my voice started to go back to normal and it hurt a lot less now, he gave a small smile then asked "can you stand?" I nodded and he helped me up, he gave me a slow gentle kiss on the lips then sighed, he was shaking all over and he looked scared out of his wits "jace?" Before I could continue he started to talk "clary I have loved you for almost 5 years even the months we weren't together like we are now" he grabbed my hands " we have been through what other couples wouldn't even imagine happening to them and yet I can still say I would rather this very dangerous and sometimes infuriating life because your in it with me, clary do you remember on Luke and Jocelyn's wedding day, on the lake side, we were talking about names?" I remembered it well, he said we had good names compared to others like bloodstick "I will never forget" he smiled a little "that night has been in my head for years now and I know I don't deserve someone as brave as you, because I'm am the complete opposite when I'm near you, you make me a wreck clary and I love you for that, I just" he sighed and brushed the fallen tear that had fallen from his words "when I think of you my heart feels like it will explode clary, it hurts so much but that's how much I love you, I used to think I wanted to die in battle, a warriors death... But now... I want to die an old man, I want to have a long and beautiful life with you " I was crying, he was so beautiful "my angel clary, the reason I was avoiding you was because it hurt to much to keep secrets from you" he breathed out then I whispered "then don't" he slowly moved over and kissed my hair and my cheeks getting rid of some of the tears then knelt in front of me, my hands flew other my mouth as I tried to hide my joyful sobs.
Jpov
My head was spinning while the rest of me shook, she was in front of me crying over my words, then I got down on one knee "Clarissa Fairchild I promised a long time ago that I would love you until I die and every day after that but now I promise to be by your side as I do it, I love you and I always will" he paused and smiled a bit "I never thought I would do this with the ring at home, in some random room with a dead fairy knight across the room but... Clary will you do me the honour of being my wife?" She was nodding like a maniac crying her eyes out, I stood up and picked her up with me, wrapping my arms around her letting a sigh of relief and a tear out, yes I let a tear out the boy who never cried shed a tear, and I wasn't ashamed, the woman of my dreams just agreed to be with me, to love me forever "I love you jace, I love you so much, so so much" she was whispering in my ear, then I snapped back to reality "jace what is it?" She wiped her tears still smiling but extremely curious "simon was looking for you and the others would be to, he will start to freak" I really didn't want to go but I knew she loved simon, she smiled bigger "you have a ring at home?" I smiled at her, not realising she was still trying to wrap her head around it "sweet heart I had it for months you'll get it as soon as your in my bedroom" she smirked at me and wrapped her arms around my neck "but that's a mundane tradition?" I looked at the ground "you were brought up around them, I know you like the idea of engagement rings" she started to play with my hair "simon will only have a minor heart attack, if I don't kiss my beautiful fiancé right now I will die" I felt like I was going to explode, she leaned up and kissed me hard on the lips and I quickly pulled away, she looked confused and a bit hurt