What if Tris was from Dauntless and transferred into Abnegation? All of this belongs to Veronica Roth.
Initiation goes by quickly I've already been hear one full week. It has been very mind-numbing boring. I think about my parents and hope they are doing ok. I've made some friends which is rare for me. Susan Black has become a very close friend of mine, well as close as you can be in Abnegation, and she taught me how to do my hair. My hair is still a work in progress but I'm doing better. Her brother Robert Black is very nice as well. The three of us do a lot of our volunteer work together. Susan made the schedule for cooking meals and clean up afterwards. I'm always teamed up with her or Robert. Robert is nice but he is just so boring. Susan thinks that Robert has a crush I me, but I told her there was no way he could like me. I hope she is wrong. I haven't really talked to Tobias at all since the first night, but the electricity is still there when he gets near me. I really want to be alone with him just so we could talk again.
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It's now week three and Tobias and I have only had rare moments alone together. Except for yesterday the cut on my palm from choosing day split open when we were moving boxes. Tobias came to my aid quickly before Robert could. He walked me back to the dorm to treat my hand. We talked and laugh on our way back to the dorms. Once we got there he got the first aid kit and cleaned and dressed my wound. As he was doing fixing my hand he brought up Robert. He asked what I thought about him. I smiled at Tobias and wondered to myself if Tobias was jealous of Robert. I told Tobias I thought Robert was nice but he was one of the most boring people I've ever met. We both laughed. After that we walked back to the warehouse and got back to work.
Today I ran into Tobias' father Marcus. He threw out a threat of making factionless and I just quietly said I would gladly become factionless so someone else wouldn't have to and bowed my head and walked away. I think Tobias would have been happy with that answer. I've wanted to talk to him about it, but we were never alone today. I take a deep breath and lay in my bed trying to fall asleep and I can't. I feel like I'm suffocating in this tiny room. I need fresh air. I noticed the other day that there was a stairwell up to the roof. I keep thinking about it and finally I can't take it anymore I need fresh air. I get dressed and grab my shoes and slowly and silently make my way to the roof.
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Tobias POV
I lay in bed and of course my mind wonders to the thought of Tris. I miss her. She is only a few doors down from me and I've seen her every day this week but I still miss her. I want to talk to her. I let out a big sigh; I've never felt like this before for anyone. I wonder if she feels the same way. When she is near me I feel electricity go through my body. My thoughts are interrupted with the sound of footsteps. Then I hear the door from the stairwell open. I stand up and get dressed and go see who is going out to the roof.
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Tris POV
I get out to the roof and I feel like I can breathe. It was very refreshing to be outside in the night with only the stars to surround me. I sit down with my feet dangling off the roof and just enjoy the view. In the distance I can see the pier and the Ferris wheel. Then I hear someone clear their throat. I turn to see Tobias standing over me his eyes almost looking black in the darkness, but he wears a big smile across his face.
"Hello." I say
"Hi Tris. What are you doing out here?"
He walks closer to the edge and sits down a few feet away from the edge.
"I'm just catching my breath. I've been feeling like I can't breathe lately like the walls of that tiny room are going to close in on me and tonight I couldn't take it. So I decided to come to the roof."
Tobias looks and me then looks at the ground and then begins to speak. "Do you not like it here?" He looks worried.
"I do like it here Tobias, but I would like it better if I could be me a little more. Do you like it here Tobias?"
Tobias looks at me and sighs. "Tris this has always been my home."
"Tobias that's not what I asked."
"Tris I'm trying but it's hard to explain."
"Well try for me Tobias."
He tries again. "I wanted to go to Dauntless but…" He pauses and looks like he is deep in thought. "I couldn't go to Dauntless because it wouldn't have been safe. So I picked Abnegation."
I listen to his words and he sounds like me. Could he be divergent too?
Tobias speaks before I can. "Tris why did you pick Abnegation?"
I reply quickly with a frown on my face. "I picked Abnegation because I'm a coward."
"Tris why would you say that?" Tobias has concern on his face.
"Tobias if I was brave I would have picked Dauntless, but instead I picked Abnegation so my family could be safe. I look away from him trying to hide my shame."
"Tris if you picked Abnegation to keep your family safe than that is brave."
I think about what he just said and I want to know what his results were. I look at him again and he is staring at me with concern in his eyes.
"Tobias what were your test results?"
