Tobias POV

Everyone stares in shock after Tris's little scene. I'm about to speak but Cara bets me to it.

"Did you really just do that, Mother? I don't necessarily like her or forgive her but that's just wrong. You do know that Will was out there killing helpless Abnegation. I understand that he was under simulation and all but what would you do under the circumstances? What she did was the only logical thing to do, because if she died, think were we would be right now. I can promise you it wouldn't be here." Cara says.

I then excuse myself and go find Tris. I can hear her sobbing in the restroom I knock on the door but don't get an answer so I go in. You heard it here folks Four went into the girls bathroom.

I see her rolled up in a ball rocking back and forth. I try to comfort her but it's hard to get her to calm down and I know if I don't she'll have an episode. She just keeps repeating to herself 'it's all my fault, it's all my fault' over and over again. I run out of the restroom back to where the funeral is being held with Tris in my arms I need to find Christina because I know she has a shot with her incase Tris ever had an episode when they were out. You see Tris has post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and the only way to stop an episode is to either let her ride it out or give her a shot that brings her back to reality.

I make it into the room just as she starts to have her nightmare.

Tris POV

It's all my fault, it's all my fault, it's all my fault, it's all my fault, it's all my fault. Come on you have got to get ahold of yourself. I feel myself slipping into a world I don't belong in, come on fight but I can't I have slipped away.

"Will, Will, Will. Please stop it's me." I can feel tears sliding down my face but I don't care I have to get him to stop.

"Don't make me do this." A bullet flies by my head and I get ready to shot my friend. I close my eyes and shot him, I hear the thud and I know it's Will's dead body hitting the ground.

I turn around and see my mother bent over and holding her stomach. I try to get to her but the scene before me is fading away and I feel strong protective arms wrapped around me.

Tobias POV

Tris starts screaming and flailing. I hold her down her arms while Christina digs around her purse. Uriah comes over and holds down Tris's legs.

"Wait, I might have a pen, this is a PTSD attack, correct?" Cara asks.

"Yes." Is all I say because Tris can put up quite a fight.

"Here it is," Cara says and walk over to Christina.

Christina grabs it and tells Caleb to hold down Tris's head, he does. Christina then injects Tris, in the neck, with the medication and she slowly comes back to reality.

"Tobias? I'm so sorry I didn't mean too. I didn't know what to do. It's all my fault." Tris say's in between sobs.

"No it's not, shhhhhhhhhhhhh, its ok." I say.

"Uriah, would you please take Tris to the car?" He nodes and takes her out of my arms and walks out with Christina trailing close behind.

I turn towards Caleb," Tris may want to spread the ashes another day, and please do not mention her little episode to anyone, she doesn't want people to know."

"Wait, I'm her brother don't you think I had a right to know that my little sister has PTSD?" Caleb asks.

"Caleb, please don't start with this now," I reply.

Then Will's father, who has been quit the whole time, speaks up, "Where're sorry about earlier, we had no idea that his death had infected her in that way."

I say a thanks and leave. When I get to the car I see Tris in the back seat with her head in Christina's lap.

"How is she?" I ask Uriah who is standing outside the car waiting.

"I don't know she's not speaking, but she stopped crying." Was his answer, I nod.

"Coming over, to our place?" I ask.

"Yeah, I'll follow you," and with that we left.

Tris POV

I am awoken from my haze by cold water. I am in the shower and Christina is spraying me down with a hose.

"What, what happened?" I wonder more to myself but end up getting an answer.

"You had an episode, and then when we got here you throw up all over yourself which leads us to where we are now." Christina replies.

"I'm sorry, I thought I'd be fine, I haven't had one in six months." I say.

"It's okay, Four is on the phone with the doctor making an appointment, you'll have to miss the funerals and maybe your parents funeral also. I talked Four into still going because he has too but you don't given the circumstances but don't worry I am going to go with you," say's Christina.

"I don't need to go to the doctors I'm fine!" I plead.

"Tris you're obviously not fine and since when do you throw up all over yourself after an episode. Every time it gets harder and harder to bring you back to reality and what if the next time we can't? So we are going whether you like it or not!" Christina shouts and I feel like a child being scolded for stealing a cookie.

"Fine," I say.

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Christina and I are sitting in the waiting room waiting to be called. Christina had to pull some strings with the other nurses to get me in.

"Tris," calls a middle aged Doctor. I don't even budge, so Christina has to pull me up and nearly drag me into the doctor's office.

"Ok, now Tris if you could lie down there," the doctor says pointing as her little buzzer type thing goes off.

"Oh, I'm sorry but it seems that there is a trauma coming in and we are very under staffed today so-," but Christina cuts her off before I can take my opportunity to leave.

"I'll go Dr. Roger, if you don't see Tris now we might not be able to get her to come again."

"Well okay, if you insist." Was Dr. Roger's, reply. As Christina leaves and the doctor turns to me.

"Now, I see that you have had some reoccurring PTSD episodes. So, what I want you to do is change into that gown and robe over there hanging up then walk down to exam room C14 were we will do a full body scan to see what the problem is. Oh and there will be two other doctors on your chase because of your divergence and the fact that you are one of the leaders."

I nod and do as I'm told. The scan wasn't that bad and when I'm done I go back to the room I was in before. The doctor comes back and says that the scans will not be in till tomorrow and we can then proceed with the check up and will have a console with the other doctors tomorrow too. She says to stay in bed for the rest of the day but I can go to my parents spreading of their ashes. She rights it all down and gives it's to Christina once she returns.

The thing is though, maybe there is no way to stop my episodes. Maybe this is the punishment for all the crimes I have committed because it is all my fault that Will, my parents, some Dauntless members and guards from the Bureau, that were most likely just following orders, died. I am a murder and I deserve to suffer.

Ok just to clear some stuff up;

Uriah lived

Uriah is a leader

Christina and Uriah are dating

Caleb and Cara are dating

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