ok. here is another chapter of Singing brought me back to you. I have been goin crazy about doin a chapter, and I knew I had to get this out. How y'all like it. Don't forget to review...
After Rosalie and I embraced I sat down with Alice. I had no choice, but to sit in this queen chair. The reason I hated it so much is because I am not a queen. I'm not putting myself down or anything, but I just think of myself that way. Yes, I may have a song if the top 50, but I am still humble. I am not all diva about it. I'm not full of myself. People in the music industry who are full of themselves get sloppy and start to think they don't have to work hard. I am the oppisite of that. I will work hard til' I die regardless if I am making music or cleaning someones house.
"Ok, Bella. You are staying with us with the remainder of your vacation." Alice declared.
What. She thought I was staying here for the rest of my days off. She got me twisted.
"What's makes you think I will?" I questioned.
"I had a vision" She said.
"Visions aren't set in stone" I countered.
"You're right. We'll just have to see."
"I say we make a compromise" I suggested.
"What do you have in mind?"
"I stay with you for one night"
"No. Three nights" She demanded.
Ooh, she is persistent isn't she.
"Two nights" I offered.
She looked to be considering it.
"Ok. Two nights and I dress you up like a barbie." Alice's cheery voice said.
Hell no. I ain't gettin' dressed as no barbie.
"How about this. Two and a half nights. You can take me shopping with you, but no barbie dress up."
Alice smiled. "You got yourself a deal."
Alice pulled out a well designed list out. "Now that you changed your plans I am going to have to remake this list." Alice said in mock anger after which editing her list.
Oh my my my. I am anxious to see what is on that list. Knowing Alice shopping is at the top of the list. I have never been on a full extensive shopping trip with Alice, but i have seen her come back from one and there were dozens and dozens of bags.
"It really would be much easier if you would just stay the three days" Alice mentioned.
"Too bad" I mumbled.
"Ugh. You are an evil creature you know that, bella?" Alice whined.
I smirked slightly. It wasn't everyday a person could say no to Alice and it was funny when she got upset because I turned her down.
"I've never seen anyone turn Alice down. How do you do that you must teach me?" Jasper's face lite up.
I laughed. "Just say no. If that don't work offer her something she can't refuse. I'm sure you can get down if you have to" I said suggestively.
"What exactly are you implying?" Jasper asked.
I puffed out my lips slightly while thinking. "I think you know what I mean."
"That won't work" Alice chirped.
"What makes you so sure of that".
"I know myself. I would rather drag everyone with me shopping that be having sex with Jasper." Alice said bluntly.
I blinked a few times. "Really?"
"Really." She reassured.
"Is he not big or is he bad in bed."
Alice laughed at my audacity. I laughed when I saw Edward's face. He had a look of shock and pure disgust. It wasn't surprising that he would be offended by what I said. He's old school case closed.
"That's disgusting, Bella" Edward muttered just loud enough that I could hear it.
I laughed slightly. I had not intended to offend Edward, but doing that was a bonus.
Alice finished what she was doing less than five minutes later and turned back to me and resumed what she was doing before having to fix her plans.
"Ok, Bella. First on the list of things to do is an interview."
That confused me didn't we already do that earlier today. Maybe she had something else to get off her chest that she didn't already. Or, maybe she was going to ask embarrassing sexual questions and try to make me blush. Actually, that would be more of Emmett's style. Either way I wouldn't be blushing since I really don't do it that much anymore. Once in a while and that is it, not that I can control when I blush.
"Didn't we already do this?" I asked.
"Yes, we did, but that was a train wreck if I ever saw one and I want a do over."
I shrugged my shoulders. If that is what she wanted that is what she would get. I didn't think it was that bad of an interview, I've personally had worse. I've had interviewers that tried to instigate something between me and another celebrity, but I just put that bitch in her place just like she needed to be. I've had interviewers who didn't like me and showed it, but I just got through it without a fight. I find that a big accomplishment.
"Ok, first lets talk about this album you made." Alice cheerfully said. "What was the recording process for you?"
"Well, a lot of people think it's easy. I will be the first person to tell you it is quite the opposite. The writing is the easy part, for me at least. For some songs I have more layers than others, so it really depends on the song, but it isn't like a half an hour procedure. The easiest songs take at least an hour and a half."
Everyone with the exception of Alice looked shocked. Obviously they didn't know the whole operation of creating a song.
"It takes that long?" Emmett questioned in disbelief.
"Yes it does. You gotta understand though sometimes my voice cracks and I have start over again. Sometimes I don't like the way it sounds and start over because of that, too."
"Emmett thought that you couldn't sing, either" Rosalie commented.
"Well, I will be sure to prove him wrong on both accounts."
Emmett laughed. "Yeah right."
It really going to be priceless when he saw how good I could rap. I am not only going to kill it I am going to rub it in his face for years to come. He will learn that the old Bella is gone gone gone.
"Emmett, shut up you are ruining the interview. Bella and I are the only ones that can talk. Got it, good" Alice said the last part without hearing Emmett's response. "So, back to topic. On this album you sing about many subjects cheating, abusive relationships, rape, anger, sadness, helplessness, betrayal. It really is an emotional rollercoaster. How do you deal with all the things you have been through all these years."
I closed my eyes and thought before answering the question. "I have a hidden strength that no one else has. When I am in the darkest night I know I will persevere. I can't let a single thing I have been through destroy me. It took me all of these years to realize that. That and with the grace of god."
"On the album you talk about loosing and regaining your soul and the feeling that comes along with it. When you say that is it metaphoric?"
I had not expected this question at all. I wasn't being metaphoric when I wrote and sang about loosing and regaining my soul. "When I say I lost my soul I am not over exaggerating. I truly felt like nothing. There was nothing but a hole in place of my soul. I don't ever want to feel that way again."
"How many times did you feel that emptiness."
"Actually I have felt it quite a few times. The times I had felt that way is when I have lived for people and not myself. When Edward left I felt that way for a long time. I felt that way because I lived for him and not me. When I was with him it was more of me needed him than loving him."
"Are you saying you never loved him?"
I could tell Edward was very uncomfortable by what we were talking about, but I really didn't care. He did put me through a lot and he did deserve some pain too. I don't hate him, but he can't expect for me to just be the same person I was before he left. He expected me to be a lady and I knew that and the life I have lived I can't always be ladylike. "I'm not saying I didn't love him. I'm saying that it wasn't real love it was like an obsession."
"Do you blame him for what you've been through."
"No. What I have been through isn't his fault. It isn't anyone's. It's unfortunate that I had to go through it, but I can't blame anyone for my problems."
"Okay, moving along. Apart from heartache and pain you talk about love on the album. You aren't with anyone at the moment how do you come up with the inspiration when you are single."
I smiled. "Well, I have had a lot of bad relationships, but I have had one great relationship too so that is where the love songs come from."
"Where is he?"
I felt the tears falling down my cheek fast. I had not talked about him in a while and I know I still loved him.
"Oh, Bella" Alice started grabbing my head. "I didn't mean to make you cry."
"It's not your fault you didn't know"
"Know what? What happened to him?" Emmett asked.
"He's dead" I sighed.
I know another cliffhangers, but I wanted to get something out fast seeing that I haven't posted something on this for a couple months... Review. Peace...