Please Read: It is relevant to the story making sense

First off I wanted to let you all know that I appreciate all the reviews, even the negative ones. A few reviews really stuck out to me and I would like to address them here.

First off the review that stated that Sloan would never date Meredith because Derek was like a brother to him and that it wasn't realistic. Sloan slept with Derek's wife. Even though it was a mistake if he was willing to sleep with his best friends wife then I'm pretty sure that it wouldn't bother him sleeping with Meredith. Also Mark begged Addison to come back to New York with him once he got to Seattle. If Mark was truly wanting Derek's friendship back in the beginning like he said I don't' believe he would have pleaded to Addison. And also at the beginning of the 3rd season when Derek goes to call his marriage off with Addison he finds her in bed again with Mark Sloan. So I do think that it is realistic for Mark to go after Meredith especially since he even tried to in season two.

I got a review that said my story made them sick. If my story truly makes you sick then don't read it, however I think you will really like and appreciate this chapter and the one's to come.

My main goal in this was to keep the characters as realistic as possible, with that said I reread my story and I re-watched a season two episode, season 5 episode and a few episodes of season 10. And I am making a drastic change in this story.

I've always wanted to do a story to see what it would be like if Derek had to see Mark and Meredith together for awhile. I really wanted to do that to this story but then I realized that there was a major problem with that. If I put Mark and Meredith together or even make them sleep together, Derek would always associate Meredith the same way he associated Addison and I don't believe they could ever have a healthy relationship with Meredith having a past with Mark. With that said I re-plotted the story. I love Mer/Der too much to throw Mark in.

I changed the time: The story is now taking place after Meredith says pick me, choose me, love me, and he chooses Addison. It is set a few episodes after that. It will all make sense as you read I hope! Please review and this will still be angsty and drama filled without the Mark drama, I assure you.

Derek awoke with a start. His head was pounding, his throat was dry and he was terrified. Meredith slept with Sloan, Meredith was having a child with Sloan. That was supposed to be his baby, their baby and she was with Sloan. The feeling at the pit of his stomach was unbearable, he felt like he could throw up. Derek was panting.

"Are you okay?" Addison asked, Derek didn't even notice her in his bed. He was confused, very confused.

He didn't answer he just sat there in rage

"I think you had a bad dream, you kept yelling out to Mark…..and to Meredith" she finished in a soft voice

"Where the hell is Mark?" Derek spat

"Probably screwing some nurse, Derek calm down, it was just a bad dream" Addison tried to calm him

"Meredith, I need to talk to Meredith" Derek said now almost hysterical. He climbed out of bed and threw a sweatshirt on over his head.

Addison didn't understand what was going on. She figured Derek had a bad dream but he wasn't coming to his senses.

"Talk to Meredith tomorrow, take a deep breath" Addison said sadly.'

"I can't Addison, I have to see about the baby" Derek said now seeming normal and grabbing his keys off the dresser and adjusting his watch.

"Baby? Meredith's pregnant?" Addison asked now really confused

"I don't know I have to go" and with that Derek left the trailer and made his way to his car.

Derek sped to Meredith's house. He was confused, all he could remember was that Addison came back to town and then Mark showed up. Then everything came back to him. Mark showed up and accepted the position of head of Plastics. He was flirting with Meredith when Derek knocked him out. Meredith was cleaning up his cut. Addison handed him divorce papers and Derek couldn't sign them. He chose Addison. But that dream it felt too real and he was already at Meredith's house. He missed her and all he wanted at the moment was to see her and make sure that she wasn't with Mark Sloan.

Derek made his way to the house and noticed that it was 3 AM, he figured no one would be awake so he reached under the mat infront of Meredith's front door and got the spare key. As quietly as possible Derek stuck the key into the door and made his way up to Merediths bedroom. When he opened the door he saw Meredith sleeping. He smiled at the noise of her loud snoring and how peaceful she looked tucked into bed. She awoke with a start when Derek stroked her face with his thumb. He couldn't help himself, he loved her. Deep down he knew it and deep down he knew everyone else knew it too.

"Derek" she sighed as her eyes fluttered open

"Hey Mer" Derek said softly, giving her the look. The look Derek only used on her. His look of pure admiration.

"Derek what the hell are you doing here?" Meredith asked coming to her senses after being in a peaceful sleep.

"Are you pregnant?" He asked more urgently than he intended.

"Did you really just wake me up in the middle of the night to ask me that? What is wrong with you?" Meredith spat

"Meredith please, I had a dream, a really weird dream and I need to know, I need to hear you say it aloud that you're not"

"No Derek, I'm not pregnant"

"And you and Mark?" Derek asked trailing off just as urgent

"Sloan?" Meredith asked confused wiping the sleepy crust that had gathered in her eyes

"Yes, you and Mark Sloan are you together?"

"Have you lost your mind? Have you seriously lost it? You break into my house, wake me up at 3 am to ask me about Mark Sloan, Mark Freaking Sloan. Seriously? Seriously Derek?" Meredith asked angrily

"Seriously Mer" Derek said with a small smile

"I think you're drunk, I think you have seriously lost your mind" Meredith said with a bit of amusement

"Tell me you're not sleeping with Mark Sloan, tell me there is nothing going on between the two of you, no babies, no relationship"

"Are you drunk?' Meredith repeated again

"I don't know" Derek said with a grin

"You don't know" Meredith stated with a little smile tugging at her lips

He grinned at her more. There they were the two of them. Just grinning at eachother in the middle of the night for no reason whatsoever. Derek broke out of the grin when reality set in again

"Addison is probably waiting for me at the trailer" He stated sadly

"Probably not such a good idea coming all the way over here" She replied

"No, probably not a good idea" he said and the look came back, the look of enchantment. He loved her. Even at three in the morning with disgusting sleep crust in her eyes, even in her old t-shirts with holes in the neck, even with her angry at him for waking her up. He loved her. He turned to leave and made his way back to the door, as he went to open it wider, he turned back around. With his hand still on the doorknob facing her

"I'm sorry about….you know, you are a really great choice, the best choice" he said sadly referring to the night when he chose Addison.

Meredith offered a small smile "Goodbye Derek" she said meeting his gaze

"Goodbye Meredith" and with that he closed her bedroom door and made his way back to his car.

Meredith was happy to see Derek but she was confused. Why did he ask her if she was pregnant? She knew he had a bad dream but now she was getting paranoid, she was late. Two weeks late and she was never late, ever. She quickly shook the thought out of her head, she needed to get some sleep, she had early rounds and the last thing she needed was Bailey breathing down her neck.