we walked through the airport together in silence , it wasn't total awkwardness but we just didn't know what to say to each other , the previous time we spoke , I told her she was ancient history.
she ordered two lattes and sat opposite me fiddling with her thumbs , soft blonde hair framing her jaw line. I coughed to grab her attention and her head shot up. "so what you been doing in London then" I asked her , hearing her breathe in a little then replying "well um , not much actually , opened two new schools and I'm manager of a pr office now , so yeah , why you of too London?" she grinned , that smile...God.
"impressive" I smiled back , "yeah still at waterloo road , That's why I'm going down , one of Robert bains executives has asked one member of staff to represent waterloo road , unfortunately that person's me" I smiled , " they all miss you y'know" I looked at her , looking at me and exchanged smiles
"ahh I see , I've told you nikki , your good at what you do , you'll ace it and do the school proud , I have absolutely no doubt in my mind your the woman for the job and I highly doubt it nik , they all hated me , christine , Michael , the kids , everyone really , they thought I was a monster , but I'm not , I'm just a little demanding" she let out a giggle , which I returned
"Yeah , demanding is that what you call it now miss donnegan , don't be silly they didn't hate you , I-I didn't , don't hate you and thank you , glad someone sees potential" I looked down not wanting to show her how I still felt , I wanted her to feel that jealousy of me being with someone else , but I didn't want anyone else
"Yeah I know you didn't , I miss that place too much , I don't think about it out the people because it just upsets me" lorraine replied taking a sip of her latte
nodding in agreement I asked "did you think about me?" that seemed selfish to ask but I wanted to know
"Yeah everyday , wondering what you were doing , if you were with someone else , married or engaged even"
I laughed not knowing what to say , part of me felt happy that she was thinking of me and the other half just wanted to go on my knees and beg her to come back to Scotland
"did you think if me" she blushed slightly
and I thought hard about this one , there was so much I wanted to say to her but limited myself
"Yes , of course I did , they're wasn't a day go by I didn't think about you"
the atmosphere was electric , Both of us bursting with things to say to each other and looking straight through each other , she gave me a weak smile , which I returned , she pulled her hand on the table as though she was about to link my hand with hers , but she pulled back , fear of rejection maybe
the soun of her phone going off kinda killed the moment ,
"ah , my drivers here , you ready" she asked
"Yeah but I'm calling shot gun , just because I know how demanding you can be" I winked at her , hearing her giggle
"don't think so smart arse , you're in the back with me , the company would come in handy"
we both laughed collecting her belongings and heading outside to get picked up.