"I'm fed up with not knowing what the hell is going on!" Eren seemingly shouted at the world, gripping the key around his neck. Everyone looked at him from the corner of their eye, Samantha quite inspired by his outbursts, was looking at him dead on. Her father was a psychologist, he asked her many times to organize his books when she was younger. Secretly, she would read through them, up until that day.
Her mother was cleaning up as Samantha and her brothers finished lunch, when they all heard a yelp and the crushing of bones. Her father had been working out in their garden for a while now. The garden had gotten bigger; there were many things to eat and many things to look at. They all gather outside, Samantha in front of everyone, witness the fate of her father first hand. She couldn't stop staring as mother rushed to him as he was under the boulder. Where is this from…? Samantha slowly turned her head, witnessing the Titans swarming in. A jumping Titan landed on the roof in front of the garden, seeing mother and then Samantha and her brothers.
"Mom!" Her brothers yelled over and over, Samantha noticed the Titan looked at her as she was staring it down. She felt a rush, turned around, and picked up her brothers and ran towards the inner gate. Normally, this would be hard, as they lived closer to the outer gate – the gate that led to the outside world. Samantha, aged 16, thought that the Titan hadn't got too far into the District. But soon to find out, she was wrong. Eventually, the weight of her brothers got to her, she lost her balance and fell – skidding her body across the ground, her brothers tumbling over.
Some smaller Titans got Samantha's youngest brother, still on the ground, Samantha backed up with her palms, tears rushing down her face. She wanted to scream, but she couldn't. Her mouth was open, but nothing would come out. She sat there and watched as her brother tried to run away, but was eaten by a larger Titan. The Titans started walking towards her, she backed up on her palms some more, she was half way up – ready to run. She paused, she didn't want to leave, her brothers had died in her care. Her father and mother were probably long gone now. She was alone… Why die alone when I can die here… with my family?
She was hit from the side, next thing she knew, she was in the air. It was a Scout. He had black hair, and a slightly paler complexion than most. She realized how close she was to the inner gate when he dropped her off at the entrance, there were only a couple people walking in at a time. They must be preparing to close the gate soon… She decided to walk in, despite what her heart wanted to do; die. She realized she didn't tell the Scout thank you, but as she turned around, he was already flying away.
"Thank you…" She whispered.
Eren was still in a fitful rage, it was like he was whispering to the key – yet he was yelling, his voice was loud, but croaked over time. It was like no matter how much he yelled, it wasn't loud enough for anyone to hear.
"First… I will plug Wall Rose… Then, I'll plug Wall Maria, and after that… the basement." He paused; Mikasa and Armin could hear his heart beat against his chest.
"If what my old man said about every answer being there is true… Then, there should also be some clues to his whereabouts. All the answers… are there. When I reach there, I will finally learn where I should direct my anger…"
"Hm?" Hanji looks up, everyone copying her movements.
"The Hermiha District. We're almost there." Samantha speaks in a low tone, full of relief. She is still eye-balling Eren at the corner of her eye, whose still looking at the key.
"This is our stop, then. This is as far as we can go with the Pastor." Rivaille says as he gets off the cart, pointing his gun at Pastor Nick as he holds Samantha's hand as she too gets off. Pastor Nick follows after Samantha and stands in between them. "I'll leave everything to you. You're the members of the important squad chosen by Irvin, after all." Rivaille keeps his stern look as he turns to Armin, scaring him.
"I trust you get your role, Armin? Keep coming up with ideas with Hanji like you do."
"Yes, sir!" Rivaille then turns to Mikasa, who stares back just as coldly as he does.
"Mikasa, you use your every ability to protect Eren." Mikasa's face softens.
"Yes, sir!" She bows her head. "I will…"
"I don't know why you're so attached to Eren, but… remember to control yourself. Don't make another blunder." Mikasa's face changes back to the cold, stern face she had before.
"Yes, sir… I will make sure there won't be any."
"Hey, keep walking. I don't need you getting lost and causing more trouble for me." Rivaille pushed Pastor Nick with his foot, making him stumble slightly.
"Wh-what is this? What happened?" Pastor Nick stopped again, shocked.
"What else did you expect? Of course things're not gonna be pretty and bright."
"The wall has fallen, after all…" Samantha spoke softly, finishing Rivaille's sentence. They pushed against the crowd; Pastor Nick turned his head and saw a boy standing in the middle of the crowd, weeping for his parents. He went to comfort the boy, but was pulled back by Rivaille.
"Hey, where the hell do you think you're going?" Rivaille grabbed Pastor Nick by the collar.
"Uh, I…"
"The reality looks somewhat different from the pretty illusions you pictured to yourself while in your little sect, eh? These are the faces of those whom you're trying to cast away." Samantha paused, walking in front of Pastor Nick with her arms behind her back. Facing down, and clinching her fists she stands taller in spirit than anyone around her.
