Author's Note: I added one additional perspective to this chapter but it's probably just be a one-off. I guess it depends on what you guys think of it. I felt it was a good fit for this particular chapter to get it where I needed it to be. I don't know. This is also one of my longest chapters yet. I had a lot to try to get written before the episode tonight airs. But, I'm also feeling twitchy so I might write some more before that. Just depends.
P.S Would like to give a shout-out to tbirdstar for the idea of doing the Finn and Raven scene. There were also several of you that mentioned Monroe...this may or may not answer your questions...
(FINN)
He had messed up big time. Finn was just so glad that Clarke was talking to him again and she just looked so sad when he told her about her mom. He had just wanted to comfort her. But then he touched her and he could only think about holding her, kissing her again.
Finn clenched his fists. Then then arrogant jerk came over and interrupted it. He would never admit it to anyone but he was glad. He was ruining things with both Clarke and Raven. It was tearing him apart.
He didn't understand why Bellamy felt the need to keep tabs on Clarke though. The guy didn't care about anyone or anything besides his sister and himself.
Raven was glaring at him as he walked past her towards their tent. She followed him and he knew he was about to get an earful.
As he reached the tent, he opened the tent's door and allowed Raven in first. Finn had just walked in after her when he felt pain explode in his jaw.
"Shit! That fucking hurt Raven"
"It's supposed to. That's why I did it!" she was shaking out her hand.
"Look, I'm sorry. She just looked upset. I was trying to comfort her."
"By kissing her?"
"I wasn't going to do that! I was going to give her a hug, that's it!"
Finn knew he was lying but he didn't want to hurt Raven anymore than he already had. He needed to fix this between them. And make things right with Clarke.
Raven gave him a skeptical look, clearly not believing him. He scrambled for something to tell her so she would stop worrying.
"Besides, Bellamy and her seem to have something going on."
The words rushed out of his mouth without thinking. It gave him pause, wondering where in the world the thought had come from. It was true that Bellamy had been almost...protective...of Clarke lately but she was his co-leader and the camp's only trained healer. And while she did stay in his tent for a few nights, he HAD been hurt. That's all it was, nothing more.
Raven was looking off to the side, apparently considering his words.
"Raven..." she looked at him but the previous anger was gone. She must've thought he was right about Clarke and Bellamy. He wanted to take back the words but instead, decided that he had other concerns to worry about first.
"The Ark is coming down in 2 days and it's going to cause problems with the Grounders unless we do something."
"What can we do? We tortured one of theirs. They aren't going to just forgive us."
"I know. But we need to work with them. Otherwise there will be a war when the drop ship arrives." he paused letting that sink in. "I need to meet with that Grounder and arrange a treaty."
"And how are you going to do that?"
"Octavia."
(CLARKE)
She barreled into several people as she made her way to the gate, muttering her apologies as went. She had only gone a few feet past the gate when she felt a hand on her shoulder. It whirled her around and caused her to stumble.
Monroe.
"What do you want? I'm not in the mood."
Clarke was barely holding back tears and she wanted to be alone when she broke down. This delay wasn't helping. She had kept her tears back when Finn was hurt till she was alone, she would damn well do it again till Monroe left.
Monroe just stood there looking at her, arms crossed over her chest. Clarke raised her chin and gave off the haughty princess look that everyone accused her off. She might as well use it to her advantage.
"Look Clarke, I don't know what's going on with you and Bellamy but I could care less. You can't leave camp."
Clarke's eyes widen in shock. This was not what she was expecting.
"Wh..what are you talking about?"
"Bellamy said no one out after dark."
"That's not what I meant."
Monroe shrugged, not answering the question. "Either way, we need to head back."
Clarke ignored her and turned to go. She wasn't going to listen to Bellamy's lackey. She didn't really think that Bellamy would care one way or the other if she disappeared from camp. Not after the way he had spoken to her a few minutes ago. Cold and distant, like he didn't even care.
She didn't hear Monroe again so she figured the girl finally gave up and let Clarke go. She had done her duty and she could tell that to Bellamy if he asked.
She walked towards the bunker as it was the only safe place she could think of in case the acid fog came. Clarke didn't need the reminder of Finn but she had no other place to go to be alone.
After about a mile out, she thought she heard a second set of footsteps behind her and she abruptly stopped in her tracks. The footsteps stopped as well.
"Seriously Monroe. Go back to your lord and master. You can tell him that you tried to stop me."
"And tell him what Clarke? That I left you out here by yourself? I don't think so."
Clarke turned back towards the other girl. Apparently she wasn't the only stubborn one out here.
"Why not? You don't even like me"
"No, not particularly. But he does."
Clarke didn't have any illusions as to whom she was referring.
"He doesn't. I can just about guarantee that right now."
Monroe shrugged again. "Believe what you want but I'm still not leaving."
She knew that she wasn't going to get the peace and quiet she desperately sought so she started the walk back to camp. Monroe kept a few paces back but followed her the entire way, neither saying another word.
(BELLAMY)
It had been a lonely night for him without Clarke to share his bed. He had gotten used to her in his bed in such a short time. He didn't like sleeping alone without her. The old Bellamy would've hunted down one of the random girls to warm his bed with but he had no interest in them anymore.
