Sorry for the lateness on this chapter! I think the Loki inside my head was ignoring me... I think he was jealous of a character I have been RPing as so yeah. Silly Loki. He just started to talk to me again. ;D hehehe
Killing Loneliness
Chapter 18: I Never Listen To Myself
The plane ride back had been quiet. Neither man was willing to speak about what had happened, which caused them both to be silent. When the plane landed Tony let out a sigh, "I am sorry." He murmurs.
"No need to apologize, Mr. Stark." Loki says stiffly, "I should have known this was going to happen. After all I am a god, while you are not."
Tony flinches back at Loki's words, "You don't actually mean that." He says hopefully.
Loki is silent once more standing up to exit the plane.
"Loki. Please stay. I don't want you to leave." Tony says in the softest voice Loki has ever heard him use.
Loki shakes his head, "I cannot watch as you slowly die in front of me. I refuse to." Loki explains.
"I don't want to die alone." Tony mumbles looking down, losing his usual edge.
Loki clenches his hands, "Nor do I want to live alone, but we both know we can't change that." He snaps back.
"Loki…" Tony says, studying the god.
"I shall go back to Asgard to think things over. I shall be back only when I deem necessary." Loki tells him stiffly, refusing to look towards the man. "Goodbye, Mr. Stark."
Tony watches the god's back, "Why are you running away?"
"I could ask you the same question." Loki says still walking away.
Tony was silent after that, letting Loki leave the area.
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Loki had left Midgard in his anger towards Tony. He had yet to go back to even speak with the man and it had been almost 3 days. He did not know how to speak with Tony after the exchange. Loki did not want to lose the one thing he had earned. He couldn't help but run for fears of seeing Tony slowly wither away from him. After all, he was a god, it was only a matter of time before the human he had begun to care for died. It would happen in the blink of an eye for him.
Now he sat in the banquet hall eating with all of Asgard. All he was able to do was glare at the fake laughs that carried through the room. He stood, not able to take any more of this and began to leave the room. He started to think he should go visit Tony one last time before everything he had done started to crash down. He started to head down the corridor when he heard the door behind him open again. He turned to find the Warriors Three and Sif.
"If it isn't the three buffoons and their sidekick," Loki grumbled, glaring at them. "What do you want?"
Sif rolled her eyes and walked up to Loki. "We were wondering where you were going."
"It is not as if you care." Loki gritted his teeth. He didn't want to deal with them right now.
Volstagg stood farther back. "Thor requested we keep an eye on you. He said you had been acting quite strange as of late."
Loki scowled at the man. "Tell my brother, I am not a child and can take care of myself."
"He is only worried for you." Hogun spoke up, standing in a stiff position.
"Worried or not, I am perfectly capable on my own," Loki said with steel in his voice.
Hogun sighed. "He said you would say that."
Loki continued to glare at the group. "Leave me be." He turned and started to leave again.
"I say he is just upset he can't go play with his human toy," Fandral said, rolling his eyes.
Loki stopped, his body becoming rigid. "Excuse me?" he stated venomously.
"All of Midgard knows of your involvement with that human," Fandral explained. "Probably just found something fun to destroy and couldn't stay away."
Loki swiftly took out a dagger and moved to attack Fandral. Frandal blinked before getting his own weapon out, making it so Loki's dagger was blocked.
Loki grabbed another dagger with his other hand, bringing it close to Fandral's face, causing a small cut to form on the man's cheek.
Fandral glared at the man. "You want to fight. Fine," he stated, moving his sword towards the other god. Loki clashed one of his daggers against the sword. He moved his hand, attempting to cut Fandral, narrowly missing the man.
Loki let out a growl, pushing the man back with all his strength. Fandral moved back, about to leap forward for another attack when a loud voice said, "Stop."
They both turned to see Thor standing there. "What is going on?" He demanded.
"Your brother went crazy and started to attack me," Fandral said, looking offended. "I had to protect myself against the fool."
Loki looked at Fandral with a heated gaze before turning away, walking off in another direction. He ignored his brother's calls, wanting peace and quiet. Loki wandered to the place he knew no one would find him. He had a place to hide since his childhood. It was just out of the castle walls, where he headed now.
Loki walked there, letting his mind go, his thoughts highly jumbled from what they should have been. Whenever he attempted to focus on a certain subject, Tony would show up again in his head. Loki began to curse the man. If he hadn't met him, he wouldn't be in this mess.
He clenched his hands. He should have never continued to speak with the man. All it had caused him was pain to the point of agony. He had unbelievable rage coursing through him as well. It had been nothing compared to the other feelings he had prior; even being left behind by Thor didn't cause him this much discomfort.
Loki stopped thinking about it the day he left. The day spent watching the Northern Lights, as Tony called them. He allowed a warm smile on his lips, before shaking his head out of the memory.
"Why does everything I love end up leaving me," he murmured to himself.
"Loki!" A voice broke him out of his thoughts. Loki turned to find Thor waving at him. "Brother, I wish to speak with you."
Loki's eyes narrowed but he nodded. "What is it, Brother? Fandral tell you I went crazy for no reason?"
Thor studied Loki a moment before shaking his head. "I wish to hear your side, as you are more level headed than most."
"I did attack Fandral out of spite. Now will you leave me be?" Loki asked, beginning to walk away again.
Thor took steps evenly with his brother. "I do not believe that for one minute. Explain it to me."
"I do not need to speak of anything with you. Go. Before I get pissed off at you, Thor." Loki seethed.
