Hey guys! So, I just watched the new epi and my frustration level is at like, a zillion and I'm sure it's going to increase after the season finale. Don't watch tv shows, they break your heart. Anyways, I appreciate your reviews, favorites, etc please keep it up. You guys are all great.
Amy's POV
I answered my phone without looking at the caller ID. Honestly, I was kind of annoyed that somebody had interrupted me in the middle of making out with Karma's body. "Hello?" I tried to keep the bothered edge out of my tone.
"Amy! Hey!" I immediately recognized the voice on the other end; I could be half deaf and still recognize that voice.
I sigh before responding, knowing who it was that broke the heat between me and Karma made me even that much more miffed. "Hey, Shane."
"You don't sound too happy." I sigh again. "Is it Karma? I saw you two fighting this morning, and I saw you and Alex dishing it out too. Are you alright?"
So many questions, and knowing Shane, he'd want every tiny, little detail. "Yes, I'm fine. Karma and I had some issues, I guess, but we're fine now." I really should've said we're fucking great, that would've been more accurate.
"And Alex?" I half twitch with guilt at the mention of her name. I know this all wasn't fair to her, she was nothing but good to me, and I didn't get a chance to fully explain myself to her, yet here I am, messing with Karma, instead of making things right with Alex.
Another sigh. "She, uh, we're, not together anymore, I think."
"What?" He practically yelled that. "What the hell happened? I need the four eleven." I sigh again.
"Can I call you later?" I hear him groan into the phone. "I'm kind of busy right now. I promise I'll give you the full details, paintings and drawings included." He laughs into the phone now.
"I'm holding that against you!" And then my ear is ringing with the sound of a dead line. I shut my phone off, completely, and stick it in my back pocket.
I open the door to Karma's room. She's dressed down to comfortable clothes, and sitting silently on her bed. I look for her eyes, and soon after our gazes meet. There's a mixture of irritation and sadness in her look. I can't lie though, I do feel some relief in seeing that she has no desire to pick up where we left off. I love Karma, but everything went too far. We both weren't thinking clearly. If we are going to have sex, I want it us to be fully aware, and I want no haziness and I want it to happen under a better circumstance. I know I need to tell her that.
Karma's POV
I'm resting myself on my headboard when Amy walks in. She stands there for a few seconds, awkwardly, before coming closer. She puts her shirt back on, and sits on the foot of my bed, with a heavy sigh. I know it's Alex who called her, I don't need to ask, if it had been anybody else, she would've said so. She would've walked in, and said "so and so called me, sorry about that, let's pick up where we left off." But instead, she comes in with a stiff walk, and no readable facial expression. Her body language says it all.
My thoughts are broken when I hear her voice beginning to form a sentence. "Hey Karma, what happened just now-"
I cut her off, without thinking. "What about it?"
Her mouth is slightly open, and she continues, "I just think it went too far, too fast." I nod slowly, trying to hide the pain I just felt at the sound of her words. Her mouth is beginning to form words again, but I talk over her before sounds escape her lips.
"Yeah, yeah, I totally agree." I can hide the sting on my side and the lump in my stomach better if I'm the one leading the conversation, if it's me the one who thinks us messing around was a mistake. Creases in her forehead form in confusion, but I continue talking. "We should've just slowed down, we weren't thinking clearly." The confusion fades away, and now it's clarity in her look, like I just taught her some complicated math equation, like I just stole the words from her and said them, and it makes me feel worse than before. She thinks it was a mistake, she talked to Alex and realized she doesn't want me anymore. What's worse is that I was so sure she wanted me over anything and everything. This is what I get for allowing her to get over me.
She smiles softly at me, and I try my hardest to reciprocate. "So, I'm gonna go," Amy stands up, kisses me on the cheek, and is practically out of the door. I drop my head, and let my eyes move across the messy sheets. "Hey Karma?" I look back up, and Amy's turned halfway around, "I'm glad you understand." She smiles again, and leaves. I cover my face with my hands and let the tears take over.
