There and Back Again
Disclaimer: No...of course I don't own Teen Titans...now shoo!

"Who doesn't? He's gorgeous! Strong, brave, Atlantian! He's like the perfect guy and hero rolled into one!" She boasted, didn't she know what she was doing to me? I loved Raven! I was frowning, my eyes were tearing up, my ears were drooping in the usual way whenever I was sad. And to make it all a million times unbearable, she turned to me. Her voice was so malicious, like she really wanted me to hurt, "Why do you care?"

I had flown from Raven's room I couldn't take the pressure anymore! Aqua Lad had been visiting our Tower, everyone knew about Robin and Starfire liking each other, so he set his sights on Raven, my Raven. He really made my blood boil! The cheesy flirts he'd have with my, now ex, girlfriend were making me want to crush his skull underneath my Tyrannosaurus foot! Remaining calm, I would devour my tofu in silence, glaring at Aqua Lad, who was successfully making Raven giggle and blush sincerely.

Raven was MINE!

Why does life treated me so unfairly? C'mon! So I'm green, capable of shape-shifting into any animal I please, but why can't my love-life turn out right for once! I've been through enough stress that a rhino would collapse under the pressure. People have treated me like a lesser, and immature, which I get I can be immature at times, but give me a break and a chance to grow! Now matured guys were hitting on a girl I tried very hard to be with, well fine! I give up! I'm done, have her have all you want! Screw the Teen Titans, more so Aqua Lad! Who can't keep his damn hormones in check! And Raven!

She could make me soar even higher, dive even deeper, charge even harder, in general kick-ass even better! Why didn't she understand my insecurity? I know I'm no macho man compared to Aqua Lad, I don't like being compared to him! I know he's perfect in every aspect to girls!

I remember when we decided to keep our relationship quiet, Raven would go up to her room every night after we ate, and when she got there I would usually try to leave a little message, a note or something for reassurance. I remember the first one I wrote, I decided to make her feel more girly, by writing how I really felt with her.

I loved the look she gave me the next morning, I swear her eyes were brighter, her mood itself was brighter! Her eyes would shine like gems! I think I put that in my next note? I can't really remember, but I think the first note said;

"Dear Rae,

I know you don't always feel like you're the gorgeous one here, but I can prove it to you! Babe (lemme know how you feel about that name), I hope you know that when I'm with you I swear I can soar even higher, dive even deeper, charge even harder, in general kick-ass even better! I love you, forever and always…

-BB"

I can't help from smiling, every time I think about her face that day, every aspect about her seemed ten times more beautiful! I probably sound really sappy, but its true, everyone seemed to notice it! I felt even more triumphant when I received a note from her that night;

"Dear BB,

Thanks. I usually don't say that, or say it enough. You always seem to find a way to make me feel good, no great, everyday! Your smile, is sweeter than the honey in my tea. Your eyes sparkle even brighter than the brightest emerald. You sweep a girl off her feet better than a broom can. I'm sorry my comparisons aren't as beautiful as yours, but this kind of writing isn't really my forte. I love you more than the night sky has stars, and I always will…

-Rae"

My body was enveloped in warmth from Raven's unusually kind words, my stomach had butterflies flying around, I felt great! I couldn't sleep so I went over to Raven's room, I knew she was most likely meditating. I knocked softly on her door. The door slowly inched open a crack.

Raven's pale face was visible behind the sliver. Her bored expression was quickly exchanged with a warm smile. She motioned me to enter and I returned a small smile. I was always fascinated with Raven's room, it was the complete opposite of mine really. My room was cluttered like the circus had just visited, which was possible I guess. While Raven's room was cleaner, but also dim.

I glanced around my surroundings as my eyes adjusted to the lack of light, I noticed a book on Raven's bureau. Wait? What was the title? Sadomasoch- what? What was that? As soon as I had seen the book, Raven blushed and snatched the book before I could read anymore.

"What was that?" I asked, with a hint of skepticism mixed with confusion.

Raven quickly tried to change the subject, "Oh nothing. Just a book."

I walked to her, being taller had benefits! I pretty much was three inches taller than her, back then anyway, now I'm probably five at least. We locked eyes, I narrowed mine, Raven's had flickering defiance. While she was distracted I reached around behind her back, snatching the book from her.

Her eyes widened as I turned away in triumph, her clenched fists were now encased in her dark energy. I again tried to decipher the enormous word. Sadomasochism? What the hell did that mean? I recently discovered what it meant, someone who enjoys torturing and being tortured sexually.

Don't ask me why Raven had a book about it, she can read some pretty weird stuff, one thing I know, I hope she wasn't planning on repeating what she was reading with me! I really am not the sexual torture kind of guy, maybe that damn Aqua Lad was, maybe that's why she was reading it…then again. Her words always replay over and over in my head "I love you more than the night sky has stars, and I always will…"

I can't help but have an instinct in my gut, that Raven might've been lying. Or she just wanted to say something touching. I'm just doubting she actually cared about me like that.

A/N: Hey, its me again! I thought I'd clarify just in case anyone was confused. This story is mostly told in the past tense, kind of like flash backs, if you do get confused...PM me! And I'll try to help you out a smidge...alrighty, review if you'd like, I wouldn't mind knowing how I'm doing.