Sorry that I haven't posted for a while, I just got really busy. Luckily I was able to take a breath and decided to update my story. So, here you go! Hope you enjoy :D
I go home at first light, not hungry enough to eat breakfast. The 'activities' from Kiku and Alfred's room made me sick to my stomach.
It's really early in the morning (5ish or so), so I try to be very quiet in my dormitory building, which isn't very hard at all.
With nothing better to do, I begin to tidy up my room, making sure that Alfred's side looks just as neat. I guess time passes when I get into cleaning, because it's past six o'clock when I'm done. I hear knocking on my door, and find a much disheveled Ivan standing there. I let him in and lean against the closed door.
"Sorry to bother you this early, but I could hardly sleep last night. I could not stop thinking about what I am about to do."
What are you about to do? I think to myself.
Ivan reaches for me and grabs my shoulders. I feel a moment of panic before he crashes his lips to mine. I try to put my arms around his neck, but his hands hold me still. He pulls away with an almost frightened look on his face, as if he's afraid of what I'm going to say or do.
What I do shocks even me. I step towards him, closing the gap, and kiss him right back, longing for more of that precious contact. My arms twine around his neck, my fingers entangling in his hair. My body fills with electricity as he returns my kiss, holding me gently with both hands. If I could speak, I would tell him I love him right now, as I pull back and look him in the eyes.
"I am sorry, but I had to do that." Ivan apologizes. I shake my head and mouth, 'No, it's fine.'
"I must apologize again; I cannot read your lips."
To answer him, I give him a quick peck. Yes, it's short, but I still feel the sparks. I am beaming from ear to ear, I'm sure.
"You look so happy." Ivan says in the softest of voices.
I nod, Of course I'm happy, the love of my life just kissed me!
"I have waited so long to do that, I could not wait any longer." Ivan confesses.
Has he really been waiting to kiss me?
"I know that probably surprises you, but I do care about you."
Really? I care about you too… a lot! Unfortunately, I can't tell you… I think. I could write it out on my whiteboard, but it wouldn't be as special that way. I want to tell him out loud. I want to tell him I love him, I want that to be the first thing I say if and when I get my voice back.
"I hope that it is not too weird, for me to care about you…"
I raise an eyebrow at him. My arms are still locked around his neck, and his hands on my waist. As if he's just realized this, Ivan lets out a little laugh, "This would be more awkward if you did not return my gesture."
I nod, smiling up at him. "I am guessing this means you feel the same way?" He asks. I nuzzle into his neck and nod, breathing him in.
"Good… very good…" Ivan says softly. I don't see it now, but in his eyes is all the love I wish him to feel towards me. I don't know it yet, but he loves me… he just hasn't told me yet…