Chapter 26- The New Housekeeper by ShadyGreySteele
A few weeks later…..
Ana came home excited today when she found out about her promotion at work and salary increase. She really loves her job and still has no idea that I have bought the company. My plan is to eventually make her senior editor and gift her the company sometime in the future.
I plan to make her my wife one day and this will be a perfect wedding gift for her. Thanksgiving is tomorrow and I have given my entire staff in every single company I own the rest of the week off with pay. Everyone is buzzing about it and think I was fucking abducted by aliens. Honestly it's a first for me. I don't give two fucks about the holidays or at least I didn't before I met Anastasia. She had mentioned a few weeks ago that it would be nice to have off the day before and after so I made it happen.
Really I'm selfish bastard I just want her home so I can spend every fucking moment with her. I'm drugged by her presence and I just feel sated whenever I'm with her, even when she has a smart little mouth. She is out now for a run with Taylor, usually she runs in the morning but was too tired this morning after we fucked for about four hours, it was fucking incredible.
She texted me and said she and Taylor are heading to the market to pick up some stuff for Thanksgiving dinner. My parents are having a whole huge family dinner and there will be around thirty people there. I really just want to have a private dinner with Anastasia. It's our first of many I hope and we can do Christmas at my folk's house.
Taylor and Gail are going to Gail's sister in Portland and Taylor is thrilled that he has his daughter this holiday to bring along, she's a sweet little kid. Ana is baking some pies to send with them. I offered to have our dinner catered but she said she wants to make a small turkey with all the trimmings. Then at 6pm she is going to volunteer at the homeless shelter she lived at for two years, she has been volunteering there every year since she left the shelter.
I read that in her journal that she used to take the bus from Vancouver while she was at WSU just to help out every year mainly because she had nobody to spend the holidays with. That's so fucked up yet she still traveled 165 fucking miles to feed the homeless. She is just pure fucking goodness.
I wish I knew what she was thinking and reading her journal is the only way in her head sometimes. I know her past is way worse then she lets on but I don't want to push the issue. I have some nasty demons myself and she respects my boundaries without question. While she's out I'll have a quick look. She's moved her journal into our room and keeps it in her night table under a magazine. I have to be careful this time; she has been suspicious about me knowing things she hasn't told me.
Tuesday November 20th 2012
Today was super fun. I pretended to go to work and I met up with a guy whose name I totally forgot, well we met in a bar and had crazy sex for a few hours in his car then in a public restroom in the park. He was so large that he made CG look like a cocktail weenie. I mean he was huge and well I gave him a blowjob and he came in my mouth then he spanked me even better than my man does. Then his friend joined us and we had a threesome in a seedy motel. It was so good I must have come at least 10 times. I can't wait to sneak out and do it again and again and again. Xo A
What the FUUUUUUCCCKKKK? She cheated on me and had a fucking threesome? Why Ana Why? So help me God, How could she, aren't I enough for her? I thought she loved me. I feel fucking sick. I run into the bathroom and just throw my guts up. I am going to kill those fuckers for touching her. What am I going to do? Its fucking over between us I won't tolerate cheating but I can't live without her, how could she betray me like this? Was it all a lie? How could I have misjudged us?
I need to talk to her right now. I need to fucking call her.
"Hello"
"Anastasia, get back here right now I need to see you immediately"
"Christian, what is it? what's wrong? Is everything okay?"
"No, just get the fuck home" and I slam the phone down and pace frantically in the living room. Ten minutes later Taylor and Anastasia come through the door.
"Taylor I need to speak to Miss Steele alone"
"Sir" and he heads up to his office glancing at Anastasia almost reassuring her of something and she nods.
"Christian what is it? What's going on?" She fucking has to ask really?
"Don't fucking play stupid with me Ana. You fucking cheated on me. How could you fucking do that to me?" and she stands with her arms folded glaring at me. She is practically grinning. I can't fucking believe this.
"What the fuck is so funny Ana? So it's true you did cheat one me? How many guys Ana?"
"Why do you think I cheated on you Christian? Why would you think such a thing?" and she's still grinning at me while her hands are on her hips and her brow is arched like she's pissed at me.
"I just know Anastasia; you fucked some other guys at a filthy motel and did all sorts of shit with them in a bathroom and car. I can never trust you again ever" I shout but she continues to glare at me then comes toward me pointing her finger at me while my mouth drips open in shock.
"You want to talk about fucking trust Christian? I think you should ask yourself that?" she spits at me
"What? Ana are you fucking mad as a snake?"
"Oh trust me I'm fucking mad , so mad I could put you over a fucking whipping bench and give you a good 50 shades of red on your ass. You think I'm stupid don't you?
"Anastasia" I scowl and I move closer to her and she puts both of her hands up at me as a warning. Does she think I would hurt her?
"BUSTED GREY" she yells
"Christian you jackass I made all that shit up in my journal because I suspected that you have been reading it." And she smirks at me and oh shit I'm in big trouble, she knows I read her fucking journal.
"Ana, Err... I.."
