A/N: Warnings this chapter: hmm I think the only warnings I need to give is for the second part; the sexy times. This one was so heartbreaking/heartwarming while writing it. XD

~Reality is Bitter but Sweet~

When Hibari had finally woken up and allowed me to go home it was almost dark. My back hurt and my legs were numb, but I was finally glad to be away from that scary guy. I rubbed at the bite marks on my shoulder and winced when I touched the forming bruise. When Hibari says he's going to bite, does he ever bite hard. What the heck was up with that though? I thought he just hit people. He didn't actually get off on…dominating, did he?

"Ahhhhh! Stop thinking about it!"

I ran my hands through my hair and groaned. Thinking about that would just make more questions. And I really didn't need any more images. Especially when Hibari was so hot. I sighed and turned the corner, only to freeze when I saw something move out of the corner of my eye.

What?

I tried to act normal, continuing to walk, but now I was worried. I expanded my energy, feeling for any living thing, and my suspicions were confirmed when I felt the presence of a person tailing me. Who the fuck is that? I made a split second decision and changed direction. I wasn't walking home anymore; I was now heading towards the empty warehouse.

I checked with my spirit sense again and a little fear rose in me when I tasted evil intentions. Was it a serial killer? A rapist? Ohhh I so wasn't prepared for this kind of thing. The strange thing that I noticed though, was that he hadn't attacked me yet. I had been walking for around twenty minutes already. I looked around at the houses that I kept walking past.

Was it because there were too many possible witnesses around?

That…that meant he intended to kill me, not just rape me. He wanted somewhere isolated so he could get rid of the body. Fuck me!

Once I felt that I was relatively close enough to the warehouse, I ran for it. I distantly heard the person curse before the sound of footsteps resounded behind me. Run, you were always the fastest, run! I heard the sound of a gun going off and felt the bullet scream past my face. Shit!

My breathing was heavy and labored when I finally made it to the fence and the whole I had cut open. I slid through effortlessly, trying to ignore the bullets that flew by me. Either I'm incredibly lucky, or that dude is a horrible shot.

The moment I stepped onto the grounds I felt the spirits rear up in surprise. I ignored them as I felt them questioning me, only to suddenly feel their anger and protectiveness when the man behind me slid through the hole. I swung the door open and my heart skipped a beat when I heard a bullet hit the door as it closed. I couldn't help it. I was scared.

Please! I cried mentally. Help me!

The darkness around me churned with intent as I ran through it, trying to find somewhere to hide. I felt tears run down my cheeks; I was crying. Of course I was crying! I hiccuped. Someone was trying to kill me! I felt and heard the spirits attack the man, causing him to cry out in fright. No doubt they were using anything in their power to stop him, tripping him, pulling at him, throwing things. I knew it wouldn't hold him for long though, a man with enough intent can easily brush off psychic attacks. And I knew he wanted me dead.

I made it to the central room I had been in before and looked around widely. There weren't many places to hide and I knew I had to fight if I wanted to survive. I scrambled to grab a plank of wood before standing against the wall beside the door I had run through. I raised it above my head and held my breath.

I could feel the spirits gather around me and give me strength. They didn't want me dead; I was their only way out of this dark hell they lived in. Please, please, please don't miss. I heard his footsteps and the moment he passed through the door I swung the plank down. It hit his head with a loud 'thunk' and he dropped his gun as he stumbled forward.

I dropped the plank and ran for the gun, except I was too slow. He tackled me before he straddled my hips. And then his hands were around my neck. He was going to choke me to death! I stared up into his eyes and wasn't surprised at the cold look on his face. I knew then that this was just a job to him. I was just another mark.

"W-Why?"

I whimpered when the man above me chuckled.

"You're the last loose end in the Gotuda family kid. My family has systematically killed each of the Gotuda head's heirs one by one. Once you're gone we will be the top Yakuza family in town. Sorry to say, but you have to die."

What? I was going to be killed because of who Kota was related to? Why? Why is this happening? My vision was starting to go black and my lungs burned for air. Please! I don't want to die! Not again! And then something slid across the floor and hit the hand that was clawing at the ground. My fingers brushed the cold metal. It was the gun.

I reacted.

I grabbed the gun and put it between the man's eyes. He stared at me surprised. And then I pulled the trigger.

Just like that it stopped. The hands loosened and the man fell hard on top of me. I felt his blood poor onto my chest. I screamed and frantically pushed the body off of me. I stared wide eyed at the man's body as he rolled off, coming to a stop on his back, unseeing eyes staring at the ceiling. And then I felt the man's spirit float up into the air and hover confused.

I crawled into a corner and hugged my knees to my chest, silent tears running down my cheeks. I killed a man. It was in self-defense, but he was still dead by my hand. I…I had never wanted that weight on my soul. I could feel it already, that blackness etched into the recesses of my core. That small piece of another's soul that ripped apart when you killed someone. It made me sick.

