New chapter for you people :) this story got nominated as best kogan for the BTR FF awards, which I was happy with even though it's not kogan anymore xD some little developments in this chapter that y'all might enjoy.

Kendall and Jett always had a relaxing morning together. They'd eat breakfast together and take turns doing the dishes afterwards. Then Jett would go to the set or Kendall would go to the studio or if they were both blessed with some hours off, they'd sit at the table and play a board game or go to the couch and play video games, or watch a movie. Or they'd sit at opposite ends of the couch, reading. Or they'd have sex, any of these options worked for them.

"Morning," Kendall chirped to Jett as he walked into the kitchen, pecking him on the lips. "Juice is there, help yourself to whatever you want to eat."

"Got it," Jett grinned, popping some bread into the toaster as Kendall took out the milk and cereal. "Did you sleep well?"

Yup," Kendall smiled cheerfully, sitting down at the table with his food. "Really well. And you?"

"I did too. So, I was thinking."

"Mhm?"

"I thought we could go out for the day," Jett suggested to Kendall as his toast popped up and he tossed it onto a plate. "Wouldn't that be fun?"

"It would," Kendall agreed, munching on his sugary cereal as he watched Jett butter his toast and sit down too. "Like a date?" He blushed when Jett nodded. "What did you have in mind?"

"I was thinking the zoo?"

Kendall shrieked. "I love the zoo! How'd you know I love the zoo?"

"You were so damn desperate to go there when you were dating Jo," Jett replied, chuckling. "And I know you like animals, so . . ."

"This is so great, I can't wait to go!" Kendall was beaming. "Do you like animals too?"

"They're alright," Jett replied, chuckling and shrugging. "I haven't been to the zoo since the time that llama nuzzled up to me and that didn't even count. My last real trip to the zoo was when I was about eight, for a friend's birthday party."

"How'd that go?"

"A bird pooped on my new jacket. I never went back."

"Awww." Kendall pecked Jett on the cheek affectionately, nuzzling his cheek lightly. "Well, don't worry. This time I'll make sure you have more fun."

"I will hold you to that. So." Jett took a large gulp of the orange juice Kendall had laid out for hm. "We can leave in about an hour?"

"Sure, I'd like that." Kendall took his empty bowl to the sink and left it there, turning and leaning back against the counter with a sigh, rubbing his swollen belly. "The baby hasn't kicked much so far today, thank god. It drives me crazy."

This time it was Jett's turn to coo in sympathy, reaching out and gently petting Kendall's belly once or twice. "Poor thing. The baby can't help being so full of energy, you know. It's got Carlos' genes."

"Yeah, well, it's also got Logan's," Kendall retorted, rolling his eyes. "You'd think that'd balance them out, but no. Oh well. Four months to go."

"I wish we didn't have to hide our relationship," Jett commented with a little sigh, munching his breakfast. "I mean, I understand the situation and problems with it, but . . ."

"I know. Luckily, after all those camera flashes scaring the animals, they're banned, so we don't have to stay away from each other. We can just be close friends, not as many restrictions. We just can't kiss or hold hands."

Jett pouted. Kendall chuckled and gave him a quick kiss. "I'm gonna take a shower and get changed, okay? I'll wash up when I get back."

Jett nodded and Kendall left the room, humming cheerily to himself. Jett grinned and finished off his meal. The most important meal of the day, and often the most enjoyable one.

Down in 2J, however, the morning was distinctly less enjoyable on this particular day. For both Logan and Carlos. Logan, because he was sick of listening to Carlos moaning. And Carlos, for very obvious reasons.

"I don't get it," Carlos sighed, slumping back on the couch. "I'm a good person. I'm funny, I'm nice, I'm strong, I can be romantic, and I might not be the brightest but that's not important!"

"Sorry, Carlos," Logan just repeated, patting his shoulder gently.

"I just don't understand! What does Jett Stetson have that I don't? I mean, I doubt he's bigger than me, definitely not smarter, and I highly doubt he's any nicer!"

"Sorry, Carlos," Logan mumbled, patting him.

"No, I'm sorry." Carlos sat up straighter, smiling at Logan. "I need to stop whining, it's not fair on you."

"It's alright," Logan replied sweetly. "I know how you feel. I felt the same thing not too long ago, remember?"

"How do you feel now?"

