vaguely
I would stop you from feeling rejected whenever some one leaves, I would ease the pressure of your heart, every time you think the worlds left you behind.
I'd let you take out that bitter resentment, and disappointment you have for the way your life has turn out.
And I would fill in that hollowness you feel afterwards.
I can't promise that I will heal you, because I am still as much of a jerk as I ever was.
Your life will still have its troubled moments ahead, but no one lives a life with out a little drama. I know you probably snorted at that comment, but I believe those who know the true irony of life can understand it, if just a little.
She read the words twice, and than again to make sure. Scanning the page for any signs of the sender's identity.
"Are you sure you don't know who this is from." Hinata questioned again. Her grip on the letter tight, it was crumpling.
"No, I found it with the money in the safe, none of the girls or anyone else for that matter, could of put it there. The fact its addressed with ya' real name rules anyone from the bar out." Said Kaori, with her ever-constant cigarette glued to her lips.
Hinata had been examining the older woman's face, as she spoke. She determined her to be telling the truth.
Sighing and staring at the words more intently, trying to recognize the handwriting. She knew it to be pointless a shanobi changed their handwriting every time they wrote.
"It reads like wedding vows, those do." Kaori, pointed at the paper whilst tapping the ash of the cigarette in to a ashtray.
Hinata had arrived at the bar early, to make use of the upstairs shower, they had for special guest, or the girls who stayed here.
So there was no one in site except for her self and Kaori.
"You think it from Shin." The hostess asked, stubbing out her cigarette.
"If it is, why did he leave, and what does he mean to do by sending me this." Hinata growing aggravated by her own thoughts. Scrunching up the letter completely out of frustration, and shoving it into Koari's hand. "Keep hold of this for me."
"Don't want the husband to find out, huh" she said as she casually stuffed it down her top.
"He mustn't find out, not until I know for sure who its from, especially if it from Shin." She studied the floor for a minute, to collect her thoughts. "They, have kind of a grudge." she finally let out.
"I bet" Kaori answered, lighting yet another cigarette.
Returning to the warehouse wary and tired, even though the day had only begun. It had occurred to her that Kakashi might have been the one to leave the letter for her. Something to do with his twisted scheme, of being here.
Seeing his face again, completely exhausted her, that was it, she no longer cared. Tired of everything, of Sasuke's mysterious mellow drama, of Kakashi's confusing little riddles and games. Craving for the blissful simplicity of being in Kiba's comfort, his attention, and his warmth.
"You're right, I don't belong here let's go back to Konoha." She announced defeated.
Kakashi who had been reorganizing her belongings to his liking. Paused for a moment, his hands hovering over a cardboard box she used to store food in. "Why?" He tried to make the question, sound casual. But his body language gave him away.
"The reason doesn't matter, isn't this why you're here, to bring me back." Collapsing in front of the little coal heater, using her legs to push the box back to its original position.
"I still need a reason" his voice sounding calm and level, but he now held the box, placing it just out of her reach.
"Fine" Hinata said curling up on her side and facing the heater completely. "I miss Kiba, and Shino and the Kurani and the baby and Akamaru, especially when he acts like a puppy and rolls over to let you stroke his belly."
"Well you can't go back to Konoha now." He informed her, as he busied himself with more boxes.
She stiffened and straighten her body at his words, "What, Why?" She asked alarmed, sitting up to face him.
"The situations changed," he explained moving more boxes, his back to her. He froze, feeling the influx of her chakra, turning around slowly with his hands in the air.
She was crouching her stance resembling that of a cornered animal. Her bayakagun boring in to him, the veins on her face flared with aggression.
Konoha had been treating her like a criminal since the moment she returned, and with this final ditch attempt to capture Sasuke gone wrong, they no longer had any need for her. Kakashi was here to tie up all the loose ends.
Slowly backing away from her with his hands in the air, Kakashi tried reasoning with her " Calm down Hinata, its not what you think."
"What exactly am I thinking" she jeered.
"Konoha hasn't betrayed you, I am here to protect you."
"From what, stop speaking in riddles. If anything you being here puts me in more danger, you're easily recognizable. And you have more people after you then I do."
"Sasuke was more of a liability, but you had no problems with him." He interjected, getting agitated himself and stepping forward.
"It was my mission remember." She spitefully spat out. Side stepping and circling him. "He saved me, and had nothing to gain from it, I could trust that."
" I've gone about this in the wrong way, I should of foreseen this." He calmed himself, and lowered his arms so they were now resting by his side. " I am asking you to trust me, as your Hokage."
She stop circling him, she was crouched to the side of him. She read the expression of his face, he was telling the truth. "So you have been appointed." She straighten up and stood, staring at his face for a long while. Taking in the magnitude of the confirmation.
"Why do I need the Hokage's protection?" She whispered out quietly.
He drew close to her and wrapped both his arms around her. "I can't tell you, not yet."
She didn't move an inch, she didn't pull away nor did she reciprocate his hold.
"I am legally married to you aren't I?" She felt him nod "I bet my family were pleased." She said dryly.
After a long deliberation she spoke "I probably won't be the wife you want."
"Probably." He agreed.
It was late afternoon, and Hinata sat propped up by the rusty bath tub in the middle of the warehouse. Kakashi had gone out about an hour ago she hadn't asked why.
She sat there thinking about the words on the letter, going over them in her head. There on the page was every thing she wanted to hear, a promise of safety, companionship and comfort.
But isn't that what she should expect of Kakashi, the reason behind the marriage is obviously dubious. However it doesn't matter now, the were married and that was that.
It wasn't to the person she wanted to get married to, but she hadn't wanted to run away with Sasuke either. If things didn't work out she'd probably end up committing adultery. She no longer cared for reputation, or the fickle disapproval of society.
"It's getting late shouldn't you get ready for work" Kakashi's voice stirred her from her thoughts.
"No" she said still distracted, then collecting her self she added "I won't go in today Koari will understand."
"You didn't run away, I wasn't sure you'd still be here." Kakashi admitted.
"Where would I go?" She asked honestly. "I am blind, being led by those who happen to grasp my hand."
"Do you know what the funny thing is" she said with no humor "Its always been this way."