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Lena's pov

I've been shopping for hours.

It was amazing.

I just wish I wasn't alone.

I feel alone all the time.

I miss a best friend.

My mother.

My grandmother.

I just need someone to be there for me.

Someone who loves me more than anything.

Someone to laugh with and to cry with.

Someone who will always be there.

I shake the thoughts away.

I'm alone.

I'm for a long time.

I can deal with it.

I'm strong.

I can come trough anything.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

It's good I've been through so much.

It' s almost seven time to change.

I stand up from the stone wall where I was sitting on.

I grab all my bags and walk to a restaurant.

I walk to the toilet.

I look in all the bags.

Now I have to pick a dress.

The blue one? No not good enough.

The green one? Goes great with my eyes.

Or red? Red is brave, red makes me stand out.

Red it is.

I put the dress on.

It's a halter dress with a open back.

It's short dress but not too short.

It's sexy but not too much.

Time for make-up.

I put on a little bit of lip gloss.

And then mascara.

It's not much but it's enough.

Then I get a pair of black high heels.

I look in the mirror.

I look pretty.

But I still don't feel pretty.

I never really felt pretty.

Of course I had sex with many men and then always told me how beautiful I was.

I never believed them.

I didn't thought they were lying.

It's just that I didn't really see it.

I think I'm just not the kind of girl that feels pretty.

I look at my new phone.

Time to go.

I walk outside the restaurant.

Will's not here yet.

I walk to a little wall and sit down.

The sun shines.

I close my eyes and I lose myself in a memory.

I was five me and my mom and dad were going for a picnic.

We went to the wood.

My dad carried a big bag full of food.

He told me and my mom he knew the perfect place for a picnic so we followed him.

Then we heard someone falling into the water.

My dad tried to walk over a really small bridge and then fell in then water with all our food.

I didn't know what to do then.

Laugh or cry.

But my mom decided for me.

She jumped in the water, So I followed.

We did have a picnic but we had a great afternoon together.

I don't know to smile or cry.

Just like in my memory.

I miss my mom but the memory's are really happy.

So I do both there's a big smile on my face but tears falling from my eyes.

I wipe the tears away.

And close my eyes again.

Just trying to enjoy the sun.

Then there suddenly falls a shadow over me.

I open my eyes and there's Will.

'Sorry, I'm late.' He says.

'It's fine.'

'You look so beautiful.' He smiles.

'You almost sound surprised.' I say.

'O I didn't mean it like that.'

He bends a little and looks me right in the eyes. 'You're the most beautiful girl I've ever seen.'

I can see he means it.

I can see it in his eyes.

I finally feel pretty.

I don't get it.

I heard things like this hundred times how come Will has to only say it once to make me believe it.

'That's because I'm your soul mate, you're true love.' He says.

I look at him irritated.

He could see what I thought.

I let my shield back up and make it as strong as possible.

I don't want people so really see me.

That scares me.

If someone really knows you, That means he really knows how to hurt you.

I can't let that happen.

So no one can see me for 100%.

An ice mountain only shows 10%.

I try to be like an ice mountain.

Leaving my weaknesses and personal things under water.

Where no one can see them.

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