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A/N: Hey guys *waves* sorry for not updating sooner but apparently my computer hates me and decides that it wants to crash but I am up and running again Yay!. So anyone watch the season premiere of Glee Oh my god! That was Amazeballs I must say I had my doubts with them covering the Beatles but wow awesome job. Anyone else tear up when Lea sang Yesterday god it felt like she was singing this to Cory/Finn. Oh and what about Kurt and Blaine oh my so cute! I think I would've killed Kurt if he had said no to Blaine after a proposal like that. Ok, one more thing did anyone just find it completely weird not seeing Cory's name in the credits. Ok, I am sure you did not come here to talk Glee I believe there is a story you are wanting to read so here it is. Enjoy!
A/N: This chapter is going to jump ahead a bit. Anything that is in italics is flashbacks.
Three months later.
Things had been going great with Finn and I he moved in to the apartment with Kurt, Santana, and I which now was getting a bit cramped but it wasn't bad. Finn was really enjoying his classes at NYU he had decided that he wanted to go into teaching. He told me that in Mr. Shue our Glee teacher form high school had really inspired him to become a teacher. Me I was still at NYADA dealing with my hard ass of a dance teacher Miss. July (yes her name really is Miss. July) she is always pushing beyond my means which is great but I just wish she would just lay off me and pick on someone else. I almost think she is jealous of my dance partner Brody which whom I have became great friends with and amazingly so has Finn. It seemed like everything was falling into place. Even Santana seemed happy now that she has found out Puck is in New York as well they have been spending a lot of time together he made her manager of the club that he owns. Blaine and Kurt well…they have hit a bit of a bump in their relationship it seems like Blaine is not handling this whole long distance thing very well, you know it's just so hard to really hard to explain the whole thing, but I believe that one day they will find their way back it's just going to take time I guess. So here is what happened with Kurt and Blaine.
-Flashback two months prior-
Finn and I had just finished up our classes for the day and wanted to get everyone together and celebrate how wonderful everything was going.
"So, Kurt you feel like making a trip to Callbacks tonight?" I ask him pouring myself a glass of wine.
"I don't know Rach I mean I do have to work in the morning." I tell her. Truth be told Blaine and I were suppose to video chat tonight and since we really haven't had much time to talk since he was last here I did not want to miss his call.
"Oh, come on Kurt it's Wednesday which means Karaoke night and I know how much you love Karaoke." I sit next to him trying to convince him to come with us seeing as we have not had a chance to hang out like this since high school I think.
"Rachel that is so not fair you know Karaoke is my weakness. What do I tell Blaine I mean we're supposed to chat tonight?" I really do want to go but I also really want to talk to Blaine tonight as well.
"What time are you supposed to talk to Blaine tonight?" I hear Finn ask
"I think like eleven our time why?" I ask wondering what idea he ahs going through his head.
"What if we promise to have you back by ten that way you can get all dolled up to talk to Blaine?" Finn suggests and I chuckle at how well he knows me.
"Ok, fine I will come with you guys." I tell them thinking that it would be fun to go out with them it really had been a long time since we have all been able to hang out.
"Yay!" Rachel claps her hands in excitement.
"I'm going to go get ready I have the perfect outfit for tonight." I tell them as I head up to my room.
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A few hours later Finn and I are lying on the couch flipping through the channels waiting for Kurt to come down. I can't help but just look over and smile at Finn I am so proud of the man that he has became. When I first got here I was such a mess and I knew there was something missing and now I know it was him. I move closer to him and place a small kiss on his lips.
"What was that for?" he asks smiling at me.
"Nothing just I love you." I move to his lap.
"I love you too." He tells me against my mouth. He has one hand in my hair and the other is kneading my breast under my shirt. I begin to feel the familiar tingle in between my legs and I know that if he does not stop soon I am going to lose it.
"Oh, Jesus get a room you two. We hear Santana yell from the kitchen. I quickly jump off Finn and fix my top.
"We have a room." Finn smiles.
"Ya, well use it. Some of us don't really want to see that shit." She tells us rolling her eyes at Finn's comment.
