I watched as she sped away, god I hated it when she would speed. I caused her to leave, it was my fault. It was all my fault. Her words burned into my mind and my ears, repeating over and over.

'Do you even care?'

Of course I care, I love her. Why else would I have asked her to marry me? I realized I screwed up, I was a jerk. I let my ego and the fame get to my head. I needed to find her, but what about the concert? Shit, I hated singing sometimes. I would do anything for Ally though, drop everything for her. She needed to know that. I walked up front and leaned over to the driver.

"Can you find me a car I can use?" I asked and he obediently nodded before hopping off the bus.

I walked back into my room and changed from my leather jacket and black jeans that was for the concert. I slipped on some worn blue jeans with a hole in the knee and a white v neck under my red and black and yellow flannel. I pulled on the chain that held my whistle and brought it out from under my shirt. I snatched up my phone and shoved my wallet into my back pocket before checking for messages. Or missed calls, anything from Ally.

My screen lit up, a picture of Ally smiling at the camera as I kissed her cheek. A frown formed on my face as there wasn't any word from her. I stared at the screen until it went black. God I loved that woman more than anything. I don't know what I'd do without her, that's why I needed to find her. I walked back out and Joe walked in.

"Austin, what are you wearing? You have a show in.." He checked his watch. "an hour."

"Ally left, I need to find her. I can't lose her Joe." I said, reaching around him to find my watch.

"Austin, you can't just leave. You have a sold out show to preform! You can follow your heart after. I mean she isn't going anywhere, she's probably just blowing off steam. Are you really going to let down your fans?" He reasoned.

"You know that's the last thing I would ever want to do...but this is Ally we're talking about. Without her there would be no show, no tour, no Austin Moon" I pushed past him as my phone rang.

I looked down and noticed it was Ally's phone. Without thinking twice I slid my finger over the screen and put the phone to my cheek.

"Ally, I am so-"

"Sir, this is not Ally" A stern, masculine voice came through the line.

"Oh? Who is this then?" I pressed.

"My name is Kent, I am a local police officer. Sir, there's been an accident. Her license states she's Ally Dawson and while looking for someone to call, we found the name Austin with hearts next to the name. This is Austin correct?"

I nodded before clearing my throat. "Ye-uh Yes, I'm her fiance. Is she alright?" He hesitated and my heart dropped. "Please?"

"She is, she is doing her best under the circumstances. We are airlifting her to Bear county hospital now, we need you to meet us there to sign consent forms and also so we can fill you in."

I couldn't breath, I fell into the couch behind me as the phone dropped next to me. I felt Joe pick it up and start talking to the man as I just felt my entire body start to shut down. I just wanted to hear those words. The ones that told me she was ok, just a little banged up. Air lift? That's only for emergencies.

"Austin, we are-"

I cut Joe off by shooting up grabbing my phone and storming out of the bus. I saw a car pull up and my driver Steve hop out, luckily he kept it running. I sent him a wave and thanks before getting in and buckling up. I caught a glimpse of Joe rushing over but pushed the car into drive and took off before he could stop me. I knew where I was going, this wasn't the first time going to this hospital. Last time I was there was when Ally brought me there on the night we met.

I didn't know what to think as I sped through the small town before jumping onto the freeway. I felt my body shift into auto pilot, subconsciously following the signs.

My heart was racing as I pulled into the hospital campus 20 minutes later. I quickly navigated my way through the twists and turns finally arriving at the emergency section. I jumped out of the car, hearing the helicopter. I looked up to see it leaving, which meant Ally was here and she was getting help. I sprinted to the sliding doors as they opened just enough for me to continue running through. I ran up to the desk and began spilling all the information to the lady. Her eyes went wide and then she smiled and motioned for me to go see the cop by the elevators.

"I'm Austin, her fiance!" I said, running up to him. "Where is she? What happened? Is she ok?"

