Ethan shifted in the soft king-size bed. The sun had managed to shine directly in his eyes, waking him up. He smiled at the sight of his boyfriend sleeping soundly in his arms as he slowly twisted his arm out from under him trying not to wake him up as he reached for his phone.

5 unread messages

Not bad. The last time he stayed out without telling Aiden he got 10 messages and 3 phone calls. Aiden didn't like it when he didn't know where Ethan was, not with all the people after them.

After sending a quick "I'm fine. Spent the night at Dannys." text, he put the phone down and went back to wrapping his arms around his goalie.

"Babe?" Ethan whispered as he kissed Dannys shoulder. "Wake up, c'mon."

Danny stirred

"What time is it." He groaned

"Late." Ethan kissed him again. "Lets go."

Danny groaned and pulled the covers closer as Ethan hopped out of bed, picking up his clothes that were scattered along the floor.

"Do you have to?" Danny mumbled.

"You're the one who didn't wanna be late for school."

"But I prefer you like this…In all your glory."

Ethan looked up at Danny and smirked before proceeding to pick up his underwear (which may or may not have been lost during last nights antics).

"Yeah. Well, I'd ask you to take a picture," Ethan sighed. "But then what would I get you for your birthday." He smiled, kissing Danny on the forehead before disappearing into the bathroom.

He stood in front of the mirror, the spare toothbrush he kept at Dannys for nights like this hanging from his mouth, putting in his earphones and unlocking his phone.

"Oh my god."

He spun around to see Danny leaning against the doorway, eyes still hazy from his sleep…and still naked.

"Are you actually listening to music?" He smiled incredulous.

"Hm? Oh, uh…Mo, 'Corf mot." Ethan mumbled through toothpaste before spitting it into the sink, removing his earphones and wrapping them around his phone. "it's nothing."

Danny raised an eyebrow. "Whatever." He smiled again, before stepping in to the shower.

Ethan panicked slightly, he wasn't even sure why, it's not like Danny was going to tackle him for his phone.

"Hey…You okay?" Said Danny, from under the running water, he looked confused.

"Yeah! Yeah, fine…" He stuttered throwing his phone onto his clothes "Room for one more."

Danny paused for a moment, unsure about the way his boyfriend was acting.

"Uh…Sure." He said with a smile.

Ethan smiled too and stepped in behind Danny under the hot spray.

"Y'know," Danny said, turning to face him. "You don't have to be embarrassed about what music you like."

Ethans brows furrowed. "What?"

"You were going to listen to music before I stepped in…I don't mind."

"Oh…" Ethan gave a small smile. "No, it's…It's nothing like that."

"You sure? 'Cause I like Bon Jovi…Really!"

Ethan laughed, before putting some shampoo into his hands and rubbing them on Dannys head.

"It's not Bon Jovi." He sighed.

"Well…Who is it?" says Danny, his eyes now half closed as Ethan soaped up his hair.

"Just a band I used to listen to, years ago." Ethan laughed, which was probably supposed to sound reassuring but instead came out like a rushed whisper.

Danny frowned, whatever it was that had him acting this way couldn't have been a very happy memory.

"Head back." Ethan sighed.

Danny leaned his head under the running water, as his boyfriend washed out the remaining shampoo.

"You wanna talk about it?" He spoke, in a sort of reassuring whisper

Ethan took a deep breath.

"Not right now. Okay?" He gave another faint smile, probably just to try and make Danny feel better.

Danny nodded. "Okay…Just know that I'm here okay?"

He was speaking but he was pretty sure Ethan was no longer listening.

"You don't have to keep secrets from me…We're in a relationship Ethan, anything that happens we suffer through it together that's the poi-"

"I said I don't want to talk about it Danny!" Ethan snapped at him

Dannys face dropped and he nodded slightly.

"Right, uh." He cleared his throat. "I'm sorry."

Ethan looked up at Danny, who was no longer staring at him, in fact he'd turned away…And Ethan felt terrible.

He didn't mean to get angry at him, never at Danny. He just never spoke about it to anyone, not even Aiden.

Ethan finished rinsing out his hair before stepping out of the shower and drying himself off.

By the time Danny had finished, Ethan was already dressed and sitting on the bed, twirling his phone between his fingers. He didn't look up at Danny when he moved to take clothes out of the dresser, or when Danny moved back to the bathroom to change.

The silence was deafening.

Until Danny got out of the bathroom that is.

"Danny?" Ethan mumbled, taking his eyes of the floor to look at him.

"C'mon lets go, we're gonna be late." Danny never looked at Ethan, he spoke as if the hadn't even said anything. If there's one thing Dannys exes taught him, it was how to perfect the art of 'angry boyfriend' .

"Danny please."

Ethans voice was shaky, Danny didn't know what got him so upset, usually if he had an argument with one of his exes they would just be angry at each other for maybe a couple days then eventually have awesome makeup sex.

But Ethan was different.

So Danny turned to face him, still in 'angry boyfriend' mode.

"What?" He spat, arms folded.

Ethan didn't say anything else, he only lifted his phone, tapped the screen, and the room was filled with music.

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey, hey

"It's, uh…It's 'Train'." Ethan mumbled "You know…the band."

Danny stared at Ethan, no idea what was going on.

She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's a time to change, hey, hey, hey

Ethan was staring at the ground, dragging his feet back and fourth. "It was the song that I was going to listen to…I've listened to it every morning for as long as I can remember."

