When Chihiro got home he started up his new computer, but today wasn't like the other days, normally he would turn it on and end up staying up till early hours of the morning programming, but today, he's going to use it like everyone else on the internet, and google for hints and facts on acting like a girl… well not everyone.
The first thing he Tried was "How To act Like a Sweet innocent girl" this was the type of personality Chihiro wanted to have, not to say he was into girls with that type of personality, to be honest he wasn't too sure but no one would think the sweet innocent girl of the class was actually a hormonal boy, so this personality was great for his future self-whether it be no so recent future or a month away. The first result was 'How to Be the Sweet and Innocent Kind of Popular Girl'
"far from the desired approach" thought Chihiro, "I want to fade into the background and not be noticed; popular is NOT what I'm going for…." He then looked at the next result 'How to Act and Look Innocent (for Girls): 23 Steps' that sounded a bit better so it was worth a try, with a click the screen opened up .com and a picture of a girl with a finger to her lips,
"that seems more suggestive then innocent" Chihiro thought out-loud, never the less he continued to read,
'Step One: Be careful about what you say. Sweet innocent girls don't swear like sailors. Don't pick on people; never laugh at someone's misfortune or when someone gets hurt.' A depressed sigh escaped his lips, Chihiro never swore, never picked on people, and never laughed at other people… so one step was out the way, "that makes my job a bit easier" he thought, as a little attempt to cheer himself up, on to step two
"Step Two: Be Selfless. Try to be kind and Help people out' … Chihiro read this and closed his eyes for a second, he always tried to be helpful, it was one of the reasons he loved programing so much, it was one of the things he could actually do and he helped his father a lot with his job, another scroll down to see more of the steps, some of them related to him… in fact most of them did, in total the page had 15 steps on looking innocent, and only a few didn't already apply to him
'Abstain from drinking alcohol of any kind', 'Try not to wear lots of makeup' and 'Don't smoke, drink or take drugs', these where mostly because he was underage and never shown interest in the stuff or because he isn't actually a girl and wore no makeup what so ever, so wearing to much isn't really a problem, though he didn't learn from reading that that he would have to wear some… which he decided to be the last step 'Also you can use a little clear lip gloss... Or pink lip gloss', the only step that he found really useful was 'When you talk to someone and want them to believe every word you are saying, widen your eyes slightly. Look earnest and interested'. So out of 15, 10 of them already applied to him "…. Great…. No wonder I got Picked On…." And sad look on now on his face, then he decided to go on to the tips for appearances, on this there where only a total of 8 tips and 4 of them applied to him, half, and seeing that it was all about girl cloths, that was quite a high number, now depressed and feeling miserable, Chihiro realised why the wold picked on him, he was like a girl, a weak and innocent girl that everyone felt they had to protect, Chihiro knew he was weak, but he felt weaker now than he did when he was little. Tears started to well up in his eyes and the thought and voices of previous bullies filled his head and he burst into tears, they were right all along, all they had said was the truth. It hurt the breath and the tears wouldn't stop, he pulled his knees to his chest, and wrapped his arms around his shoulders and squeezed.
Tears ran down his face, and Chihiro felt like he had fallen into despair, why bother being a boy again, the original plan was to wait till he's a bit stronger, but now the bitter truth is staring at him and he can't even take it, all he can do it cry, how weak can a boy get? Because he seems to have surpassed it, his thoughts get more and more depressing and he carries on crying until his head is throbbing with pain, his life is never going to be an easy one, how could it be? He fails at being a human being?
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The rest of the week passes and besides now owning three bottles of perfume nothing has really changed, he walks to school looking rather depressed, filled with self-pity, sits at his desk to then be called over to the other girls, then has a irritating day filled with idle chatter and then walks home the way he left, to sit on his computer all night and do homework….. life really didn't seem worth living…
Friday night finally arrived, as Chihiro sat on his own eating a ready-made meal, (his parents went out for tea) aimlessly flicking through the channels, there wasn't any sci-fi or action movies on that Chihiro enjoyed, and he wasn't into sports, so flicking through random channels seemed to be the only way to check if something he might be interested in was on, and then on the screen popped the blue haired girl from the magazine, she was on some sort of interview show, the fact Chihiro knew who she was made him happy… even though all he could remember was she was the blue haired girl from a poster in one of the most irritable magazines created, that was still something. There the girl sat, not in any Lolita dress's but an everyday outfit, Chihiro couldn't help but notice her smile, she seemed so happy to be alive, and there he was sitting wallowing in self-pity, he turned up the volume and listened,
Maizono: "-and it sort of just, happened"
Interviewer: "and you were raised just by your father?"
