Ok, this chapter took from thursday to now, monday. I hope you like it. It has a lot of everything in it. Some comedy, heartbreaking memories, ect. Review, tell me what you like about it.. What you don't like about it.. What you want to happen.. What you don't want to happen. Peace.

"Dead? How?" Alice asked.

I sighed deep and long. I didn't know I was going to have to explain this, let alone talk about it. I did have a couple options I could man up and talk about it, run out of here like a child, or just say I'm not ready to talk about it.

I took a different option than I had thought I could take.

"It's not a big deal it happened a long time ago."

My voice was nonchalant and cool which came from years of heartbreaks. I guess one could call it guard or my wall. It was my way of keeping others out, my velvet rope as Janet Jackson would say. It is only one part of my guard, I have many parts. Just like I have many aspects of my personality.

I can be sweet and humble, Rude, Blunt and Vicious, or sexy and confident. It depends on which situation I am in to bring those aspects out. Right now I am in my sweet and humble aspect and will remain in it unless something comes to change it.

The usual way to change that is if someone pisses me off. It is very likely that if Lauren keeps up her trash talking that I will have to revert to that side. I don't want to have to, but if it comes to it I will get pissed and end up smacking her.

"You sure?" Alice asked.

I nodded. "Yes, I'm positive."

I am pretty sure Alice knew there was more to it than I was saying, but backed off because she knew I didn't want to talk about it. Gotta love Alice. She may be a pain sometimes, but come down to it she always has my best interests at heart.

"Ok, lets talk about sex. You seem to sing about it on this cd."

I laughed slightly both at the audacity of Alice and the look on Edward's face.

"Alice that is gross" Edward scolded.

"Don't act like you don't want to know" Alice responded.

"I certainly want to know" Emmett grinned which gained a smack from Rosalie.

He will say anything won't he?

Jasper looked like he wanted to know. Pervert.

The only one who looked like they didn't really care was Esme and Carlisle. It seems they were the only sane ones in the room.

I laughed. "Ok, what do you want to know."

"Everything, but we can start with what is your favorite part of having sex."

I smiled. "I like the whole thing, but I like to please my men so I would have to say giving head is my favorite part."

Alice giggled, Jasper laughed, and Edward continued with his weird facial expressions. I don't get it. What is wrong with me having a sexual appetite. No one goes around and laughs or makes weird faces when Rosalie and Emmett are boning 24/7 so why should they do it for me.

Jasper was the first to say something. "They are acting like that because they think of you are pure and innocent like."

I laughed. It was particularly funny, but it would be when I answered all of Alice's sex questions.

"Keep the questions coming Alice." I smirked.

"Ok, where is the craziest place you've done it in."

Hmm. I started thinking. I have had sex in a lot of crazy places and scenarios, but which one takes the cake. I got it. Boy oh boy they are going to be shocked.

"On top of a car" I smiled, not embarrassed one bit.

Alice looked confused. "You mean like in a garage."

I licked my lips and smiled. "Nope."

Alice blinked. "You mean like in public"

I nodded and as soon as I did Edward looked like he had something sour in his mouth.

"Something wrong, Edward?" I asked innocently.

"You have had sex on top of cars in public and I have never had sex and I am more than twice your age."

I laughed. It was funny, but then it struck me that maybe it kind of made me look like a slut in their eyes. I know I am not a slut and that's what matters, but I guess I am going to have to explain it to them or rather just Edward.

"Look, I didn't do it with just any guy I was in a committed relationship with him and I don't see how I was in the wrong" I said guiltless.

"Edward, leave her alone. We all have had more sex than we care to talk about and if we wanna talk about sexual look at those two sexbots over there." Rosalie said pointing at Carlisle and Esme.

Wow. Just wow.

"We don't do it that often" Carlisle said obviously uncomfortable.

"Pfft, yeah right. You two have done it more times than anyone in this house."

"Well, you don't know my sex life so that's an unjust opinion." I say.

"How many times do you have sex a day?" Alice speaks again.

"Well, when I'm in a relationship it's usually three to five times, but when I'm not in one it's not at all"

"You don't like casual sex?" Alice wonders.

"It's not that I don't like it, it's just that in the state of the world today I don't trust most guys saying they don't have a disease unless I know them really well."

"Oh, I totally get that. Lets change the subject since Edward and Emmett seem to have a problem with it" Alice said not saving anyone's feelings.

