birth."
Tony grinned, but for some reason, Loki could not see it reach his eyes.
"I truly am sorry," Loki told him, noticing the look.
"After my birthday it is then. You have to do give me something the day right after though." Tony looked away, back down towards the Arc Reactor. Loki noticed how he looked at it with what seemed to be bitterness.
"It is a deal, then." Loki nodded in agreement.
"Deal," Tony managed to get out.
"Now let us get back to this little device." Tony motioned towards the item. "We are almost done already."
It didn't take much longer before the device was complete and being held in the hands of Loki.
"That did not seem as difficult as I thought it would," Loki mumbled, staring at the device.
Tony let out a laugh. "I created it in a cave, what did you expect?"
"Well, as it is keeping you alive, so I believed the mechanics of it were going to be much more dynamic," Loki told him, looking up at Tony.
Tony nodded in agreement. "That is the beauty of it. Sometimes, the simplest things are the most important."
"Thank you for teaching me how to create this, Anthony," Loki said, smiling.
"No problem, Loki. Thanks for being concerned about me. Not many people would be." Tony returned his smile and patted him on the back. "Well. Look at the time. I am hungry. Let's go eat."
Tony stood stretching, "Jarvis? Order us some pizza."
"Alright sir. And may I say, what a lovely moment you just ruined," Jarvis replied sarcastically. "I almost thought it came out of a romance movie."
"Hey. I can get rid of you," Tony told the machine, getting a chuckle out of Loki.
Tony stood and went towards the door. "Well? You coming?" Tony asked over his shoulder at Loki.
"Of course," Loki told him, following the man out of the garage. They ate the food, talking about this and that for the rest of the evening. After that Loki left and headed home once more. He truly did love the time he spent with Tony. He now had more worries than before. His concern for Tony being mortal weighed heavy on his mind as he entered his apartment. No matter how much Loki hated it, Tony was mortal.
Seriously. This chapter did NOT want to get written *facepalm* EVERY TIME I ATTEMPTED TO TYPE IT WAS LIKE NOOOOO. At one point I pretty much erased most of it and started writing again -_- SILLY CHAPTER. STOP BEING ANNOYING.