"What, What? You know what; how fucking dare you invade my privacy like that. Whatever made you think you had the right to look at something as private as my journal? I knew this would be the only way to get you to fess up to it. I have suspected it for a while but it wasn't until you knew the shelter I lived at when I never told you the name or address. You also knew too many other little things I never mentioned. So what do you say to that?"
Oh fuck she is furious, but if she knew this then why didn't she leave me? She does Love me. She set me up to see if I would take the bait and it worked. Damn she's a sharp little thing. I hope I can get out of this one. I don't know what to do now. She's going to leave me isn't she? Take charge Grey, put on the Dom face. Gah…. I cant!
"Anastasia I don't know what to say. I am sorry I crossed the line. I was… just worried about you and I thought reading it would give me some insight into your past so I could take care of you" I look at her pleading for her to forgive me. I'll be fucking lost without her.
"Christian, do you really think I'd meet some random guys and have a Ménage à trois at a seedy motel? Is that how low you think of me? I gave you my virginity and my heart and soul, you betrayed me. I have never snooped around your home or gone through your personal items. I respect you and your privacy and you violated mine"
"Ana please what can I do to make it up to you? I'm sorry baby please don't leave" I beg
"You can't make it up to me Christian; you can't buy your way out of this. You can't buy trust. I also know you own the publishing firm I work for. So I guess I didn't earn my promotion did I? I thought it was odd that just after 4 weeks I had a senior position and double my salary. For a moment I allowed myself to believe that I earned it but then when I heard the company was sold I looked into it and well I mean its public record Christian.
I didn't want to say anything because at first I thought it was so sweet of you and I didn't want to be ungrateful for the job that was really my future dream job, but then my journal. Why did you do that to me, why couldn't you just ask me what you wanted to know? I've never lied to you have I?"
"No Anastasia you haven't ever lied to me. I am so very sorry I had no right to invade your privacy by reading something as personal as your journal. I promise you I will never do that again, please forgive me?"
"I don't know if I can trust you anymore" and she walks upstairs in to her old room and closes the door.
I pace frantically back and forth outside the door trying to figure out what to do. I think I blew it now. She is leaving me I just know it. I'll be lost without her. She is the love of my life. I can hear her muffled cries through the door. Fuck I'm such a bastard how could I do this to her? Will she ever forgive me? I have to try. I knock on the door and carefully turn the knob and walk inside. I sit beside her on the bed and stroke her hair and back while she cries.
"Please Ana just give me one chance to explain then you can decide if you still love me." I whisper softly and she turns over to face me. "Christian of course I still love you" she cries gently.
"My intention was never to hurt you baby. The night you left here and quit working for me I was in shock, I went into your room because I was confused and I saw you had left some things behind. I opened the drawers to see if you had forgotten anything else when I spotted your journal. I wasn't going to read it but I thought it might give me a clue as to what's been going on. You had never complained about anything before and you're always so quiet so I was still in shock about what had happened with Kelsey." I look at her warily as she just lies on her pillow and cries as I stroke her hair.
"When I read that you had spent most of your money on your school loans I knew you may not have a place to go and I panicked because I wanted to protect you. I love you and I knew you had a rough past like me so the thought of me causing you more distress was killing me. I was wrong Anastasia but please believe me that I didn't read it with bad intentions, I read it because I love you so much I was selfish and I wanted to know everything about you. Please believe me when I say I will never do it again just please give me a chance to earn your trust again. I have to ask you though Ana, why if you knew you didn't confront me about it?" and she turns over sniffling and wipes her eyes in her shirt.
"I love you and I knew that I didn't have anything to hide from you. Part of me was happy that you knew how much I loved you but another part of me was disappointed in you. I felt betrayed but I knew if I confronted you that you might not want me anymore so I just held back." I always want her, she's got this all wrong but she continues.
"I wrote that last entry when I noticed that my journal had been moved and I wanted to see if you would confront me and well you didn't waste any time" and she rolls her eyes and I lean in and kiss each one.
"Christian please just asks me anything you want to know. I don't like feeling that I have to hide from you, I am not a very big talker when it comes to my past but I will be more than willing to share anything you want to know"
"So you're not going to leave me?"
"No, I mean unless you want me too"
"Ana, I never want you to leave ever" and I lean in seeking approval as my lips meet hers and place a soft kiss on them. She sits up and climbs onto my lap and we just hold each other tightly.
"I'm sorry Ana, I love you. I won't do it again and I trust you more than anyone and I want you to trust me too" and she cries on my shoulder as she holds me close and I think I am forgiven Thank heavens!
"So Miss Steele are you still going to put me on a whipping bench and give me 50 shades of red baby?" and she giggles
"No that's your job, you're the Dom!"
"You know baby but you are my love Anastasia, The love of my life. I think I put you through enough today so I'll spank you for that eye roll another day" and I kiss her hair.
"Promises, promises" and she kisses me softly and pulls me on top of her and we make slow sweet gentle love.
Hope you all enjoyed this update. I will try to continue with this story. I know I have neglected my other stories so I'll try to update them as soon as I can.
To be continued….