Tobias becomes ridge and his face is stern and I can see he is about to lie to me or scold him for asking a question like that.
Then he looks at me in the eyes and says, "Tris I want to trust you I want to tell you everything but I can't right now."
"Tobias you can trust me if you don't want to tell me I understand." I say staring back into his eyes.
"Tris can you come sit next to me by the door?" He is breathing is heavy.
"Ok Tobias." I go to stand up and he reaches his hand out to help me up. I grab it and my heart begins to beat so fast. I wonder if he understands what he does to me. I stand and while he still holds my hand we walk over to the door and sit down. As we sit down we sit as close as possible without me actually sitting on him. And he is still holding my hand.
"Tris can we talk about something other than my test? I've missed talking to you."
"Tobias are you saying you missed me?" I ask with a sly smile on my face.
"Yes Tris I missed talking to the beautiful Dauntless transfer with the blond hair and stunning blue grey eyes."
I look away from him and blush. No one has ever said I was beautiful.
"Tris" he says as he brings his hand to my cheek and I turn to face him. He is almost close enough for our lips to touch.
"Yes Tobias." I almost whisper it.
We are breathing the same air and I am memorized by his eyes.
"Tobias begins to speak in a whisper. I was wondering if it would be ok if I could kiss you?"
He wants to kiss me? Of course I want him to kiss me!
I guess I don't answer fast enough. He speaks again with a little less confidence in his voice. "Tris what are you thinking about?"
I smile and quickly answer. "I was wondering I you were going to kiss me or what?"
That's all he needed his lips gently meet mine and the electricity has turned into fire. Slowly the kiss becomes more passionate. I bring my hands to his neck and rub my fingers into his hair and he has his hands on my lower back. I've never felt anything so good before in my life. We kiss for a few minutes longer and I feel as if I'm going to burst into flames. Our hands begin to explore each other's bodies and then my hands begin to tremble. Then he pulls his face away from me and the both of us are breathing heavily.
Tobias is the first to speak. "Tris I really like you." He say breathlessly and with a big smile.
"Well Tobias I really like you too." I say with a big smile on my face
We sit on the roof and hold hands and talk. I tell him about how I ran into Marcus, and he seemed happy with my statement. We talked about everything and nothing all at the same time. I told him about how much I missed Dauntless cake, and he told me how he would love to try and jump on the trains one day. I feel so happy just talking with him. Before we know it the sky starts to lighten up. We both know it is time to go back inside.
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The next few days go by even faster. Each night Tobias and I go back to the roof top and just talk and hold hands, and sometimes we kiss but Tobias doesn't allow us to get as passionate as the first time. I ask him about it and he wants to wait till he can officially call me his girlfriend in public. I wasn't sure what that meant so Tobias explained Abnegation dating to me. He said that most people either marry their neighbors or someone they met in their initiation class. Normally if you like someone you go volunteer with them and try to spend as much time together as possible. Then if you want to actually go out on a date you have both families sit down over dinner and discuses it and they see if everyone finds the match agreeable. If so than they can go out in public on dates and even hold hands. Sometimes parents get together and arrange an agreeable match for their children. Normally after 6 months of dating in public you are expected to get married. I thought this was all really strange, but I guess it was their way in Abnegation. Then it hit me we would have to get Marcuse's approval. I then asked him what if Marcuse says no. He took a deep breath and said we would figure it out, and kissed me on the forehead and we went back inside.
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On visiting day My mother showed up. I was shocked I didn't think she would come, but it made me so happy. I introduced her to my friends Susan and Robert and we spoke with them for a little while and then we went to sit down at a table to quietly talk.
"So Tris how do you like it?"
"It's not so bad. I have friends. How is everything at home? How is dad doing?"
"Everything at home is good. Your father loves you and understands and he wanted to come but if we came together we wouldn't have time to visit both of you. He is visiting you brother. So Tris is Robert you boyfriend she says quietly."
"Mom! No he is not."
"Well it's just sounds like you guys do everything together."
"No he is just a friend." I say sharply. I feel electricity on my skin and I turn around and Tobias is standing behind me.
"Mother I would like you to meet Tobias Eaton my instructor. Tobias this is my mom Natalie." They both bow.
My mother speaks first. "It is nice to meet you Tobias. I hope you are taking good care of my daughter?"
"Yes Ma'am, Tris is a natural at being selfless." They talk a little more, but then Tobias has to go.
They both bow and he leaves.