I felt a phantom touch on my head and looked up to find a ghostly mist hovering around me. I felt more tears run down my cheeks. I looked so miserable that they were trying to comfort me now? I laughed weakly before leaning my head back on my knees. I watched the man's spirit as it started to dart around in confusion and terror. No doubt he didn't realize he was dead yet.

"You're dead."

The spirit froze before I felt it focus its attention on me. I felt the emotions that ran through his soul; surprise, shock, anger, despair, hopelessness, and then lastly, fear.

"You're right. You should be afraid. How many people did you kill in your life? How many did you regret? How many did you enjoy? How many years does that equal in hell?"

I knew that I was strangely emotionless as I said this, but I think it could be attributed to shock finally settling in. I didn't want to deal with emotions right now. Not when I was talking to my would-be killer. Not when I had to deal with his soul too. Not when my traitorous emotions decided they pitied him.

The man seemed to finally notice my light and the way it shined like a beacon to spirits like him. He inched closer hesitantly and I made no move to tell him he couldn't. It wasn't like he could hurt me now; he was dead.

The spirit that had been running their hands through my hair seemed to tense up and send a glare at the man. I felt the man's spirit waver and hesitate just outside my aura.

"Its fine, he can't hurt me anymore anyway."

I felt the man's spirit crawl closer before settling somewhere near my stomach. It was like he was a child and wanted me to comfort him. I felt defeated. I was too compassionate. I knew that, but I couldn't help it.

"What's your name?"

Gouto Satoshi.

"Let's make a deal. You tell me all you know about the guys trying to kill me, and you can follow me and start trying to earn your redemption."

I felt Gouto's spirit swell in hope before he quickly agreed. I just sighed. I was tired. I wanted someone to hold me. Tatsumi… I slowly stood up and walked over to the gun. I picked it up and stared at it. Its weight was surprisingly heavy in my hand. Gouto's spirit jumped up and down before flying over to his body. He wanted me to grab the extra ammo.

I didn't want it, but I knew I would probably need it. I held back the chocked sobs that wanted to escape as I searched his body for the ammo packs. When I found them I made sure to stash them deep in my bag. I stood up and was going to stick the gun in the back of my pants when Gouto appeared in front of my face.

No. Not safe. Safety.

I blinked before bringing the gun back in front of my face. Oh yeah. There was a safety switch so it didn't fire on accident. I followed the spirit's directions and soon had the gun's safety on. Once that was done I slid it into the back of my pants before making my way out of the warehouse. I don't think I wanted to go home tonight.

I stood outside Tatsumi's apartment, soaked from the rain that had started falling halfway there. I took a deep breath before ringing his doorbell. It wasn't normal for a middle school student to live alone, but Tatsumi had extenuating circumstances. His didn't have good relations with his family. They paid for his rent in return for him staying out of their lives. It was sad, but that was reality.

I flinched when the door opened roughly.

"Who the hell is ringing my—Kota?"

I stared up at his concerned face before I hiccuped and the dam broke. I started crying. It was the ugly kind of crying too, snot was coming out of my nose and my face was turning red. I brought my hands up to desperately wipe away at the tears.

"Shit. Hurry up and come in."

I barely paid attention as he ushered me in, guiding me to the bed in the corner of the room. He sat me down before saying he was going to get me something to drink. I just sat there and tried to get a hold of my tears. I was so miserable, breaking down at the first sign of kindness. But I wanted that kindness; I wanted him to comfort me.

"Here."

I took the offered glass of water from him and sipped at it. The cold helped to cool my head and my throat. I could feel the sobs that were trying to tear out of my chest start to cool down into small hiccups. I leaned into the hand that started to caress my cheek with closed eyes. I fought back more tears that wanted to fall when he used his thumb to wipe away tears at my cheek. The gentle way he caressed my skin made my heart hurt.

"What's wrong?"

I hiccuped.

"I…a man, he…he was trying to kill me. I didn't want to die, so I fought back, but…but then I killed him! He's dead and I killed him!"

My hands clenched at my shirt, pulling at it as I curled in on itself and started crying again. This wasn't supposed to happen! I was never related to the Yakuza in my past life. How did this…I felt like disappearing back into the black abyss.

And then Tatsumi wrapped his arms around me and pulled me onto the bed with him. And I felt safe. I hiccuped and I felt miserable at how easy it was for him to comfort me. How he could pull me from my depressing thoughts. I clung to his back as I cried into his chest. The heat of his body as he held me did wonders to comfort me. I wanted to merge with him, sink into his heat.

I took my face out of his chest and stared up at him, eyes teary and desperate.

"R-Ryuu…"

He knew automatically what I wanted and wasted no time in leaning down to kiss me. The kiss was achingly slow and gentle; his tongue caressing mine in slow strokes. I pressed as close to him as I could get, fingers clenching in the back of his shirt. His breath was hot against mine as he pulled away before laying soft kisses on my jaw. Tears still slowly fell from my eyes, but I was starting to forget about my sadness. Now it was all about the way Ryuu touched and kissed me.