"So, got any plans tonight?" Santana plops down on the couch.
"Na."
"Well, want to come to Callbacks with us for Karaoke?" I ask her
"Sure, not like there is anything else to do." Santana deadpans. Hoping that maybe a night out would do her some good.
"Is everything thing alight San." Finn asks noticing her demeanor is different.
"Rough day at work that's all, so…..where's Lady Hummel?" She says quickly changing the subject. Not wanting to get into the real reason for her mood.
"So, you guys ready?" Kurt comes waltzing down the stairs in one of his creations.
"Looking good lady." Santana gives him a genuine compliment. She may give him a lot of shit but he really did have an eye for fashion and she kind of dug it.
"Thanks Santana so….you coming to Callbacks with us tonight?" Kurt asks no matter how much shit she gave him he really did consider her a friend.
"Ya, sure not like I have nothing better to do.'" Santana jokes.
"Great so…shall we?" Kurt motions to the others as he grabs his jacket. He opens the door and is face to face with Blaine. "Oh, my god you're here!" Kurt exclaims as he goes to hug Blaine.
"I couldn't wait any longer I had to come see you." Blaine tells him as he hands him the flowers that he had been holding.
"We were just headed out to Callbacks it's this place across town that all the college kids go to and tonight is Karaoke night, want to join us?" Kurt asks still in shock that Blaine was standing right in front of him.
"Sure sounds like fun." He tells them as the group of friends head out the door.
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At Callback's the group is sitting at a table listening to everyone get up and sing.
"Finn we so should do this song." Rachel tells him pointing to a song in the book.
"I-I don't know Rach it has been a while since I have sang in front of people how about you just pick a song and I will sit here and listen." He tells her looking at the song she had chosen.
"Come on Finn you have an amazing voice you can pick the song." She tells him as she hands him the book.
"Fine." He tells her knowing that there is no use in arguing with her.
"So, are you two going to sing a song together?" Rachel asks turning to Blaine and Kurt.
"I already have my song put in." Blaine tells them as he takes a drink of his beer and Kurt looks at him oddly.
"Blaine I figured that we would do a song together." He tells him feeling a bit let down.
"We will but I really wanted to do this one first." Blaine explains.
"So, Finn have you found a song yet?" Rachel asks sensing some tension between Blaine and Kurt.
"Ya." He smiles and pulls her closer.
"Anyone seen Santana?" Kurt asks as he begins to hear the first bars of Joss Stone's Fell in Love with a Boy.
"I think we have found her." Rachel smiles seeing her friend on the stage.
Fell in love with a boy,
I fell in love once and almost completely
He's in love with the world
But sometimes these feelings can be so misleading,
He turns and says are you alright
Oh I must be fine cause my hearts still beating
Come and kiss me by the riverside
Sarah says it's cool she don't consider it cheating
Rachel sit there in awe of her friend the girl had talent she often wondered why she never applied to NYADA maybe she could talk to Miss. Tibideax maybe she could give Santana an audition. She could tell singing made Santana happy.
'Thank you Santana." The DJ announces as the crowd is standing and clapping for Santana. "Up next is Blaine." They all look at Blaine as he walks up on the stage.
"I would like to dedicate this song to Kurt my boyfriend…I love you." He tells the crowd as he begins to play "Wanted."
You know I'd fall apart without you
I don't know how you do what you do
'Cause everything that don't make sense about me
makes sense when I'm with you
Like everything that's green, girl, I need you
But it's more than one and one makes two
Put aside the math and the logic of it
You gotta know you want it too
Kurt is taking in the lyrics of the song. A smile form along his lips as he focuses on the emotion in Blaine's voice but his face falls as he hears something else in his voice he wasn't sure what it was but he was going to find out.
Rachel is leaning against Finn his arms wrapped around her. She could hear him singing along to the song in her ear. She closes her eyes and let's his voice take over her.
'Cause I wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold you hand forever
Never let you forget it
Yeah, I wanna make you feel wanted
"Thank you Blaine." The DJ says as the crowd claps.