"I'm over it. Kendall's my bud and I can't be mad at him. Though admittedly, this kind of surprises me too. I mean, those two used to pick at each other like crazy every time they met, and now they're dating? It is pretty odd."

"What does he even see in him?"

Logan shrugged feebly. "If I knew I'd tell you."

Suddenly James walked into the apartment, whistling. "Morning, fellas," he greeted, grinning and sitting next to him. "I just bumped to Camille in the lobby. We were gonna go out today but she's got a surprise callback for an audition."

"That's great," Logan exclaimed, smiling. "Good for her!"

"Yeah. Sucks for me though, since now I have no plans. "James shrugged. "I met Kendall and Jett too and thought I'd chill with them, enforce that whole third wheel thing, but they're going on a date to the zoo and I figured I'd leave them be—"

"The zoo?!" Carlos groaned, face planing. "Why didn't I think of taking him to the zoo? God, I'm an idiot!"

"You're not an idiot," Logan said comfortingly, giving him a hug.

Carlos hugged back briefly, before pulling back and gasping. "I've got an idea! I'm gonna go too!"

Logan groaned. James stared.

"I'll get to see what the big deal is with this whole relationship, this is perfect! Logan, come with me!"

"What? No!"

"Come on, Logan! You like the zoo!"

"I do not."

"I'll make you like it! Come on, please."

Logan sighed.

"James, when did they leave?" Carlos demanded.

"They were just going out the door when I ran into them. I came back up here right after . . ."

"Shit, we have to go! Come on!" Carlos grabbed Logan's hand and got up, running out of the apartment and ignoring the smart boy's feeble protests.

"Okay, bye guys," James shrugged weakly, slumping back on the couch and sighing. "I'll just sit here and watch Fashion Runway alone . . ."

Kendall laughed excitedly and pointed at the sea lions hopping in and out of the water to retrieve the treats the zoo workers held out for them. "Look, they're so cute!"

Jett leaned closer to Kendall's ear and did his best impression of a barking seal. Kendall jumped in fright and smacked him on the arm. "Don't do that, you scared me!"

"I would say I'm sorry, but . . ."

"Come on." Kendall took Jett's hand and led him out of the crowds. As soon as they reached the end of the group of people he let go again before anyone who knew them could see. Jett had already signed a few autographs and taken some pictures. Kendall had taken less, but didn't mind too much. One or two fans had taken a picture with them both. It was nice. They'd already been to see the big cats and some of the ape species, which Jett admittedly enjoyed. He particularly liked the tigers, watching them prowl across the grass.

"Do you see them?" Carlos hissed from behind a bright colourful poster display of feeding times.

"Yes," Logan replied tiredly, feeling Carlos's hand pressed against his back. "They're heading back away from the sea lions." He hastily unfolded his map and glanced at it. "Going back to the herbivores and the gift shops."

"Fuck, let's follow!" Carlos crept out from behind the sign, spooking some poor three-year-old and grabbing Logan by the hand, running along down the path a good distance behind Kendall and Jett. Kendall was currently laughing at a joke the pretty boy had made, hand ever so subtly placed on his arm. Jett was grinning at him. Carlos growled. "Twats."

"I've never heard you use that word before today," Logan commented idly as he was dragged along. "Interesting."

Carlos suddenly dragged Logan behind a bush, the branches scratching at his arms. "Ow!"

"Shh." Carlos peeked over it at where Kendall and Jett had stopped outside a gift shop and were sitting on a bench with their backs to it.

"I'll be right back," Jett said to Kendall, patting his shoulder and disappearing into the gift shop. Kendall sat in content on the bench, hands over his belly, a sweet little smile on his face.

"He's so cute," Carlos whined.

"Yeah yes, I know," Logan snapped dismissively, rolling his eyes. "Come on Carlos, let it go."

"Not until I see what makes that daffodil so special instead of me!"

"We've been following them all day and you've seen nothing, what on earth are yu waiting for?"

Carlos sighed, shoulders slumping a little. "I don't know." Then he tensed up again, seeing Jett come out of the shop with a paper shopping bag swinging from his hand. "Hey," Jett said softly to Kendall, sitting next to him and handing him the bag. "I got you something."

"Oh, thanks!" Surprised but delighted, Kendall fished through the bag and pulled out a seal plushie. He gave it a hug, grinning and hugging Jett too. "Thank you, I love it."

"You've already got a giraffe so I didn't get you one of those. Maybe you can start up your own zoo," Jett teased, poking his cheek lightly.

