You are not mine to lose and yet
I'm hollow, as if I had lost something
I have the right to own.
You are not mine to lose and yet
As I count the hours go by
I can't find another place to belong.
You are not mine to lose and yet
I had never felt this lonely before.
I am not involved, I'm not;
And yet, you feel just like a drug,
And I need more.
How can you not see,
The many ways that you have changed me,
How you placed a heart inside my empty ribcage?
How can you not see
The labyrinth inside of me
That all the riddles lead to you?
How can you not see
All the battles I've ever fought
Were mostly against myself,
But you were there to give the cue?
I gave you away on my desperate attempt to keep you safe
On my own adamancy to deny my heart
And now I dance alone and I try to soothe
The way the bullet wound pounds in my chest;
And yet, it is your absence what really shatters
My already broken parts.