After nights like this, he wished he could be like he used to. No other care in the world besides protecting his sister. He could do whatever or whomever he wanted. Now he was consumed with feelings for a certain blonde, stubborn, infuriating, sexy, smart, Brave Princess.
When did his life get so complicated?
Eventually he got up and got dressed. He couldn't hide out in his tent forever. Bellamy knew he needed to fix things with Clarke but he didn't know how.
First though, he had a camp to run.
He saw Miller first and he pulled over his right-hand man to go over several items that needed attention. A new group was being trained on the rifles and Bellamy was going to lead them. It had been a few days since his leg injury and he wanted to get back out there.
There were also some of the younger kids were stealing extra rations. They were hungry and the youngest of the group but he also couldn't let it go unpunished. He hated that he had to be the one to punish them but he wouldn't let someone else do it. They were his responsibility.
After making the kids give back the extra rations, he put them on food detail. Normally the older kids would do this chore but he wanted them to understand how limited their resources were.
Satisfied with that the punishment, he went to address another issue that was brought up by Miller. He had to drag it out of him but after awhile he got what he needed. He was hoping that he could even solve his other issue while he was at it.
He tracked Clarke down in the drop ship where she was working by herself. He wondered where Octavia was for a minute but he would track her down later.
"Clarke..."
He saw her still and waited for her to turn around. When she didn't, he frowned. He didn't want to have this converstation with her back.
"I'm not going to do this with you right now Bellamy."
Her voice had no emotion in it. She was full of passion and fire usually so this just felt wrong to him. Warning bells went off in his head. He decided to work his way around to what he most wanted to talk about with her.
"I heard reports that you went outside the gate last night. You should know better than anyone that we need to lead by example and follow the rules we set down for everyone else."
"Fine. I'm sorry. I won't do it again."
He should be happy, she agreed to stay inside the gate where it was safe. But there was something off about her tone.
"Is that everything? I have work to do?"
She was dismissing him!
"No Clarke it isn't. We need to talk about last night. I didn't mean..."
"NO!" she cut him off. She finally turned around to face him and he hated to see the pain on her face. He had done this to her. He had lashed out at her last night because of his own pain and jealousy.
He softened his voice, "Princess..."
"Don't you dare call me that! Not after last night!"
He stepped up to her and grabbed her shoulders. He wasn't going to go without a fight. He was going to fix this somehow. He had to.
"I'm going to call you that because that's what you are. A Princess. My Princess."
She struggled against his hold but he was stronger.
"You say that but you don't trust me Bellamy. You think I want Finn still despite being with you."
He sighed but didn't say anything. He didn't know how much to reveal to her. About his insecurities in regards to her feelings about him. That maybe he wasn't good for her even if she made him want to be better. However, Clarke took his silence to mean that she was right.
"See? You can't even deny it" she took a deep breath and rushed on when he opened his mouth to correct her, "Just leave Bellamy. We're finished. Go fuck one of your groupies because I certainly won't; I don't want you anymore."
Bellamy felt like someone had just shoved a dagger into his chest with those words. He dropped her shoulders and stepped back to stare at her face, trying to find something...anything...to tell him that she was lying but she wouldn't meet his eyes.
It took him a moment to put on his cold face and speak past the lump in his throat. "As you wish."
He left without a backwards glance.
(CLARKE)
Octavia finally appeared not long after her brother left. She must've talked to him because she came in looking ready to tear Clarke a new one. Clarke took one look at her face and broke down crying.
Immediately Octavia softened and gave Clarke a hug, whispering reassurances to her.
It took Clarke a few minutes to settle down and by then they were both sitting down on their stools.
"Now that you're calm again, tell me what happened?"
"I was awful to your brother."
"Well, yeah he usually deserves it. I did catch him just outside the ship and got to hear his side. Now tell me yours."
Clarke poured out the entire story, starting with what happened with Finn yesterday to the exchange a few minutes ago. Octavia got an odd expression on her face when Finn was mentioned but she didn't say anything. Just let Clarke finish her story and catch her breath.
"Hmm. You two sure know how to fuck up a good thing."
Clarke rolled her eyes. "Not helping."
"Hey, it needed to be said. Now, what are you going to do to fix it?" Octavia raised her eyebrow at Clarke and waited for an answer.
"Fix it? I don't think it can be fixed after what I said to him. I told him to go fuck another girl!"
She started to feel sick when she thought about him doing just that. She hadn't meant it. It had just come out. Apparently Bellamy wasn't the only one with jealousy issues.
"Nonsense. Swallow your pride and go to him. My brother doesn't want anyone but you. So stop being an idiot. I swear, you two have more fucking issues than any of us down here and that's saying something."
"Hey!"
"What? It's true." Octavia smirked at her.
Clarke knew that Octavia was right. About talking to him, not the part about their issues. Now she just needed to get him alone and repair the damage. If it could be repaired. She prayed that it could be.
She had just stepped outside the drop ship when Finn stopped her. She groaned. This was so not what she needed right now. Hadn't he caused enough trouble yesterday?
"Whatever it is Finn, I don't want to hear it."
"I've set up a meeting with the Grounders."
PLEASE tell me someone gets the "As you wish" reference and what it really means. It does make a difference if you understand what Bellamy was really saying to her. If you don't...google it along with the movie title The Princess Bride. You'll be sorry if you don't...
XoXo ~Becky~