Danny paused for a moment, Ethan sounded as if he was going to cry, Danny almost didn't want to ask.

"…Why?" He mumbled.

"Honestly…I don't know." Ethan stared up at him again, smiling but his lips quivering. "I just, uh…I haven't actually listened to it with anybody else for years."

Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey

"I still don't understand." Danny stared at him, arms now hanging at his sides. "What is it about this song that's got you so upset?"

Ethan gripped his phone tight, eyes glassy. "It was his favourite." He spoke, almost soft enough to be classed as a whimper.

"Who? Who's favourite Ethan? What's wrong? Tell me?"

Forget about the angry boyfriend act, Danny was genuinely concerned.

"…My Dads."

But tell me, did you sail across the sun?
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated?

"He…" Ethan laughed but the tears had already started to stream down his face. "Was a much bigger music fan than me."

Danny stood silent. Ethan never spoke much at all about his parents. He just figured Ethan would eventually come out with some happy stories about them on a sunny day or something, not this. And after Danny had acted like such an idiot, all because Ethan wouldn't let him listen to this song?

He felt terrible.

"This was his favourite though." Ethan sniffed, avoiding Dannys eyes. "Family Dinners, barbecues, birthdays, whatever occasion…this song would've played at least once."

"Ethan…" Danny had moved to sit next to the boy on the bed, wrapping his arm around him.

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star-

One without a permanent scar?

And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?

Ethan lay his head against Dannys chest. Trying to keep his voice steady but failing more and more each time. "He'd sing it all the time…to Aiden and me…when we were kids."

Danny just held him, running his fingers through Ethans hair.

"And he'd sing it to Mom…I think it was even one of their wedding songs." He smiled slightly.

Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey, hey (mmm)
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow, hey, hey, hey (yeah)

Danny was rubbing Ethans arms. He didn't want to ask but Ethan knew what he was thinking…

"There was an accident." He choked. "It was supposed to be a trip to the grocery store."

Ethan laughed again.

"Can you believe that?…The grocery store."

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol' Jane
Told a story about a man who was too afraid to fly so he never leave land

"Ethan, you don't have to-" Danny whispered to him.

"Me and Aiden weren't in the car…We hated shopping." He sniffed, gripping Dannys sleeves. "The neighbour was watching us. 'Course the last thing the she expects is the police to show up at the door…'Died on impact'."

"Babe…I'm so sorry."

Danny hugged him tightly, kissing the side of Ethans head as he leaned on him.

But tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet?
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way?
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind?
Was it everything you wanted to find?
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?

"Did you know…that the first thing you forget about someone after they die…is there voice."

"Ethan-"

"Then you just forget about how they act altogether…That's why I listen to it…every morning." Ethan sat up and stared at Danny. "Because I don't want to forget."

Danny was almost crying himself. He cupped Ethans face in his hands.

"You won't." He smiled "Okay? As long as you have good memories you're never going to forget them…ever!"

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken?
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance, five-hour phone conversation?
The best soy latte that you ever had and me

Ethan was openly sobbing now, he planted his face into Danny shoulder…and Danny held him there.

"Stop it Ethan…You're gonna make me cry…It's okay."

"We were alone!"

"Not anymore! You're not alone, okay? You have me…And hey, Aiden seems like a good guy. He has Lydia."

Danny moved up the bed and leaned against the headboard. "Come here." He said, holding out his arms. Ethan followed, sitting between Dannys legs, resting his head on the other boys chest.

But tell me, did the wind sweep you off your feet?
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the Milky Way?

"You okay?" Danny asked, playing with Ethans hair…again.

Ethan nodded.

"No more crying?"

"No." Ethan sniffed.

"Good!" Danny hugged him tighter, before silencing the music. "I'm actually pretty stunned…You cried at a song and it wasn't even Cher." He said sarcastically, causing Ethan to laugh.

"This band's had better songs anyway." He smiled

"You know…we're gonna be seriously late for school." Ethan spoke. At least he wasn't crying anymore.

"We're not going." Danny smiled, kissing Ethans head. "We're gonna lay here and you're gonna tell me every good memory you have of your parents."

Ethan smiled. And he did.

Ethan would tell him about how their father used to play guitar to settle them down to sleep. And how they're mom used to make terrible meatloaf but no one had the heart to say anything, so they ended up having the same meatloaf every Tuesday for years. And the time there dad cried because he met Pat Monahan in person. They talked all day, barely leaving each others arms unless it was for the bathroom or for some dinner, right up until the night when they would get into bed and watch a movie, still in Dannys arms. Looks like he was gonna wake up to more texts from Aiden. But he didn't mind.

He had Danny.

God! Chapter 6!

How did we get from cute happy dancing last chapter to so much sadness this chapter? (Because I'm a horrible person.)

I'm sorry if this was terrible, was it terrible? Have I failed as a fic writer?

I didn't know how to write sad Ethan. But I really needed some supportive Danny! Just to show that It doesn't always have to be Ethan protecting him, Danny can help Ethan too! J

I wanted to give you a brief look at Ethans past while also giving you a song that he kinda/sorta/maybe likes. Hope it worked.

Train!

My chapters just get longer each time I'm so sorry, my fingers touch the keys and they just don't stop!

Ok so the playlist should be updated now if anybody wants to listen (Does anybody listen to it? Am I doing this just for me?) Felt like it would make it more realistic if you actually listened to the music before or after…or during!

So…damn son, see you when chapter 7 is ready…I'm never going to get any sleep.

-ImSoHappyForMe