"So?" Blaine gives Kurt a kiss on the cheek and sits next to him.
"What was that?" Kurt asks giving Blaine a weird look.
"What? I just wanted to tell you how much you mean to me and I love you." Kurt can sense something is wrong. Blaine is trying too hard but Kurt just dismisses the thought and turns to where Rachel and Finn are they look so happy.
"Alright next up is our first duet of the night Finn and Rachel." The DJ says Rachel smiles at Finn they take their place on the stage. Rachel starts the song.
(Rachel)
Sometimes it feels like, I'm gonna break
Sometimes this world, gives more than I can take
Sometimes, sunshine gets lost in the rain
And it keeps pouring down
It just keeps coming down.
She smiles at Finn taking in the expression on his face. He always knew the right song for us.
This life would kill me If I didn't have you
I couldn't live without you baby
I wouldn't want to
If you didn't love me so much
I'd never make it through
'Cuz this life would kill me
This life would kill me if I didn't have you.
Finn joins her in the chorus as the move closer to each other. Neither one of them bothering to look at the screen. It is like they are the only ones in the room.
You are my heart, every breath I breathe
I'm safe in your arms, you rescue me.
When I'm weak, you're strong
If you were gone I don't know where I'd be
you were made for me
Rachel forgot how much she missed singing with him. Finn was never really good with words but…when it came to music he always knew what to say.
They continue on with the song never taking their eyes off each other.
If you didn't love me so much
(If you didn't love me so much)
This Life would kill me If I didn't have you
(This life would kill me)
Couldn't live without you baby
I wouldn't want to
If you didn't love me so much
I'd never make it through
'Cuz This life would kill me
This Life would kill me if I didn't have you
Rachel holds on to the last note while holding back her tears. She really didn't know that this song would get to her like this. It was like everything she had been keeping inside finally had came to head and she knew if she did not get off that stage soon she would lose it. Rachel quickly runs off the stage as the song ends leaving a baffled Finn standing there.
Finn walks back to where Kurt and Blaine are sitting. "Where's Rachel?" Finn asks confused why she ran out like she did. As far as he knew everything was going really good for them.
"I think she just needed some air." Kurt tells him feeling a bit of sympathy for his brother.
"I should go talk to her huh?" Finn asks. As both Kurt and Blaine nod.
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Finn walks outside to find a crying Rachel sitting against the wall he takes a seat next to her and places his arm around her.
"Hey." he says pulling her close to him.
"You must think I am a complete tool for running out on you like that." she tells him as she tries to regain her composure.
"Na….I am confused as to why you ran out but I don't think you are a tool." He says reassuringly
"I am sorry that I ran out like that it's…just that everything has been going really good between us. I guess I am just scared while right now things are good what is going to happen when the winter showcase comes up. I don't know this is all just way too good to be true." Rachel tried her best to explain to him what was going on in her mind but it was hard to really put it all into words.
If I could walk on water
if I could tell you what's next
Make you believe
Make you forget
"Look at me Rachel." He says to her cupping her chin. "I made a promise to you and I have no intentions of breaking it." I tell her staring into those chocolate orbs of hers.
"I know and I want to believe that you won't but what happens when things start getting hard and all those insecurities you had in high school come running back? The first time you broke my heart hurt like hell and I don't know how I even managed to get through it but, if you were to break my heart again I don't know I could take it." I am trying so hard to keep everything together and not get lost in his eyes. I can see the sincerity in them and I want to believe him with all my heart but something is keeping me from believing.
"It killed me to let you go and, I promise you that I will NEVER let you go through that pain again. You and I we are endgame there is no one else in this world for me but you. When you become the big Broadway star that I know you are going to be I am going to right there by your side cheering you on." I try my best to console her but I can see the hurt and pain in her eyes and it kills me to know I am the one that caused it all.
"You really mean that? Because Finn I need to know that you are going to be here through the good and the bad." She tells me I can see her face softening up.
"I do." I tell her as I kiss the top of her head and pull her closer to me.
"You want to go for a walk in Central Park?" she asks. I nod as I stand up and grab her hand.
