A little later then planned, but here's chapter 2

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Two

'Maybe Deeks had been right.'

'Mr. Callen?' she asks as she looks up to him with that same look. The one that feigned ignorance but he knew she knew what he was talking about. He's a tad surprised to find himself irritated by it, it's like she plays them, each and every one of them. It's the shocking realization that in the end they are nothing but some pieces on a chessboard, hers to move wherever she wants to.

'What if he didn't have a shot? What if he was telling the truth? We have all been feeding off Kensi's anger, but what if she was angry at herself for letting herself get caught and just needed some feet to lay the blame? We both know she won't admit to making a mistake.'

'We, even our Mr. Deeks are specially trained agents. It's something we deal with, need to accept as a part of our life. To understand that there is no easy day.' She replies looking over her glasses at him and while he's taller than her, she's actually staring him down.

'But we're also human. We might like to say that we will lay down our life to protect this country but when that moment is there, there is a gigantic gap between theory and reality.'

'Mr. Callen, I never asked to lay down your life…..'

'And yet you punish Deeks for not taking a shot that could have severely harmed or even killed Kensi.'

'And what makes you think I have been punishing Mr. Deeks? This could just be an operation that required Miss Blye's skill set. '

'One no one seems to know about! And I'm pretty sure there are people inside this agency that have Kensi's skill set, it just wouldn't hurt as much by sending them!'

He's getting worked up, a smile voice inside his mind tells him not to, that he can't win it like that from her but he's too angry. Mostly because he realizes that if she did this to Deeks and Kensi, she probably would have done it to him as well. She's a master in chess and it seems like they are nothing but pieces on the board to her.

'Mr. Callen, I can assure you that…' but she doesn't get that far as he cuts her off.

'Then where is Kensi, and why the hell isn't she sitting at her desk right now!'

He's aware of the silence around him, of the people stopping in their tracks but he doesn't care. He's angry and right now his little boss can know that he is and with whom he's angry. Once again she was about to give him answer that meant nothing at all. Yeah she could assure him whatever she wanted but he would know nothing more. He has no illusion whatsoever that she'll tell him what's going on, but at least he's been able to let her know that he's not okay with it, that the entire team is not okay with it.

She remains silent and he's not sure what that is all about. Not that he's used to her yelling back but at least she would have some sort of a reply ready. That sets off another line of thinking and suddenly he's very aware of what's going on here. He's not too happy about it, it means that some things in his life hadn't been an accident, but what's done is done. He just got to make sure it won't happen again.

'Look' he starts, his tone a whole lot softer than before.

'They were awkward with each other, but honestly that's okay with me. If they weren't then it would have meant a lot had been happening right under our noses without us noticing. '

'We can't have awkwardness around here. You need to rely on each other, to be able to know what the other will be doing.' She injects some wisdom in the conversation.

'Yeah, but they were getting there but that case wasn't helping. They would have been awkward with each other anyway. Kensi would have never liked Deeks going in there alone, to somehow make things right. She would have stormed off no matter what and we should be glad she did, Deeks would have been dead if she didn't.
Besides we know what it's like.'

'We know what is like what?' She asks.

'What it's like to be lonely in this world. We know what it's like to come home alone, to have no one waiting for us. It might be for decisions we now regret, fact, turns of events we didn't have a hand in, decisions that had been made for us. It doesn't matter, the outcome is still the same.' He explains looking her in the eye, oh she knows what he had been talking about.

'Your point being, Mr. Callen?'

'Knowing all that, are we really gonna let Kensi and Deeks suffer through the same?'

Callen left her alone a while ago, she's already been through an entire pot of tea but the conversation won't leave her alone. Deeks words, combined with the somewhat heated discussion with Callen has left her wondering. She would never deny she had regrets or made mistakes but this one was staring her down in the face and might leave a lot more scars then she had planned on.

Yeah picking Kensi had been made easier after seeing how both partners had been awkward, the realisation that everything had changed by one night. But was it so surprising? That night, that step had been written in the stars, and months if not years in the making. Hell she had been the one encouraging them, pushing them into their thing, somewhat give them her blessing. Could she be angry for them finally taking that step?

It's just that so much had changed since writing that note to Mr. Deeks. His abduction, the torture he had endured and the labored recovery from that. She wasn't even sure he was fully back to himself, but then again she probably didn't help by taking Miss Blye away from him. They had always supported one another and now she had split that up. Things like that could always happen, when she was gone no one would know what would happen to his team, Granger could just well split them up just like that. Only she never expected it to backfire like this. Mr. Deeks wasn't like himself since that evening and is she had to believe Granger, Miss Blye wasn't a happy camper either. Maybe she should have told them the reasons behind it all, the reason why she had to do what she did.

The gigantic problem, she wasn't sure why she did it. Callen was right, there were others who could have easily taken Miss Blye's place and their moving wouldn't have uprooted the team like this. Did she really do it because she couldn't let them be happy if she wasn't either? Asking the question hurt, the fact that she couldn't reply with a definite no cut right through it. She had never been the rock for the younger pair like she had been with Callen. She would like to believe they came to her to ask for advice, but Deeks and Kensi turned to each other to pull them through and yes maybe she had been a bit jealous of that. But was that enough to willingly let them feel the same pain? She could argue that she never interfered in Sam's private life with Michelle, but then again they had been married before he joined NCIS and she wasn't about to interfere in an already established relationship.

So yeah perhaps it had something to do with it, but not everything. Miss Blye was on important mission, a mission to keep their country safe and she wouldn't let people question her decision on that. She took the decisions that needed to be taken and she would continue to do so. But perhaps she could tell them what was going on, to not let everything be hiding in mystery. Kensi Blye was an important part of this team and they deserve to know what's going on.

So she'll have to tell them. But if she wants them to listen, she needs to make peace with one of them. because right now they were closing ranks and they were doing it on her. Only he has the power to break through that. So she abandons her cup of tea on her desks and goes right towards her goal.

The silence in the gym is being broken by a constant rhythm. A rhythm of gloved fists connecting with the bag. She approaches with caution and stops just inside his line of sight. He keeps on going anyway, not that she suspected anything else.

'Mr. Deeks.' She has to try a few times before he stops and levels his gaze on her. He remains quiet but his eyes tell an entire tale.

'Mr. Deeks. Would you like to come and see me in my office?' she asks and slightly turns away from him.

'Why?' he asks as she has taken some steps away from. She turns again to fully face him.

'Because I owe you an explanation'

Hetty maybe a little OOC, but who knows what goes on in her mind/
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