"I don't have a problem with it" Emmett spoke up.

"No, you prefer we stay on Bella talking about sex, wouldn't you" Alice began.

Before he could say anything Alice was back to talking.

"I don't think you know how big fans Jasper and I are of you" Alice clarified.

I blinked. I figured Alice liked my music because she was giving this interview, but I didn't think Jasper was. My music was stained with pain and I didn't know if he could handle it.

Before I could respond Alice was showing all of the things both Jasper and Alice had of me on their ipods. It was insane to say the least. Both of them had everything possible of me. (Pictures, Interviews, Released songs, unreleased songs, ect.)

"This is just the beginning of it" Alice started. "I have every magazine that either you had an article in or were on the cover."

"Wow." I was speechless.

"So" Alice began. "When are you going to do a show for us?"

"Depends?" I answered.

"On what?"

"On what time frame I have, what songs I am going to sing, what type of place is it, how many people. It depends on a lot of things."

"How about here, seven people, a couple of days from now and you pick the songs."

Hmm. Alice obviously wanted to see me in concert really bad, or maybe she had another agenda.

"It might make certain members of this family see you in a different light" Alice continued.

That was tempting, very tempting. What do I really have to lose? I could do it, I mean it's not like I have limited singing time. It would also make Alice very happy and I don't want to make her upset.

"Besides with the exception of Jasper and I none of the family has heard you sing."

That is when it struck me that I had to do it. I had to give them my life, my story whatever it wants to be called. I had to show them that I had gone through a lot of drama and was no longer the same 'Bella' as before.

I had to show Edward the reasons I couldn't be with him. I had to show Emmett that I was not simply 'the human' anymore. I had to show Carlisle and Esme my humble beginnings and my growth, but most of all I had to show the Cullen's my life.

"How could I say no to that face" I smiled.

"You did before" Alice reminded me.

"Dahling that was then and this is now" I said with a French accent.

"What's with the French accent" Alice laughed.

"It's all part of the charm."

"Ok, lets get on to these final questions. I am going to ask another couple and then the rest of the family will."

"Ok." I eagerly said ready for the questions.

I was eager to hear what the rest of the family had to say. I knew only Alice and Jasper had heard my music, but I wanted to know what the rest of them thought of what I have been saying for the last half hour.

"First I would like to adress a rumor." Alice stated. "I heard from Mike Newton, that you and him had a thing going on after we left."

I blinked a few times after which laughing.

"Oh, people please" Was my one liner. I said it in a way that set them off laughing.

It was my tone I knew for sure. Just saying 'Oh, people please' isn't funny off the bat, you have to emphasize it in such a way to make it funny.

"Ok lets get onto my next questions" Alice said in between giggles. "Would you ever have plastic surgery." Alice was serious now, completely serious no signs of giggles or laughter.

I saw everyone's expression go from silly to serious as she asked the question.

I didn't even have to think about the question before I answered it, it was immediate like a reflex.

"Never" I started. "Everything on me is real with the exception of the tan and the blonde hair."

"Do you get in the tanning bed?"

I saw Carlisle stiffen at the mention of me in a tanning bed. It was most likely because it gives cancer.

"Hell no. I'm not lookin to get cancer. The reason I have a tan is because I am exposed to the sun in L.A because of outside concerts, video shoots, as well as other things."

"Ok one last question from me. What are you going to do about these little girls, Jessica and Lauren talking badly about you behind your back?"

I knew Lauren was talking about me, but I didn't know Jessica was too. Hmm, figures she would she's Lauren's bitch. I didn't think before I talked and just said what was on my mind, like usual.

"Right now I am laying low, but if they keep up with it I'm going to have to teach them a lesson." It was insinuating that I would go beat them up and I would I just didn't have to say it in exact words.

I think everyone got my point since they had a look of it on their face. Emmett looked like he was going to laugh if Rosalie wasn't there. Edward, Esme and Carlisle looked apprehensive. Alice had a smirk on her face along. Rosalie had a look of joy and Jasper looked nonchalant.

"I think they deserves it" Jasper broke the silence.

I laughed. I knew he only said it to break the silence. He was right those bitches did deserve to get their asses handed to them on a bronze platter. Both are trash and there ain't no way I am putting them on a silver platter.

"Jasper" Esme scolded.

"Well, it's true. Both of them have been talking about Bella for six years." Jasper defended both himself and I.