Thor grabbed Loki's shoulder, turning him. "Loki. I am concerned about you. Tis true I asked the warriors to follow you." Thor nodded. "I only wish we were as close as we once were, brother. You have not been the same since your time in Midgard."
"Sorry I am not the same person as you believed me to be." Loki snarled at Thor, causing the thunder god to jump.
"It was the mortal, wasn't it." Thor's voice hardened. "He has done something."
Loki didn't look at Thor and glared off.
"I am right in my assumption then," Thor growled. "I shall make sure that fool pays for what he did."
"You shall not," Loki said, his head snapping towards Thor. "He has done nothing wrong, and if you ever try and harm him I will make your life a living hell."
Thor narrowed his eyes at his brother. "You have changed."
Loki just crossed his arms in response.
"And that mortal is to blame," Thor said. "You should stay away from that man."
"If I must stay away, I will only go visit him more." Loki grunted. "You cannot stop me from doing as I please."
Thor gave him a stiff nod. "That is true, but father can stop you."
Loki moved up towards Thor. "And what could he do? Are you not supposed to be the king?"
"I am, and as such, father has banned any attempt to travel to other worlds until my crowning," Thor told him boastfully.
Loki blinked in surprise. "Father would never do such a thing."
"You could ask him yourself," Thor replied to his sibling.
Loki could see no lie in Thor's words. He pushed past his brother, going back to the hall where everyone was eating. He walked past all the onlookers, stopping at his father.
"What is this that Thor informs me of about not being able to travel?" Loki questioned, his voice even.
Odin looked up at Loki. "The crowning is only in a couple days. To make sure everyone was present, I requested no on travel during this time frame."
"The only person that has been traveling is me." Loki's eyes narrowed at his father. "Are you insinuating that I should not be allowed to leave this place?"
Odin shook his head. "That is not why I put it in place."
"You want me trapped here for Thor's oh so wondrous occasion?" Loki said in a sarcastic voice.
"It would be wise to calm yourself, Loki. We are speaking the in the presence of our people," Odin said, looking down the table.
"Screw that-" Loki snapped.
Odin stood up. "Loki, come speak with me for a moment." His voice had a hard edge.
They both walked out of the hall, going into one of the private rooms.
"It has come to my attention you have been spending too much time with that mortal," Odin explained in a strained voice.
"That mortal is better than everyone in that hall," Loki replied stiffly, pointing in the direction where they had come from.
"A king does not say one singular person is better than the rest," Odin said towards Loki.
"Good thing I am not going to be king," Loki growled back.
Odin glanced back at Loki, giving him a hard look. "You should watch your tone, son."
Loki continued to glare but did not retort.
"You are a part of this family, so I expect you to act as such. That means no going around with a mortal doing whatever you please," Odin said, standing tall.
Loki bit his tongue from replying harshly. "Yes. Father," he ground out.
Odin nodded, heading towards the door.
"He is dying." Loki spoke up. "Anthony is dying." His voice coming out short, "I wish to see him before his time on Midgard passes."
Odin turned back slowly. "What is causing his death?" he questions.
Loki paused. Odin had never been interested in his life. "Poison of the like we have never seen before."
The All Father gave a short nod. "Perhaps it is for the best. You will be done with this adventure with his passing."
Loki flinched back as he said that. "I wish to stop his demise in any way possible, father. Please allow me to do so. Allow me a golden apple."
The All Father shook his head quickly. "You know the rules, Loki. No human, under any circumstance, is to be allowed the apple of the gods."
"Father plea-" Loki was about to plead.
"Don't Loki. Hold the pride you have left," Odin said, opening the door. "The death of the mortal will help remind you, you don't belong with them." He walked out, leaving Loki there.
Loki let out a cry of anger as he left. He would just steal an apple, but he knew Tony would refuse it in thought of it being stolen. Not only that, he couldn't leave before Thor's crowning. He was going to make sure to raise hell on that day. His brain was already calculating what to plan for the day.
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Today was the day of the crowning. Loki had come out, talking with everyone as if his trip to Midgard never happened. He laughed with Thor, telling him a joke. Every person believed him to be just the normal god he used to be.
He watched as Thor gets ready for his crowning. He watched as the god he knew wasn't ready to be king, put on his red cape.
Loki gave him a fake smile. "Brother, are you ready for today?" he questioned.
"Yes, it the day I have been waiting for all my years," Thor told him with a massive grin.
"You haven't been the only one waiting for it," Loki murmured, a little bit annoyed.
Thor put a hand on his shoulder. "I would always love your thoughts above everyone else. If I ever had questions, you know I would come to you, brother."
Loki felt a bit sick as Thor told him these words. His regret started to sink in. Instead he grinned at Thor. "Of course, you wouldn't last a week without my expertise on a subject," covered his sudden thoughts of discouragement at the arrangement with the Frost Giants.
Thor nodded in agreement. "Tis true." This only caused Loki to feel even worse.
"Brother, sometimes I am envious of you." Loki paused, taking a breath. "But never doubt that I love you."
Thor looked at his brother, studying him. "Thank you. I have missed you," Thor said, turning back to the entrance. "Really, how do I look?"
Loki glanced at Thor, seeing wonder in his eye. He sighed out, "Like a king," before he turned and made his way to his spot, unable to lie to Thor's face any longer.
Loki stood, watching his brother make his grand entrance. He watched as his father began the ceremony. The deed was almost done when he heard, "Frost Giants," said by his father. Loki stiffened immediately.
ALRIGHTY! Some of Thor in there! Don't worry! We will still be getting a lot of Tony in the near future! You will just have to give it a moment.