Chapter 7
I don't really know where Anastasia is going to go tonight and I'm worried. I do know that since she has been here I have been paying her well so she should have money to at least stay at a decent hotel. I'll have Taylor see if he can track her cell and keep tabs on her until she's calm enough so we can talk. This is terrible. I feel responsible for hurting her. She's so sweet and good how did this slip by me, how?
I go up to her room and I see she left some stuff behind. A few clothing items are still in the hamper and all her toiletries are still in the bathroom. I open her night table drawer and I see she left her journal behind. Oh man I want to look inside but that's so wrong. I can't, what if she comes back and catches me?
I call her cell but she doesn't answer. I leave her a voice mail asking her to please call me. An hour later she calls me finally. "Miss Steele are you alright? Please tell me where you are, I am worried about you."
"I'm fine , I'm sorry for leaving so abruptly. I was very upset"
"That's Okay, as long as you are safe Anastasia? Are you safe where are you?"
"I'm not far I'm just by the library, I will get a motel room sir, I'll be fine, please accept my apologies again for my behavior this evening" She says sullenly.
"I'd like you to return back here safely, I'll have Taylor come get you and bring you back" I plead "You are not fired, I want you back here now do you understand?"
"No sir I'll find a motel, I can return on Monday morning" she says, damn I want her back here safe but at least she's agreed to return to work.
"Anastasia at least allow me to get you a hotel room and have Taylor pick you up and bring you safely there, I insist" I'm not letting her stay in some shit hole fucking motel. She's staying in a five star suite nearby
"Yes sir, that's fine thank you" she agrees and gives me her exact whereabouts and I send Taylor to get her a.s.a.p. When she's safe in her hotel room Taylor calls me and lets me know. He gives me her room number and told me he sent room service up for her already. I sit in her bedroom for a bit and I just have to take a peek at that journal. I know it's so wrong but I feel like it may give me a clue as to what's going on in that mysterious mind of hers. I'll just take a peek. I take the journal and go downstairs to my bedroom and lock the door. I feel so guilty even though I do background checks on everyone this is crossing the stalker line even for me but I'm in love with her and worried so I have to know more.
I open the book and the first 20 or so pages are all prior to her working here. Mostly taking about her jobs and writing music. I flip the page to Sunday August 5th. She writes'
Aug 5th
Today I moved into a new place taking on a live-in housekeeping job, the pay is good and I have school loans and tuition to pay soon so I can't be choosy. My boss CG is so handsome it should be illegal. My room is very sterile but I'll warm it up soon, if he keeps me on. I dropped my keyboard during the move. I was so upset. I saved 6 months for that. I hope I can keep up with the work here, it's a big place. Need sleep and a good run tomorrow … xo –A
So she thinks I'm illegally good looking, she's one to talk. She is beyond beautiful to me.
Aug 7th
The past 2 days have been good. I think CG likes my cooking and I made friends in the lounge downstairs when I went to buy a club soda, they let me play the baby grand after hours. I miss my keyboard. Also the boss scares me a bit, one minute he's soft spoken and next he's firing someone on the phone, hope I'm not next. He runs in the morning same time as me and I almost fainted in the elevator, he looked delicious all sweaty and his scent was heady. Gosh I'm horrible, he's my boss but I'll make sure to wear something cute so he can check out my butt, he was this morning I knew he was behind me the whole time but i didnt say a word! I need a cold shower. PS there is one room here that has me curious. I call it the red room of pain but it looks fun in a naughty way….xo-A
Holy fuck, she knew I followed her the 2nd day and checked out her ass, and she likes my sweaty scent and my playroom, interesting. I also notice she is very discreet, no names in here. I like that, damn I want to read more. I skip a few pages and go to the weekend.
Aug 11th
Today was weird CG has his GF come over last night and they played in that red room of pain for a while. It was loud and I had to put headphones on. When I went to clean it there were a lot of condoms on the floor, He must love her and they must have a lot of sex. I've never had sex before but I'd sure like it to be with someone as handsome as CG. The GF called K was rude to me when he wasn't around; she told me I better not speak to him and threatened to fire me if I was out of line. I haven't done anything to her or provoked her in anyway. She has no idea that I kick boxed for 3 years and could punch her out with one shot, but I'm a lady and I need my job and yeah CG is super fun to stare at. He plays music late at night and sometimes I leave my door opened so I can hear. He's amazing. …xo-A
Wow that fucking bitch Kelsey, I can't believe she was harassing her the whole time and Miss Steele never complained once. Also I'm a little pleased she listens to me play and that she is attracted to me, and wait she said she's never had fucking sex before. Oh man that like hitting the fucking lottery even for a billionaire like myself. I knew she was pure but not that pure. My playroom must scare the pants off her, I wish. God I want her. I have to have her, she will be mine. I can't let another man have her she was meant for best part and surprise was that she kick boxed for 3 years, she was right about that punch, Kelsey's eye was fucked up pretty bad.