"Ok, first of all I'm Kent the one you spoke to. Next she is currently in surgery. I'm not going to lie, it's not good. I was first on scene and personally my daughters love you both, posters everywhere. Mr. Moon, I didn't recognize her until I looked at the license. Now I will spare you the rest of the brutal details, but she is not in good shape. The other driver was KOI, killed on impact. We have reason to believe they were texting and possibly intoxicated but we must wait for the tests to come back. I am going to take you up to the floor where they are performing the surgery." He said, pressing the button behind him.

I was in complete shock. Speechless. Numb.

He led me into a waiting room where there was a woman in scrubs, he motioned for me to take a seat. "Austin, this nurse is going to explain all the medical stuff to you, ok? I will be right outside filling out paperwork if you need anything."

I simply nodded and faced the nurse. "Hi, Austin. I'm Casey. First I need you to sign these papers of consent to treat your fiance since she was unable to." I nodded and took the clipboard, scribbling the lines i did everyday on cds, posters, hands, you name it. She continued after I handed it back to her. "Ms. Dawson has severe internal and external bleeding. She was projected out of the front windshield and has severe road rash on her face and right side. She's went into A-Fib twice already."

"Wait, what's that?" I asked, speaking for the first time since I arrived in the room.

"It is an abnormal flutter of the heart. It usually makes the heart beat faster and work harder. It can lead to heart failure if not fixed in time."

"How, how do you fix it?"

"Well, usually you shock with an AED or manual defibrillator. This causes the heart to kind of reset itself. But, you can also give the patient meds through a vein."

"So, what does all this mean? Is she ok?"

"She isn't responding well to the medications we are giving her and her body keeps fighting but it's getting weaker with each episode. We are doing everything we can to control it. These doctors are some of the best and I know they are giving her their best. She has a good chance that she will make it through this, we just need you to remain as calm as possible because the last thing she needs is to wake up and you're in the bed next to her." She gave me a small smile.

"She's a fighter. She'll make it, I know she'll make. She has to."

"I am going to go check on a few things and hopefully come back with good news." She stood up.

"How long?" I asked, keeping my words limited.

"I can't say, it's not a scheduled surgery and it certainly is not routine. Hopefully not much longer, stay strong Austin. It's all you can do for her at this point."

She walked out and I buried my face in my hands. What am I going to do? I can't lose Ally, she's my rock, my everything. This was all my fault, I caused her to leave. I made her angry which caused her to speed. If she wasn't maybe that driver would have missed her by a minute, a second. I looked up to see Officer Kent approaching me.

"We know you are probably looking for answers and there is someone here who might be able to give you some, now of course if it's too soon then we can wait-"

"No, I want to know" I said, sliding to the edge of my chair.

"Ok" He turned around and motioned for the person to come in. "Austin, this is Frank. He witnessed the crash."

I looked up at Frank and followed him with my eyes as he took the seat in front of me. Keeping my eyes on him I waited for him to begin. He looked up at the officer, who gave him a nod and then also took a seat. Frank looked back at me and gave me a small, sad smile.

"I was driving behind the person in the red car that hit Ms. Dawson. I knew right away something was up when they would go super slow then speed up and then act like they were pulling over then speed up to cut back in front of me. I decided to call the cops and tell them, they told me to keep a safe distance which wasn't hard at the time because they had started to speed up again. I was going 10 above the speed limit which meant they had to have been flying. I was about 15 yards behind them when they went over the center line. The cops were 2 minutes out. I did what I thought was right and honked my horn which caused them to swerve back into our lane. About 15 seconds passed and they were drifting again. Just as my hand went over the horn to press down I heard the loud crashing sound. I hit my brakes and looked over to see the red car was flipped on the shoulder leaning against the guardrail. I had hoped that was it but then my eyes fell on the white bmw in the middle of the road. I jumped out of my car and rushed over to it. No one was in the drivers seat, then I heard a blood curdling cry from in front of the car. I ran over and she was" He took in a deep breath as I felt my heart skip ten beats. "She was laying on a pile of broken glass and she was really bloody. I heard the sirens approaching as I bent down next to her. I started talking to her, trying to keep her awake. She was groaning a lot, her words were few and far between. Finally, she choked out the word, the name Austin." He looked up from his hands and my eyes went wide.