Maizono: "That's right" she paused for a bit and thought and then carried on talking, all with a huge smile " Since he always works until late, every day, I often spend time alone, even as a child" she then stopped and pulled a panicked expression "but he is a good father, he really is, I don't know where I would be without him" she then seemed to relax a bit more and finish her answer in a calm tone "I would watch the idol live show whenever it was on, to see there smiling faces, it was a source of strength, I guess that was my inspiration"
Chihiro stopped paying attention to the rest of it, he didn't really care what the teen girl had to say, but that part stood out to him, he had one family member who left her alone all day every day and she still loves him and still seems happy with herself and living her life to the fullest, so why shouldn't Chihiro? Sure he's weak, but he already knows a way out of it, not the best of options but he knows in his heart he can do it, and he has two loving parents who dote on him, it's time to take it in his stride and try to live his own life to the fullest

Saturday Morning, Chihiro got up early, showered and threw on a shirt and some pants on, sure they were boy cloths, but he didn't yet own casual girl cloths, which is the meaning of the day, took his money and put it in his wallet, today he was going to transform himself into a girl, he was going to invest himself into the false reality of being a female and give it his all.
the journey to the shops wasn't too bad, it was the actually shopping part that was, sure Chihiro had a girls hair-cut, but his outfit was a boys, so if anyone saw him they might realise his secret, plus, looking for girls cloths was embarrassing, especially when you have to but underwear too, as boxers were not working when it came to that school uniform.
Chihiro went through a few shops, but none of them seemed right the cloths weren't something he'd ever feel comfortable wearing, and most of them where bright pastel colours, Chihiro preferred dark ones, he wanted to have something masculine, its only colours, but the fact it was one thing that was true to him meant a lot. After three hours of looking at dresses, skirts and shirts that would ultimately reveal he was a guy to so him not having a feminine body shape the day seemed to have been a total waste. He manages to pick up some pink lip gloss, and some perfume, the idea of make-up didn't flatter him and he felt mean taking his 'friends' perfume so he bought his own, he also found a pair of white shoes, they had one strap across the top to keep them on and cute little bows on the front, Chihiro thought they were cute, but really should have waited for after he bought a outfit, as now the task would be harder and would have to match the shoes, he stopped for a bite to eat, and couldn't help but notice watching a girl he was in the café across the street sipping on a cup of tea, she had black short hair and bright red eyes, the eyes are what caught his attention, she was wearing black gothic Lolita but had bright red shoes on, which matched her eyes, Chihiro looked at the outfit and turned back to his own table, and started to think, she had a black outfit and black hair, and shoes that matched her eyes, the only two things to break the colour scheme and they stood out, so if he applied that to himself that you mean golden/yellow shoes and a brown outfit, well, the shoes he bought where white, but could count as cream which is a shade of yellow which is like the colour gold which match his eyes…..
"I'm thinking this out to much" he sighed, but carried on thinking about it, all he needed to do was get something brown, it mightn't go to well with the shoes, but it was at least worth a try, and it was a starting point, right?
he carried on searching for the rest of the day but ended up in a library reading about formatting software and watching people walk in and out, he ended up sitting on a bean bag next to a guy who was reading manga and an extremely fast pace and taking notes, he was still there when Chihiro left, and probably spent his day doing that same thing, judging from the pile next to him,
"everyone has their own hobbies" thought Chihiro, as he walked home depressed from a wasted day he came across a shop selling old cloths from different decades, up the as late as the 1920's, Chihiro didn't really have an interest at wearing old second hand clothes, but saw a skirt that he liked the look off, it was brown and knee length, with pleats, it had suspenders that went over the shoulders and cross at the back, a white dress shirt with a bid collar, a dark green cropped jacket that was tied together at the top and some stockings. Chihiro was quite pleased with his choice of outfit, and even though dressing as a girl wasn't quite to his fancy he couldn't wait to try his new outfit on.
After a tired day of shopping Chihiro returned home, and fell straight onto his bed and drifted off to sleep.
Sunday was spent practicing how to apply lip balm, and trying to get used to wearing female underwear, which no matter how hard he tried, didn't seem to get any more comfortable, in fact, it seemed to get worse, something that made him dread school tomorrow, if the wind blew his skirt up not only would he be embarrassed but you could tell that he was a guy, so Chihiro had to try and think of something to fix that problem, with a situation like this its best to be safe then sorry, and as the night came to a close he found himself happily going to bed, looking forward to school, something he hadn't done in a long while