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Ever wonder bout what he's doin'
How it all turned to lies
Sometimes I think that it's better
To never ask why
Blaine and Kurt are walking around New York taking in all of the sights and beauty that is New York.
"So, how's New York?" Kurt asks turning to Blaine.
"It's nice." He tells Kurt dismissively.
"Nice, Just nice? It's New York Blaine so…what's going on? I mean you have been acting distant and pushing me away since your last visit and now you show up at my doorstep in the middle of the night." He knows there is something going on he has had this feeling for a while now.
"Kurt I love you." Blaine tells him sitting on the edge of the fountain and pulling Kurt towards him.
'I love you too but, that doesn't explain why you are acting so strange." He can feel it in the pit of his stomach that this is the end.
"I met someone." As soon as those words left his lips, it was like all the air had been sucked up from around them and all there was left was this deadly silence.
"Y-You what?" I ask my voice trembling. I can feel the hurt and anger rise up in me.
Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame
Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned
But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die
You've gotta get up and try try try
"It didn't mean anything I swear you were gone and I was lonely I swear Kurt I love you." He pleads with me and I can see the pain in his eyes. I want to pull him close to me and tell him everything will be ok but I know that can't happen. I take a deep breath before saying anything. My mind trying to grasp that he cheated.
"You…cheated on me? Was it Sebastian?" I ask hoping that it was anyone but him.
"It was no one that you know. Kurt I am so sorry." he tries to close the space between us but, I take step back.
Funny how the heart can be deceiving
More than just a couple times
Why do we fall in love so easy
Even when it's not right
"How, could you?" I ask through gritted teeth.
"I-I am so sorry Kurt." I am trying so hard right now to stay calm so I do the only thing that I know.
"I have to go." I tell him as I walk away. When I am a good distance away from him I fall to my knees and let it all out.
-end flash back-
Back at the apartment. Kurt is sitting on the couch still trying to come to terms with what Blaine did to him, when Finn takes a seat next to him.
"You know you have to talk to him right?" He tells me as he hands me a glass of water.
"I can't….what do I say to him?" Kurt tells me with pain in his voice.
"Look, while I don't condone what he did and this does not meant that I am on anyone's side. I sympathize with why he did it. I mean come on you guys were apart for several months and he was lonely. I talked to Blaine the night that he told you what happened. He told me that he felt like you were slipping away from him. Every time he tried to call you were either not home of just too busy for him. He felt like all he wanted to do was go back six months to a time that was simpler." I take in what Finn is telling me.
"It still doesn't change the fact that he cheated on me! Do you know how that made me feel? To know that the one person that I gave myself completely to committed the ultimate betrayal. How do you forgive a person for that?" Kurt lashes out at Finn.
"I don't know I guess at some point you have to figure out if forgiveness or not having that person in your life is more important." Finn tries to give the best advice he could. Yes he had been cheated on in the past but it was different he was in high school and really didn't care all that much.
"You forgave Rachel." He points out.
"I did and it took along time for me to trust her but in the end I am glad I did because we would not be where we are today. You need to go talk to him and tell him exactly how you feel. I know it is not going to be easy and it won't be instant but, you two are like Rachel and I you are meant to be." I try to give him the best advice I could because honestly I really had no clue of what to say.
"Ok, fine I will talk to him." Kurt tells me finally giving up.
"Well….what are you waiting for dude?" I look at him.
"Thanks Finn." He tells me as he heads upstairs to call Blaine.
Well that is all for this chapter I hope you guys liked it.
Songs used in this chapter.
Fell in love with a boy by Joss Stone
Wanted by Hunter Hayes
If I didn't have you by Thompson Square
Come on Get Higher by Matthew Nathanson
Try by Pink
I know that there were a lot of songs used in this chapter but music is a huge part of me and well…I couldn't just pick one song.
Ok so this is what is up next…..
Blaine and Kurt finally talk about why he cheated.
We will also find out why Santana is acting weird.
Thanks again! Please feel free to leave a review. I will post another update soon I promise.