It's one of those dreams again. Lucid of course, but even so I know that I won't be able to change the outcome. It never works.

I cower around the corner of the doorway, hearing Mituna screaming at my dad, and my dad yelling back. I can't tell what is wrong, but a horrible feeling possesses me to watch. The space around the room is pitch black, a roiling mess that makes my dream self scared to move past this point. My baggy yellow t-shirt swishes when I take a hesitant step, and that's when the dream differs from my memories.

Mituna turns away from my dad and instead towards me. Electric blue eyes are ablaze with anger and within two steps he's standing in front of my younger self. I stare up at him with a fearful look, my dad is frozen in the background, and all I can do is let out a shout as I'm slammed into the wall.

"FUCKING HELL!"

I'm awake.

Fear is clouding my senses and I feel my hand connect with someone and it takes me another few seconds before the voice registers in my mind.

"KK?"

He growls at me and I can't quite tell what he says...my head's all blurry. I say the only thing my brain allows me to come up with:

"Bad dream...thorry KK..." I feel my consciousness fading and I'm stuck in the throes of sleep far to quickly.

Why did it change...somethings different.

I'm awakened by my dad...he's yelling at me but I can't even register the words because of the awful pounding in my head. I yelp as I fall out of bed, hitting the floor with a horrible thump.

I squint up at him, and there's a glimpse of pity in his expression as he helps me up, and I know it's going to be a bad day just from that moment. I rub my head a bit, but that only makes it worse.

Deithelm leaves and I slowly follow him, wishing I could stay home, but if I do I'll most likely end up screaming the entire time. I don't want to freak out the neighbors like I did at the last town...

Karkat is smirking at me as I walk into the kitchen and an unbidden click goes through my head. I can feel myself snarl at him after I take some pills then I'm walking away. I'm not even totally sure what I said but I'm sure I'll regret it later.

I get dressed quickly, grabbing random clothing articles and sit myself in front of the computer, seeing if it will help. I plug in my earbuds and sit back, sensing Karkat come into the room, but I don't acknowledge him because I'm afraid I'll say something else to hurt him.

I'm able to somewhat block out the pain through my coding but then it's time to leave; I barely remember to put in my contacts before walking out to Karkat. I also sling the violin case over my shoulder, but I honestly doubted I'll be playing today.

I hear him say something about not needing to pick up Nepeta so I just nod and quickly begin walking off. He's silent and I don't think I have to energy to speak in the first place so I don't even bother trying.

When the school comes into sight, I speed up and completely brush of Gamzee and Tavros, I'm sure Karkat will much rather talk to them anyway.

Students as well as teachers had heard about the fight and that's earning me looks, especially lingering on my lack of glasses and black eye, but I'm thankful that no one attempts to approach me. Although when I walk past the guy I was fighting with I give him a glare, which he returns.

The day blurs by, I told Rose that I won't be able to do much today and she just nods, so I do my best not to make much of a scene. She must've told the other teachers because none of them bother me either. I skip out on lunch, the noise and the food would've killed me. I end up taking out my contacts that period as well, but thankfully enough I'm able to keep from making eye contact with anyone. The worst class is Art, by far. Everyone's talking and it just made me want to cry.

I'm worried when Karkat begins trying to talk to me, shaking my shoulder gently and speaking in a soft voice. When nothing clicks, I lift my head up slowly, feeling my breath hitch in an attempt to hold back tears. Black dots flicker over my vision and I can barely concentrate on his words but the bell rings before I need to reply again.

I can feel Karkat's gaze on my back throughout classes, but I just keep my head down and concentrate on not doing anything stupid, which is difficult since I can't form coherent thoughts. I'm beginning to forget things and I have a bad feeling forming in my chest.

By the time school's out I have to squint to see past the cloudiness in my vision and the crackling sound in my head. I feel myself telling Karkat to call someone, but I barely register him replying, and I have to sit down before I just collapse. I can feel Karkat trying to comfort me but nothing's going to help. My vision is totally black and the foreboding feeling is making panic shoot through my veins almost painfully.

I feel the truck stop and that's when I escape, using my poor vision and feet to know where I'm going.

I hit the ground running, tears running down my face as I somehow manage to kick my shoes off and throwing my bag down in the hallway. My head feels to be splitting apart and I have to keep myself from screaming as I throw myself onto my bed, pressing my palms against the side of my head in a futile attempt to block out the pain. I bring my knees up to my chest, feeling the warmth of my tears soaking into the fabric.

I'm at my low right now, vulnerability making panic mix with the pain, it's almost unbearable.

A low humming reaches my ears then, and I unconsciously unfold myself. I'm able to register fingers running through my unruly hair and when a shred of thought passes through my pain clouded mind I remember that Karkat was there. He had to be the one. I try to get away from his grip, low whines emitting from the back of my throat, but he just shooshes me and tugs me closer, humming a bit louder.

Slowly I feel the pain ebb just slightly, the pounding now a harsh throbbing. Karkat has quieted, and I begin to slip into the strange place between dreams and awakeness.

Oh no...

It's cold here...I never really like it. It's quiet as well...unsettling. I hear a sobbing in the inky blackness, and as if possessed, I go towards it. A wince crosses my features as my echoey footsteps hit my head with harsh soundwaves. I'm not able to speak...but the black and white scene clarifies in front of me.

That same unsettling feeling overtakes me as bright red interrupts the monotonous grey and white scene. The sobs are louder now, and pangs of horror run through my chest when I realize they are my own. Unbidden tears pool at the corners of my eyes and I take hesitant step forward and everything becomes clear.

No...turn the light off...make it go away...

It's me...it's me. Who am I holding? Why am I being racked with sobs.

Stop him. Oh god his dad is there...someone... STOP HIM. Red clouds my vision and the tears fall from my eyes...this is so bad...this is...what's going to happen. I can feel it... NO IT CAN'T!

I dive forward, running towards the scene with sobs wracking my body bad enough that I can barely move. His dad turns to me with a creepy smile and I feel anger flash hot and fast through me and I'm pinning him to the space behind him. But the scene changes and I'm seeing Karkat...I'm choking him.

It's a trick...It has to be...and yet his voice...my grip is faltering.

I can't do anything...I'm useless...he's going to die because I won't be able to help him.

I can't think, can't breathe, I'm crying so much, I can't move.

I can't let it happen...I can't...dammit...DAMMIT.

"sh, it's ok,"

but...it's not...you're...you're...

He's alive, he's hugging me. I can't move though...but he's there...

"Come on, calm down ok?"

I can't though, I was so close to losing him. I blurrily make out his worried features, and I cling to his shoulders desperately, like he's my lifeline. I cling to him until I can cry no longer and exhaustion is overtaking me once more.

AN:
Ok so this is Sollux's headache from his point of view in case you were confused to what was going on