I wake up to the sound of my alarm. I look at the time that reads on my screen. It's 7:15, meaning I probably slept through the first two alarms. I don't even remember falling asleep. All I can remember is the awful feeling I was left with after talking to Amy. I roll off my bed, and groggily make my way into the shower. Showers are nice, they kind of wash away your uncertainty and pain, not permanently, but for the time being. I purposely take forever in the shower, and I purposely take forever getting ready for school, I wanted to be as late as possible, because I have no desire to see Amy, or Shane, or anybody for that matter.
I get to school, and it seems to be that I'm on time. Everybody is still out in the campus waiting for the first bell to ring. I check the time. 8:41. The first bell rings at 8:55. I'm 14 minutes early, I even walked to school, and I couldn't manage to get here late. I should've walked slower. I make my way to Amy and I's usual spot, and I feel the weight fall off my shoulders when I see that she's not there. I can just sit here, alone, for the next 14 minutes. Well, 13, now. I let my eyes wander about the campus, everybody seems so content, and unbothered. I'm jealous. I see Amy from a distance, and my look fixates on her. It looks like she's on her way to our spot, which makes my fingers and toes tingle with anxiety. After yesterday, I don't know how to even act around her, but it looks like I don't have to find out. Alex stops Amy in the middle of her steps, and my suspicions about yesterday are painted with truth. I know what they're talking about, they didn't coincidentally run into each other, they set this up yesterday when she called Amy, I want to look away, but I can't. I really should've walked slower.
Amy's POV
I see Karma sitting where we always meet before school, even with the waves of people, I could sense out Karma. I make my way towards her when I feel a tug on my arm. I turn around and stare back at Alex, trying to tame my confusion. She's the last person that I would expect to be talking to me.
"Can we talk?" She says it softly, but I see the boldness in her eyes, it's like it's always there.
I look back to Karma who is focused on something else, and I nod back at Alex.
"I'm sorry about leaving you like that yesterday, you had a right to explain, I was just angry. I know Karma means a lot to you, it's just scary because I know she can easily have you if she wanted, and what's even scarier is that she does want you," she looks down to her hands, I could interject and tell her not to worry about it, but she's so right. I would do anything for Karma, to be with her, to have her the way I had her yesterday, and I wouldn't give that up to be with Alex. "But Amy," her eyes are vulnerable, and back on mine, my thoughts fade away, "I want you too, and I don't want to give up on what we had." Fuck.
There's exasperation in my eyes, I can't lead her on. I obviously have to tell that her she and I can't work because I saw that Karma wants me the same way I want her, with the same full desire. "Alex I-" and with that I feel her lips crash into mine, roughly, I wasn't ready.
Karma's POV
I couldn't look away before, but now I can. I wanted to see their interaction, I wanted to see the way Amy reacted to Alex, I wanted to mentally note the signs that show that Amy didn't want to be with her, but there it is. The kiss. It's obvious that she prefers her. I feel like throwing up, and cleansing my body of all the kisses, the touches, the words whispered between us, everything that happened yesterday. It was all a lie, she used me to get over Alex, and runs back to her when she's ready, and I've never felt so much disgust and hurt in my life. I gather my things and speed walk off of the campus.
Amy's POV
Her lips dance on mine for a second or two before I back away. Our foreheads are still pinned together, and I shake my head in disapproval. I step away from her, there's an ache sitting her eyes, I give her sincerity in mine. "I'm sorry, but we can't be together. What you said was the truth, I don't, no, I can't be without Karma. Yesterday morning, I was going to tell you that I wanted to keep trying things between us, but, I also really saw how Karma feels about me. It's real, I saw it, I felt it."
She bites her lips down, and let's her gaze drop to the dry grass beneath us. "There's no hope then?"
I shake my head, "I'm sorry. It's always going to be Karma."
She nods slowly before answering, her eyes never leave the ground. "Okay. I'm not surprised, I just." She stops talking. "I don't even know why I bothered." She leaves, her eyes still locked on the ground.
I lean my head back, and let the sun hit my face. There's no point in running after her, because between me and Alex, there's nothing to chase anymore. Everything I'm after, Karma has. I look back to where Karma was sitting, and I notice she's not there anymore. The first bell didn't ring, and then I feel my gut drop at the thought of her running off because she saw Alex kiss me.
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