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A/N: Hey guys so….who's excited for next week? While it will be bittersweet with Cory being gone I am super stoked for the premier. Ok question out there for ya guys ok so do you think that you will watch the show after they show Cory's tribute episode? As much as it sucks Cory is not on there anymore I will still watch just to see how everything plays out. I still think it will be a great season sad but still great. Ok any who I am sure you did not come here to hear me ramble on and on about season 5 so I give you a new chapter. Hope you guys enjoy it! Once again thank you to those who have taken the time to leave a review/favorited this story as always you all rock. Well…on to the show I guess.
"So where are we going?" I ask as he opens the car door to let me in.
"You'll see." He flashes that killer smile of his and gets in on the other side. I reach for the radio hoping that whatever song is on right now will keep my thoughts from racing.
"Leave it." he tells me grabbing my hand.
"Ok." I tell him as I let the song take over my mind.
Tell 'em all I'm on vacation
Say I went to visit friends
That you ain't heard or seen from me in quite a while
When they ask you where I've been
Tell 'em I'm out on the West Coast
Where it don't ever rain
And that I'm probably doing fine
I had heard this song a million times not paying attention to the lyrics but now they made so much sense. I look over at Finn his eyes are focused on the road. I can see the thoughts that are running through his head.
Just don't tell 'em I've gone crazy
That I'm still strung out over you
Tell 'em anything you want to
Just don't tell 'em all the truth
Yeah, don't tell 'em all the truth
I wanted to ask him what he was thinking but decided against it. I lean my head back and close my eyes focusing on the lyrics and the softness of his voice.
The truth is that I'm askin' you to lie
And we both know that it ain't right
But if you ever loved me
Please have some mercy on me
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Tell 'em anything you want to
Just don't tell 'em all the truth
Yeah, don't tell 'em all the truth
I still need you
Yeah, that's the truth
I still love you
Baby, that's the truth
"Rach." I feel someone push me.
"Ya?" I quickly open my eyes to see Finn staring at me.
"We're here." He tells me. As we step out of the car I take a deep breath the cold sir stinging my lungs.
"Finn it's the middle of winter why are we here?" I ask him as I pull my jacket closer to me.
"I figure we could like have a picnic or something. I brought blankets and some sandwiches it's not much." he gestures as he grabs the blankets and the basket and he lays out the blanket on the grass.
"Finn…it's perfect." I smile as he places two glasses of wine on the blanket.
"I wanted to tell you that you look beautiful tonight." He smiles and takes a bite of his sandwich.
"You look nice too." I tell him as I pick at my sandwich.
"Is everything ok? I mean the sandwiches are completely vegan." He asks concerned when he sees me picking at my sandwich.
"Ya, why wouldn't they be?" I lie. I know…I know if we are ever going to have a real shot I have to be honest with him but, truth being told I am not even sure of how to talk to him about it. I place my sandwich back on my plate and look up at the stars.
"Can't really see them as well as you can in Lima huh?" I hear him say as he places his hand on my leg.
"No." I move closer to him and we just sit there looking at the stars.
"You ever think about how things might have been if I hadn't left?" I hear Finn asks breaking the silence between us.
"Sure." I say to him not really knowing what to say.
"You think that we'd still be together?" He asks tucking a stray hair behind my ear.
"I don't know Finn I mean I would like to think that we would be but I don't know. In a way I am glad that you left it made me realize that I could stand on my own." I tell him we move closer towards each other.
"Uh…you got something on your-" Finn says huskily as he gently brushes my lip with his thumb. He leans in for a kiss as I close my eyes and wait for our lips to meet. I know…I know friends don't kiss but I don't care and honestly I am wondering if this friend idea was worth it.
"Sorry." Finn says quickly breaking the kiss.
"It's okay." I tell him still feeing the warmth of his lips on mine. The chill of the cool air causes me to shiver.
"Come here." He tells me pulling me to where I am sitting in front of him as he wraps his arms around me. His hands rubbing the length if my arms the friction providing the much needed warmth. I close my eyes and inhale his scent. I lean back closer to him as I feel him take his hand and brush my hair to the side giving him better access to my neck. I lean my head back in bliss. If someone would have told me the other day that I would be sitting here in his arms I would've thought that they were crazy. I was being to wonder if this was all just a huge mistake, the only reason why I told him I wanted to be friends was because I was afraid of getting my heart broken again. I feel his hand move up my leg and I know that if I don't say something soon that I am going to lose it.
"Finn." I tell him stopping his hand.
"What is it Rachel." He asks me with a confused expression.
"What are we doing?" I ask turning to face him.
"I think I was trying to make out with my girlfriend." I hear him say as he leans in to kiss me. I push him away taken aback by what he just said.
"Girlfriend?" I question. I thought we were just friends. While yes I may still be in love with him I know that we are no where close to being a couple again.
"Huh?" ok so obviously he had no idea what he just called me.
"You called me your girlfriend." I tell him and I see a small grin appear on his lips.
"I did?" he says as he moves closer towards me.
"Finn I-I can't do this." I tell him as I get up and walk away leaving a stunned and hurt Finn sitting there.
"Rachel." His voice stops me in my tracks. I slowly turn around as he grabs my arm.
"Let me at least give you a ride home." he says taking my hand as we walk to his car.
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Highway run into the midnight sun
Wheels go round and round
You're on my mind
We spent the car ride in silence both of us not wanting to say what we both know. I can hear the faint sound of the music on the radio and a small tear falls from my eyes as I recognize the song as I reach over to turn it up I am face to face with those whiskey colored eyes. I reach for the door handle knowing that if I stay any longer I am going to lose it.
Restless hearts sleep alone tonight
Sending all my love along the wire
They say that the road
Ain't no place to start a family
Right down the line it's been you and me
And loving a music man
Ain't always what it's supposed to be
"Don't go." He tells me reaching over and grabbing my hand.
"Finn…I-I have to." I look down not wanting him to see the tears that are now freely falling from my face. I release his hand from mine as I open the door to get out.
"Can I walk you to your door?" He asks
"Sure." I tell him as I nod my head. I can still hear the fait sound of the radio as we reach my door step. He leans in for a kiss and I take a step back.
"Why won't you let me in?" he asks taking a step closer.
"Finn…" I try to say getting lost in his eyes.
"All I want is a chance…a chance to prove to you that I am the one for you. So please will you give me that chance?" He says cupping my chin. My heart wants to say yes but my mind is telling me no.
"Finn…I can't let you break my heart again." I say as I push back the tears that are threatening to fall.
"Rachel…I promise you that I will never break your heart. I never should've let you go. I know now that was the biggest mistake I have ever made. If I have to I will spend the rest of my existence proving to you that I am never leaving no matter what." I can see the pain and the truth in his eyes.
And being a part ain't easy on this love affair
Two strangers learn to fall in love again
I get the joy of rediscovering you
"How can you be sure?" I ask wanting to believe him more than anything.
"I don't know but if we are destined to make the same mistakes then….I hope we do them just as well as the first time because, honestly Rachel you are it for me." With that my lips crash into him. This kiss is so much different than the ones that we have shared before. This is a kiss that says everything that we have both been too afraid to say. It is with that kiss that all my fears melt away and I know that somehow we are going to be ok.
"Stay with me tonight?" I tell him breaking the kiss.
"Are you sure?" I nod my head and he picks me up and carries me into my apartment.
I hope you guys like this chapter. I will be out of town with out internet this weekend so I will have a new chapter up on Monday. Thanks again for reading. Have a great weekend and I will see you Monday.
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Songs used in this chapter
The Truth by Jason Aldean
Faithfully by Journey
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