Chapter 5

Axel's POV:

Have I ever mentioned how much I hate heartless? No?

I HATE heartless!

If I could just take Roxas and find a place somewhere to live with him, where we could live our lives according to our ideas. But the organization is forcing us, so we have no choice but to fulfill our missions to create 'Kingdom Hearts' to get out own hearts.

It's particularly bad for my baby. He is the only one who can collect hearts. Shortly said: No Roxas, no Kingdom Hearts. And for this reason Saïx is more stricter around him. It's never is enough for Saïx, even though Roxas collects more heartless then I actually thinks is needed.

I guess Saïx wants to have a heart more then any of us.

"Hey, Axel?" I heard Roxas say.

"Hmm?"

"I...I"m sorry." He said.

"Sorry? What are you sorry about?"

He didn't answer, he just looked down to the ground. No one else could confuse me like Roxas could. You must be with him for a while in order to fully understand him.

"About...yesterday.." He almost whispered.

Ah! Now I understand what was the matter with him.

"Roxas, you shouldn't apologize for this. (if anyone should apologize then it should be Saïx) Believe me, its not bad at all. We still have time later."

I actually wanted to calm him down, but somehow I made it worser.

"L-later?" he stuttered.

*Sigh *

Why did he take everything so literally?

"I said that at some point we could continue but that doesn't mean 'today' later."

"Oh...I see. I'm sorry." He apologize.

Did I ever mention how sweet he actually looks when he is embarrassed?

"It's okay Roxas...maybe it's better this way..."

"W-what?"

I cannot barely believe I actually just said that. For a moment I held my tongue. Should I really tell him what I think about this?

"Roxas...I have a feeling that you didn't really wanted it yesterday anyway..."

Roxas's POV:

I didn't know what I should say. How could he think of such a thing? I never give him a reason to think like that, right?

*Sigh *

Argh, who am I kidding! Of course he's right! But I couldn't tell him that! I love him so much and I finally wanted to go out with him.

He does so much for me...no...he does EVERYTHING for me!

And what do I? I do absolutely nothing except taking his time.

"Roxas?"

He was stroking my cheek. I didn't realize that I had started to cry again. Why can't I pull my life together? I guess so great my fear was of losing him. I would just do everything for not to lose him.

"Roxas? Is everything alright?"

"I-I...I.."

I couldn't stay here any longer. I had to get away of him. Or tell him something! Anything!

I almost screamed: "I have to continue killing more heartless!"

'I have to continue killing more heartless!' Great excuse, Roxas! Run! Just run away already, you idiot! Without any further hesitation I finally did what my inner voice screamed to me.

"R-Roxas! Wait! Stay here! Roxas!"

Weeping hard I continue running as fast as I could. I don't understand this! I hear Axel's voice fading away as he ran further away from him but that doesn't stop me from running. Why is this happening to me again?! Why must I make everything go wrong? He is everything I have. If I would lose him then..then...

I don't want to think about it!

I have to change myself, I need to be stronger. This can't continue forever. No, time is all I need, I know that.

In time I'm going to prove him of how important he is to me, how strong my love for him is.

"Please, Axel...give me some time..."

-In the gray room-

Some members were standing in the gray area, some were preparing for their missions. Other were even already finished. And others..well..haven't even began..

"YEAH! My newest hit single is finally done!" Shouted Demyx, number IX and the most laziest member of organization XIII. He was more of a singer then a fighter, but that part didn't play any role here. In the organization you had to 'work'.

And although some of the remaining members of the organization tried to ignore him it was no tactic that work on Demyx. No, it was absolutely impossible to ignore. He sang so loud that all eyes were on him, although he even didn't notice that.

"Saïx if you don't call him to order then help me so I will." Xaldin growled.

Everyone, really everyone was clear tired listening to Demyx's songs. Not that he wasn't bad at it but not everyone had the same taste.

Saïx slowly rose from his seat. He was completely stoic, you never knew when that would change. He was simple unreadable.

"Demyx, stop tormenting us with you terribele singing for once and finally complete you mission!"

"Whaaaa?! No! It took me forever to write my hit single."

"Demyx." Saïx said dangerously low. The look he was throwing at Demyx could kill anyone.

"I-I'm going!" And with that he was gone.

Saïx looked at the rest of the organization. "With such idiots we will never reach our goal. We need to get rid of them...but how?"