Aug 13th
Today was better now the K left, she's only here on the weekend but for some reason she hates me. I'm not afraid of her, I'm afraid of losing my job. Frankly I'm surprised he loves her or dates her, she's horrible and he is so sweet. I'm sure he's tough with work but he is so kind to me. I secretly have feelings for him so K is on point with that but I have never shown my feelings so I don't know why that troll hates me. She purposely spilled food all over the sofa to watch me clean it and knocked my lunch on the floor. I was so tempted to rip her hair out but I smiled. I have had a hard life and believe me she's nothing I can't handle. CG ran with me today and we even spoke a little. His shorts were fitted just right and I feel so naughty for looking but it looked huge omg! Also I have saved $4500.00 since I've been here. He over pays me for sure and I feel guilty being that I'm a horrible housekeeper. I paid $4000.00 back on my school loans and bought some clothes so I only have $188.00 in the bank. I miss school but it costs so much. I want a degree so hopefully I can return next year. I need sleep. I hope I dream of his grey eyes again tonight xo-A
This girl has had to put up with such abuse from Kelsey and she never once told me, why Ana why? I would have sent her away the very first time she said something to you. I can't believe she thinks I love that bitch, no Ana I love you baby. I'm pissed she has to work to pay fucking loans, I could make a call tomorrow and pay it off in second, but then she will know. I'll keep it anonymous perhaps. So she was checking out my package, hmm. God now I really want to fuck her so bad. I'm glad shes safe at the hotel the little money she has wont get her far. This is wrong I have to stop reading. Maybe just one more, maybe she wrote last night. Damn this was a long entry so I'll just take a quick peek.
Sept 10th
Today was my 22nd Birthday. I didn't do much except for cook and clean but the boss looked super hot today in his grey suit, the way his pants hang off his hips and his shirt unbuttoned. I wanted to reach out and touch the small bit of hair on his sexy muscular chest yummy!. I have been feeling depressed the past few days because of K's threats of losing my job. I was also alone for my birthday today which is nothing new for me but I just felt sadder than usual, birthday blues I guess. I was just hoping someone would remember but since I have nobody in my life it was a sure chance nobody would .. I have always wanted a birthday party as a kid but never had one. I used to wish for a Barbie dream house and a big pink fluffy princess gown. I've never received one gift on my birthday not even a cake as far as I can remember, for Christmas either, Santa skipped my apartment building cause he was busy my mother used to say. So I went to the bakery today and got myself a vanilla cupcake and dropped it just as I went to take the first bite. I guess it was a sign and like a big baby I cried and pouted to myself. I would have bought myself a gift but I spent most of my money paying off those damn loans. It's going to be rough again for me soon. I feel it and I'm really going to miss CG I think I'm in love with him not that he would ever have the slightest interest in someone like me. I'm so beneath him, I'm a housekeeper for crying out loud! Xo-A
I feel like a fucking piece of shit. I didn't even know it was her fucking birthday. I studied her background check 200 times and her birthday was was first thing on the list, yet I didn't remember. My heart is fucking burning with anger. She spent her birthday cleaning up my dirty underwear and cooking me dinner. No family, friends, gifts or a cake. I am reeling I want to punch a wall. I have to make it up to her. I will order the most delicious cake made from the finest bakery in France. I will shower her with pink diamonds and a gown to match if she wants. I should have known. I could have taken her to dinner, something, anything. I feel tears brim my eyes and a lump form in my throat. Why did she keep that from me? Doesn't she not think of me as friend? I guess not but she admitted to being in love with me. How could she ever think she's beneath me, she is like an goddess to me. I secretly worship her every minute of the day. She couldn't be any higher on the pedestal I have created for her. Ok this is the last entry I'll read I promise.
Sept 14th
Today was bad K attacked me a block from CG's bldg. and I knocked her on her ass in one punch after she lunged at me, pulled my hair and she scratched my neck. I'm already packed and ready to leave. He's going to fire me anyway when she tells him what I did even though she provoked me. She hit first I defended myself and frankly she deserved it. She's been attacking me for weeks for no reason. I will miss CG I have fallen hard for him. He is everything I have ever wanted apart from money but he is out of my reach. Sometimes I feel like he likes me but I doubt he would slum it, and I am an employee. I will miss his delicious scent, hypnotic eyes, his piano playing and his sweet voice, He is the only man I have ever loved and he will never know. I have been so emotional this week and distant trying to soften the blow on myself.
I knew it was coming. I would give anything just to kiss him once. I can't torture myself like this though. I don't have any place to go so I'm probably going to stay at a shelter that I've spent many of my teenage nights at until I can afford a small room. I can do a few singing gigs and ask for my library job back. I should be ok in 6-8 weeks. So far K hasn't told CG what happened and I'm curious why, maybe he's waiting till morning to fire me. She is probably working on a story to tell him, what a liar. I will miss all the friends from the building who let me sing at night. I will even miss his security guard T. He was like an uncle to me almost. I will miss his stories about his daughter. I packed one of CG's tee shirts in my bag so I can sleep in it to feel close to him. I will return it but his scent comforts me so I'll mail it back in a week or two. Hope he won't be too mad about that. Well I need rest while I have a place to sleep. Not going to get much sleep in the shelter with all that noise. Xo-A
Okay thank God she's at the hotel; I want her back here right now. I need her. I would never let her go to a fucking shelter. What has this girl been through in her life? I can't read anymore I need her to tell me everything when she's ready. She's admitted to being in love with me. I had no clue she felt the same. I've never loved a woman beside her either. I don't know if I can tell her but I can show her if she lets me. I love that she took my shirt to feel close to me. I wonder if she's wearing it right now. I'm going to get her. I have to see her now. I close her journal and head back up to her bedroom and place it back as it was and close the drawer.