Six years. He was right they have been talking for more than half of a decade. These bitches need a life stat. They are both out of high school and still doing this little girl bullshit. It is started to get old and so are they.

"Obviously, they have no lives. They just sit down and talk about somebody who has more than ten times their money." I entered back into the conversation so Jasper wasn't alone in it.

I wasn't going to leave him in there taking all the blame. I was the one answering the question so it was on me what my answer would affect the rest of the 'Cullen's.

"Speaking of money. How much do you have?" Alice asked trying to take the situation off of these broke bitches.

"Well, I have eighty-five hundred on me right now, but back in L.A I have about close to eight million."

"In a bank right" Alice said sure that it was in a bank, but that was not the case.

"No. It's in a safe."

Alice eyes went wide, something I have never seen. It was quite funny. "A safe? Come on, Bella you need to put it in a bank. You know what lets go now."

I could tell she wasn't kidding.

"No, it's alright. My safe is the most hard to brake into and besides I have guards for that kind of thing."

"Your sure?"

"Yes" I laughed. "Calm down."

Alice sat down and composed herself.

"Besides if someone did steal from me, I would find them. Trust me, I have my ways."

"Oh really." Alice grinned. "What would you do to them?"

"I don't think I need to get descriptive, you could probably imagine it pretty well."

"I suppose I could. Ok, now it's Jasper turn for questions."

Alright, I am ready. I wonder what he is going to ask me. I made a few guesses at what his questions would be, but the first one he asked I would never in a million years of guessed.

"What is your most painful memory."

Wow, he sure didn't beat around the bush.

"In the last six years or in my whole lifetime?" I wondered.

"Both" Jasper suggested.

Hmm. I closed my eyes. I had been through a lot, but what were my most painful memories within the last six years and in my whole lifetime. I quickly figured out which were my most painful ones, but it didn't mean I was ready to say them. I breathed out knowing I was going to have to talk about it sooner or later and preferring sooner to be the best, and there aint no time like the present.

"I have been through a lot, but the most painful would have to be my mentor who was like a sister to me go on the radio and talk shit about me."

Jasper had a sympathetic look on his face for me, probably from feeling my emmence sorrow.

"What would be the most painful thing you have gone through in your lifetime?" He asked.

It was unlike the last time I knew the tears were coming and closed my eyes as they came down my cheek, fast.

"I was thirteen. I woke up in the middle of the night when I heard sounds. I went downstairs and saw my mother snorting cocaine. When I confronted her, her dealer punched me in the face, but when I punched him back she kicked me out."

Everyone in the room gasped.

"It wasn't the kicking me out that hurt me so bad as it was the look on her face after he hit me. It was the look of not caring. It was that one thing that made me not love myself."

"Have you talked about it with her about it, since?" Esme interjected.

"I have tried, believe me I have, but every time I do she changes the subject and acts like it never happened. It hasn't been right between us since then."

"Ok, my turn" Emmett announced.

Gotta love Emmett for breaking me out of that whole discussion.

"What cup size are you?" Emmett asked.

My eyes widened. I know he didn't just ask that! Rosalie smacked the back of his head repeatedly.

"A real lady doesn't answer such questions" I responded classy and lady like. "Do you have any actual questions, Emmett?"

"No."

I laughed, classic Emmett.

Next was Edward, here we go. I just don't want to answer no more serious questions.

"Who are your major influences who influence the sound of your music."

Ooh, actually a good question.

"Mary J Blige is my number one influence and you can hear the influence on my cd. Billie Holiday is another as well as others."

"Billie Holiday, Hmm which do you prefer her earlier or later recordings?"

"That's a no brainer, her later ones. Her voice felt as though it had more pain in it and to me that's inspiring."

That was the end of Edwards questions and then it was Esme's turn. She wanted to know what my favorite movie was. I told her it was 'What's love got to do with it' Tina turner's book turned film because of a situation it helped get me out of. She looked like she wanted to ask about it, but she withheld it.

Carlisle was the last one, since Rosalie didn't seem to have a question.

"I don't have a question, but I would like to talk to you in my study, later." Carlisle stated.

We have reached the end of that chapter. Which means it is that much closer to Emmett and Bella being together in it. It's going to bed a few more chapters before anything Emmett/bella romance related happens though. You will have to wait and see.. Until next time.. Peace and love..