"What?" I asked, making sure I heard him right.

"She said your name, then her eyes closed and she stopped moving completely. That's when the cops pulled me away and started asking questions. I'm so sorry, I should have done something else to stop them."

I shook my head and sucked in a breath. Putting on a strong facade. "The-there was nothing you could have done. Thank you though because of you help got there fast. That could have been the deciding factor of her living and her-" My voice caught, I couldn't say that forbidden word. No, not now not ever.

It had been 3 hours since I received the phone call that changed my life forever. I was still waiting for someone to tell me she made it, she was resting comfortably and would be awake any minute. That was wishful thinking though, I knew we had a long road ahead of us, but we would do it together. I talked to, well tried to talk to her dad. He said he would be on the next flight out to California. My parents, who were currently in Europe were trying their best to get a flight tonight. I just needed a support system, luckily Dez was only 3 hours out. He and his new wife were just getting back from their honeymoon. I wasn't going to call him because we had lost touch after I missed his wedding, but he was my best friend and I knew he would drop everything to be here for me in this time. Plus, he was still close to Ally. He was wreck when I told him, but quickly recovered. For my sake obviously.

I still had yet to cry, I refused to in front of all these people. I knew as soon as I saw her though I would lose it. I had mentally prepared myself for the scene that would be in front of me. Emotionally, not so much. I knew seeing her in that fragile state would kill me. Not being able to help her? That was wearing on me too.

I looked up to see the nurse walk through the doors, she had on her poker face that she held each time she came out to tell me the little progress there was.

"Austin?" She asked, a small smile breaking across her lips.

I jumped up and hugged her for a split second before thanking the lord above. "Seriously?"

"She is out of surgery, yes. But that doesn't mean she's out of the woods just yet. She doesn't show any signs of severe complications and hasn't had any episodes in 2 hours."

"Can I see her?"

"They are just now bringing her down the ICU. She is still in bad shape, we dressed all her burns so she most likely won't look like herself, a lot of white bandages. Also, she is currently in an induced coma to allow her body to heal before she wakes up. If we were to wake her up now she would be in severe pain and possibly send herself into shock. With all that said...would you like me to take you to see her?" She motioned towards the door.

I nodded feverously and followed her down the hall to a set of elevators. The ride and walk down was quiet as I was shaking. No one would be here for another 2 hours or so. That meant being alone with Ally for 120 minutes. I wasn't sure how I felt about that knowing she would be in bad shape.

When we get to the ICU doors we wash our hands and walk in. She greets some of the nurses at the station and I notice them start to whisper. Ah, the perks of being famous. I don't let them get to me though since my mind is on one person and one person only. Ally.

She motions for me to go in and tells me shes right out here just in case. I hesitantly walk in and push back the curtain. My heart falls at first sight of her small, fragile body in that hospital bed. The bland walls and decor seem to make her features pop even more. I know that if her eyes were open they would have filled the room with life and color. Her smile would have lit up the room giving it a friendly, welcoming aura. Next my eyes follow each wire and tube from her body to the exact machine it's connected to. My eyes trailed around the small portion of her face I could see due to the bandages. I walked over and took the seat next to her bed.

Carefully I picked up her tiny hand that used to hold her engagement ring. I noticed the words 'To the moon and back' were marked around her finger. It was a special touch I had engraved into the inside of the ring. As I ran my thumb over the words her last words to me ran through my head.

'Do you even care?'

I opened my mouth and breathed out the words I knew she longed to hear before leaving.

"I swear I care."

So, I decided to update a day earlier! I got done the chapter and it's been a pretty good day so Enjoy! We are starting to pick up now on the drama! Thanks for all the reviews and follows and favorites I really hope you guys like this story because I really can't wait to see where it leads. Yes, even I' not sure just yet, but I definitely want to continue as long as you guys keep reading! And suggestions are always welcome! Feel free to PM me or just review it! XOXOX