"Take a good look at the faces of the people who lost their homes; they're feeling really anxious and insecure right now…" She jerks her head up, placing her dagger like eyes in the face of Pastor Nick. "But suppose your wishes come true and the lands within the walls get swarmed with Titans." Pastor Nick closes his eyes, and tries to not face Samantha.
"The last expression people will wear on their faces won't be this. The end will be the same for everybody. Everyone will be losing their lives in Titans' stinking jaws but not before getting put through the worst experience imaginable." Pastor Nick was wide eyed and staring off into the crowd as they continued walking. Samantha remained "tall" as she walked; her fists still clinched – ready to give Pastor Nick a blow in the gut. She noticed how her personality changes in her line of work, mainly because lately, after seeing children orphaned due to the Titans, she had been having flashbacks of before the Scouting Legion.
When she joined, she was very much like Rivaille at first. Not because that was who she was, but because she had gone numb – an exact opposite of whom she really was; cheerful, sweet, and gentle. She had to be tough, and tough she was. Eventually, this phase went away and she was starting to "feel" again. But one problem developed, this problem was that she held in her feelings – both sad and mad, and when she finally expresses them, they are in rage. Right now, she can feel the anger steaming out of her. Her whole aura has changed, and Rivaille kind of liked it. He strongly believes in discipline through pain, and thought that Samantha had disciplined herself through the lost of her family.
Which sounds cruel to most – but it never fails; after all, they are both humanity's strongest soldiers. The trio walks up behind Hanji and Eren standing by the horse stables.
"The lands beyond this point are Titan territory." They hear Hanji from where they stand; Samantha's face softens as she walks ahead of Rivaille and Pastor Nick towards Eren.
"Eren, are you well enough to ride a horse?" She startles Hanji and Eren; they didn't notice her swift and quick movements to stand between them. Rivaille smiles as he sees them jump at her presence.
"Y-yes, I'm more or less back to normal."
"Good, good." Samantha smiled, placing her hand on his shoulder. "Preparations for us to use the Westside rift have been made." Rivaille and Pastor Nick show up behind Samantha, Hanji turning towards them as Samantha sends Eren to Moblit to get him ready with a horse. Samantha follows her actions, and faces Pastor Nick with dark eyes once again.
"Squad Leader, we need you to hurry."
"I'll be right with you two in a second, Moblit." Hanji walks up to Pastor Nick with her arms open.
"Well… Do you have a change of heart?" Pastor Nick remained silent. Hanji stepped closer.
"There's no time anymore! You realize that, right?!" Pastor Nick got a scared look on his face, Samantha bowing her head, her hair covering her face. Suddenly, she walked towards him, gently pushing Hanji to the side; surprising her. Her head remained low as she lifted it up slowly. Her eyes appeared behind her hair, scaring Pastor Nick even more – causing him to back away a few steps.
"Decide already if you're going to talk or not! Stop messing with our heads, making us believe you will hint us towards something when you haven't said one single word! I'm begging you!" Samantha's eyes were full of tears, not of sadness but anger.
"I… I cannot tell you anything. I expect the other members will not talk nor-." Samantha punches him in the gut, under the ribs. Pastor Nick collapsed as he gasped for air and Samantha walked away, letting her hair down out of its ponytail and taking off her travelers' cloak. She combed her hair with her hands and then proceeded to tie it back. Rivaille couldn't help but stare as he could see every curve of her body as she stretched her arms above her head. He could tell she was in pain when she did this because she did it quickly and winced as she put her arms back at her side.
"Th-this was a v-very grave d-decision for me…" Pastor Nick coughed as he began to stand up, Samantha turning around. "The burden we are saddled with is heavy. Our system of Ironclad Pledge has been existing for generations, and we can entrust the secrets of the wall only to certain blood relatives. None of us can tell you anything…" Pastor Nick pauses and looks at Samantha endearingly in the eyes, realizing she is more calmed down.
"However, I shall tell you the name of the person who can reveal those secrets to you…"
"Shifting the responsibility to someone else? And for what? To protect yourselves and your civilization?" Pastor Nick looked down, seeming to understand why Samantha is so upset. Eren, Mikasa, and Armin come up behind Hanji, listening in on the conversation.
"Yes…" Pastor Nick continued. "5 years ago, that person had been dragged into a strife between her relatives… which caused her to go into hiding under an assumed name. The girl herself does not know anything yet, but… she has the right to choose whether or not to go publicly about whatever wall secrets that are known to her. I heard she joined the Scouting Legion this year." Eren almost jumped out of his skin, as Mikasa and Armin shared a gulp.
"Her name is…"