"That sounds good. Okay, now it's my turn." Kendall handed the seal back to Jett. "Hold this until I come back?"

Jett nodded and Kendall struggled to his feet, walking (or waddling) into the store himself. "Pfft," Carlos scoffed. "Kendall likes giraffes way more than he likes seals. What a rookie mistake."

"We missed the last penguin feeding time," Logan wailed, face buried in his map. "This is so annoying!"

"Logan, we didn't come here for fun."

"And I can't believe it's you saying those words to me. This is what we've been reduced to."

"Shush, he's coming back out."

Kendall walked out of the store, bag in hand. He took the contents from it and held it in his hand; it was a tiger plushie, a large one. He crept up behind Jett, grinning before lunging forward and shaking the tiger's head against Jett's ear, "Raaawwrrr!"

Jett squeaked in surprise and turned around half fallen off the bench, shaking his head and smiling tiredly at Kendall's hysterical laughter. Kendall scooted around and sat back on the bench, handing Jett the tiger. "Here's yours. I saw you liked them, so . . ."

"Thank you, babe," Jett grinned. He glanced over his shoulder briefly, to check their surroundings. Then he leaned and pressed hs lips to Kendall's in a brief kiss. Kendall was smiling in a bit of a daze when he pulled back, biting his lip and grinning as he carefully intertwined their hands on his lap. They were just sitting there, looking at each other. Carlos watched and his mouth drooped in disappointment. He saw now what it was, and it was simply the way Kendall looked at Jett. He looked at him like he was a king, like he was a god. Or his world. He'd never looked at Carlos like that. He wasn't an idiot, he knew that full well.

"That's it," he said dully. "I've seen enough."

"What was it?" Logan sked, finally folding his map and putting it away.

"Look at the way Kendall's looking at him," Carlos sighed, ducking down from peeking over the hedge and sitting down on the concrete ground. "Has he ever looked at you that way?"

Logan did. He frowned and sat down next to Carlos. "No, he hasn't. I've never got that vibe from him, anyway."

"Neither have I."

"The way he looked at us was like the way he looks at James . . ."

"A friend."

"Pretty much."

"We were only ever meant to be friends, weren't we?"

"With him, yeah."

Carlos slumped against Logan's shoulder. "I feel so stupid. I'm just not good enough . . ."

"Hey, stop that." Logan turned to face him properly. "Carlos, listen. You're an amazing person. Just because Kendall doesn't feel that way for you anymore doesn't mean he doesn't think so, and it doesn't mean it's true. If you weren't good enough, if you were a bad person, if you were worthless, nobody would like you. But they do. He does, James does, plenty of people do. I do."

"I guess you're right."

"Of course I am, I'm still Logan." Logan grinned at him.

Carlos smiled back, getting to his feet. "Wait here for a sec? I just wanna go walk around a little, clear my head . . . I'll be back in a few minutes."

Logan shrugged, nodding as Carlos walked away. He leaned back against the lamppost nearby, staring blankly at the hedge beside him and daydreaming. Somewhere in the distance he heard Kendall's laughter, and faintly through the gaps between the branches he saw him and Jett get up and leave, and he could see just how much they wanted to put their arms around each other and show everyone around them how they felt, and how happy they were together. He sighed, longing to be happy with someone too.

"I'm back!" a voice announced above his head.

"Good," Logan replied tiredly, getting to his feet and turning to face him. "Because I've had enough of—" He stopped, eyes widening. Carlos was standing there with a souvenir bag dangling from one hand and hanging open. In his other he held a penguin plushie, and held it out to Logan with a smile. " . . . Oh."

"I wanna say thanks," Carlos said as Logan took the present in his hands. "For coming along with me today, you didn't have to."

"You kinda dragged me, I didn't have much choice either way," Logan replied weakly, hugging the penguin close to his chest. "Thank you."

"That's true I guess. And I'm sorry you didn't get to see the penguins getting fed. Maybe we can come another day and watch them." Carlos grinned, handing him the bag too. "You're welcome."

The two walked around from behind the hedge. "I'd love that. Any idea where Kendall and Jett are?" Logan asked him as they walked.

"Nope." Carlos shrugged. "Could be making out somewhere, could be having sex somewhere, could be watching the zebras do nothing except eat. Either way I can't do much about it, can I?"

"No," Logan chuckled, shaking his head. "No, you can't."