Kick story
Sorry for keep you guys waiting and I'm really sorry for my grammar errors and spelling errors I'm really trying to get better at writing my English teacher is helping hope you like the chapter!
Kim's POV
I'm out of the hospital and I'm all better I can't wait to get home! But I have an appointment there this afternoon so I'm doomed. Any how I've learn to accept that life isn't meant for happily ever afters instead It's just there to be lived so I'm going to enjoy it with my kids and jack I don't know if I love him even if I say it I just like him and I don't really trust him. One second he could be with me and the kids the next he could hop on a plain and leave me I'm really scared because of it,I don't want to stuck with six children I'm okay with four not six."yay we are finally home,long car drive I wonder why? We only live like 10 minutes away from the hospital, oh wait I know because you had to stop for fro-yo "I say sarcastically to jack as he eats his fro-yo and the kids staying quiet eating there's I just laugh and get out of the car to take the kids out of there car seats
"I love you mommy"Michaela said I teared up because Michaela told me she hated me and now she loves me she hasn't said that word in like 4 months "I love you too M " I hugged her and took her inside because the boy where inside already "we need to celebrate jack" i say very happy "why?"he asks "because M told me that she loves me she hasn't said that in like 4 months ! This is a big deal because remember that she told me that she hates me we'll now she loves me"
"She always has " jack ruined my happiness
"You ruined my happiness you know that,I was really existed because she sad the word I love you which means a lot to me"
"Sorry Kim, so you want some celebratory sex"
"What's sex " Logan says what omg nice going jack I wait for him to answer
"What mommies and daddies do" really jack! Really
"So I can do it when I'm a daddy"
"No!"we both say simultaneously
"It's what grown ups do bad grown ups so if you want to go up to heaven you need to be good Kay buddy"I say trying to save it
"Okay"Logan said and left
"Yes I really do jack and don't say that word I front of the kids! And we'll have to celebrate tonight I have to go to my appointment"
"Not for the babies right?"
"it's just for me" i say in a nice way
"Okay then you need a ride kimmy"wow he hasn't called me that since the day we first meet he first called me kiwi.
"No I'll walk it's in 2 hours I'll be okay you'll just need to pick me up"
"okay then"jack says with a smile on his face he's just so cute with his dimples and everything.
Okay now I'm at the doctors I don't like this place I hate hospital ever since
FLASHBACK
I was 5 the doctor came out he was scary my dad and sister had to stay outside because I had to take some exams after he did the examson me, the doctor rapped me. He took off this pants and took my clothes off he sucked on me every where! He put his dick inside me an rapped me. I was still on the anesthesia I couldn't do anything. When I told my dad he said he'll get back at me.
END OF FLASHBACK
" Crawford"the doctor called me in he's not the same one that rapped me. I walked in to the office. I was gonna get some blood test results I'm really scared.
"I'm sorry to say that you've been detected with cancer"I nearly cried but I stopped myself
"I'm pregnant what happens to my babies"
"I got some bad and good news what would you like to hear first?"he said so calmly which annoyed the heck out of me
"good news "I say
"The good new is that you are still pregnant"I sigh of relief "but the bad news is that the cancer killed 2 babies so your pregnant but with only 2 babies now"I knew that se thing would be wrong I let a tear slip out I couldn't believe this. I..I this is all my freaking fault
" we'll start treatment next week "
"Okay"I got up and left knowing that I'm going to die and I killed two of my children. All I know is that I'm going to hell,I was always against abortion but now I'm as even as the women that kill there child before it even has a chance to meet the world. I'm walking home I can confront jack right now it kills me to say' hey jack I killed our 2 unborn children but the good news is that we still have 2 other ones and 2 live ones, I love you' so easy to say(!)I'm freaking out when jack wants to have sex I can't give it to him or else I could give him cancer. and once he finds out he could just go back to Jessica and leave and when I die I'll have to put Logan and Michaela in a foster home or adoption I was in adoption when my father and sister died in a car accident and my mother died when I was born. My dad always called me devils child because I caused my mom to die. Now I'm sure I'm the devils child I wish I was never born that way mom would be alive! That's when I reached home there were like 3 police cars parked there I got really afraid"jack what's wrong?"
Cliffy for you guys and again I'm so sorry I haven't updated! : (