I wanted to feel skin of skin. I brought my hands to his front and tugged on his shirt weakly. Tatsumi was quick to get my message as he sat up and pulled his shirt over his head. I moved to lie on my back when I felt the cold of the gun press into my back. I shivered before sitting up as well and sliding the gun out, setting it on the table besides Tatsumi's bed. I felt Tatsumi freeze and saw that he had his eyes on the gun. I scooted closer to him.

"It was his…I killed him with it."

Tatsumi nodded with serious eyes. I was relieved that his eyes didn't hold any accusation when he looked at me. I sniffled before leaning forward to kiss him. My arms wrapped around his neck as his fingers got to work on unbuttoning my shirt. When he finally slid the shirt off my shoulders, I noticed him look at the bite marks. Oh yeah; those. I haven't explained those yet.

"...Hibari…when he says he's going to bite you, he isn't joking."

Tatsumi's hands clenched around the cloth in his hands before he lent down and sucked on the bite marks. I gasped at the initial pain before the pleasure started to take over. He pulled away all too soon in my opinion before he turned his attention to the forming bruises on my neck; they were in the form of hand prints. His fingers left behind trails of warmth as he lightly brushed over the bruises.

"The…the man who tried to kill me…"

His arms wrapped around my chest and I held onto him as well. The kisses he was laying on my neck brought tears to my eyes again. Oh I am such a crybaby tonight. Tatsumi needed to stop being so gentle…or I might…I might fall in love with him. I couldn't help the tears flowing down my cheeks as I clenched my eyes shut.

"Ryuu…please…"

I didn't really know what I was begging for, but I knew I needed him. I felt him kiss my lips before unbuttoning my pants and sliding them off my hips. I was half hard by the time my pants were off and he was sliding my underwear down. I fumbled with the jeans he was wearing and he took over unbuttoning them and sliding them off. He hadn't been wearing any underwear.

I clenched at his arms as he settled himself over me. The feel of his skin on mine was wonderful, it was better than I could have imagined. He was slowly stroking me as he kissed the skin of my chest and I squirmed at the slow torture. I couldn't…I needed him now.

I brought his hand up to my mouth and started sucking and licking on his fingers. His eyes bored into mine and I couldn't help the shiver his gaze caused. His gaze was just so intense and filled with want. I couldn't help but close my eyes as I continued to wet his fingers. Ryuu took his hand away from my mouth and slid them down my stomach. He sucked and nibbled on my neck as he fingered my hole. I squirmed when he finally pushed one finger in.

The way he pumped his finger and stroked my erection was sending weird signals to my brain. It was starting to feel good, but it wasn't enough, I needed more. The addition of a second finger burned, but it was a good feeling. The burning reminded me I was alive and here, in this moment. I arched my back when he added a third finger and clenched my eyes shut.

"Too much?"

I shook my head. It hurt but I would adjust.

"Just…just kiss me."

I was in a daze as Ryuu kissed me and pumped fingers into me at the same time. He was so close; so close to being inside of me. I closed my eyes as I slid my fingers through Tatsumi's soft hair. I needed him. I just did. I couldn't explain it.

"Please…just…just put it in…"

I felt his fingers leave me before something bigger was at my entrance. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and buried my face in his neck. He pushed into me slowly, stretching me with a burning sensation. I gasped and bit down onto the skin below me causing Ryuu to grunt in pain. He continued slow thrusts until he was fully in, seated to the hilt. My breaths came in heavy pants as I tried to adjust to the size. Tatsumi's hands massaging my hips and back helped immensely.

And then he started thrusting and I was lost.

I clung to him desperately, arms around his shoulders and legs around his hips. He kissed anywhere he could reach on me, leaving marks all over my skin. I was starting to feel a different kind of burning now, an electric heat that crashed through my body each time he hit a certain spot. Oh god.

"Ry…uu…ah…"

He held me closer and closer as his thrusts grew more frenzied. Our bodies were covered in sweat now, causing out bodies to slide against each other in a delicious heat. My toes curled in the sheets below me and I clawed at his back. I think I was going crazy. My mind was a haze; all I could think about was that feeling and needing him to do it harder.

"More…Ryuu…more!"

He threw my legs over his shoulders and held onto my hips before he started really pounding into me. My back was arching and I was clawing at the sheets. That…that spot…oh god, he kept on hitting that spot!

"Ry—uu—uuuu!"

My body tensed up and spasmed as I came all over my stomach and chest. Tatsumi wasn't far behind, tensing and releasing inside me when my clenching muscles became too much. He fell on top of me and I welcomed the comfortable weight. He kissed me sweetly one last time before he rolled us over to lay side by side, our bodies still connected.

We fell asleep like that, basking in each others warmth.

A/N: D'awwww. Look at that sex scene, so romantic.