My mother looks at me in shock. And quietly whispers with shock still fresh in her voice. "You Are Dating Your Instructor?!"
My face turns so red it must be purple and I look at the table.
"Beatrice he seems like a good match just be careful around his father ok?" She says it with a smile
"Ok mom I will." We talk some more but too soon the time comes for her to leave. I give her a big hug a hold back tears and tell her I love her, and tell her to tell dad I love him.
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I lay in bed waiting to make sure everyone is asleep before I make my way to the roof. A few more days and I will be an official Abnegation member. I will get my house assigned to me and get to pick my own job and I can't wait. I look at my watch and it is 10:00. I slip out of bed and make my way to the roof. Tobias is up there with a blanket waiting for me. His eyes meet mine and I go to sit next to him under the blanket. He wraps his arms around me and places a gently kiss on my lips. We both smile. And Tobias speaks first.
"So I was wondering if you wanted me to help you after the initiation ceremony with moving into your new place?" He says with his half smile on his face.
"Sure" I say "I would love it, afterward I would love to cook you dinner as a way of saying thank you for being so helpful?"
Tobias quickly answers. "I would love to have dinner date with you Tris."
I blush as he says this and have a big smile on my face. I can't believe he likes me as much as I do.
We talk some more and head back in so we can go to bed.
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Tobias POV
It is too early to leave my room but I can't wait to see Tris. I sit on my bed thinking about how the day is going to go. Today all of the will become full members of Abnegation including Tris. She has impressed a lot of people in Abnegation with her strong work ethic and selflessness. Alice one of the leaders of Abnegation would like to offer her an apprentice job. It worries me, if Tris works with Alice than that means she will work near Marcus and I want her to stay as far away from Marcus as possible. It will be up to Tris if she wants to take the job, but I do think she would enjoy it. I look at my watch and everyone should be up by now. It is Tris turn to cook breakfast this morning with Robert. I hate how he has found a way to do everything with her. I hear them to in the kitchen and no one else is up so I quietly listen to what they are talking about.
Robert: "Beatrice I was wonder if tonight you would like to come over my house for dinner. My parents will be there and I would hate for you to eat dinner alone tonight."
Tris: "Oh… Um… Thank you Robert but I-"
I walk into the room and interrupt them. "Good Morning Beatrice, Good Morning Robert. How are things going on this fine morning."
Robert speaks up "Good Morning Tobias Things are going good. I was just asking Beatrice if she would like to have dinner at my place with my parents this evening."
With that we both look at Tris. I want to tell Robert I will be having dinner with Tris at her place so she would not be able to go to your place tonight. But I don't want to answer for her.
Tris quickly begins to speak "well Robert I already made plans with Tobias. He offered to help me move my stuff into new house so I told him I would cook dinner as a thank you."
Robert face looks disappoint. And he mumbles "well maybe another time than." And he goes back to making breakfast for everyone. I take a quick look at Tris and smile and she smiles back.
I speak again, "well I'm going to be stepping out for a little while I'll be back before the ceremony make sure everyone knows that they need to be ready by 2. Ok?"
Tris and Robert say, "that they will."
With that I'm out the door on my way to Marcus' house. I want to talk to him about Tris. I make my way to his front door and knock and he answers.
"Come in Tobias, what brings you here Tobias?" He says with his condescending voice.
I walk in and try to stand as tall and as straight as I can. I don't want to give him any reason to be upset with me. I begin to speak.
"Good Morning Father I wanted to talk to you about Beatrice Prior."
He looks at me with is ice cold eyes and his lips form a frown. "Yes I've heard good things about her. You have done good work with her."
"Thank you Father." Maybe he won't be upset that I want to date her. "Father I was wondering if you would like to come over my house next week for dinner?"
"Will there be any other guest Tobias?"
"Yes I wanted to invite Beatrice over as well." I try and have the most respectful tone possible.
His face changes and I see rage in it. This isn't going to end well.
He begins to yell. "ARE YOU TELLING ME THAT YOU WANT TO DATE THAT LITTLE DAUNTLESS SLUT?"
Rage is bubbling with me but I try and control it. "Father she is not a slut. She is a good person and number one in her class. Alice wants to make her an apprentice."
"SO WHAT!" He yells. "SHE IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU. SHE IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO BE AN EATON."
I'm trying to control myself the only way I can win this is if he sees that this is a good thing for him somehow.
"Father think about one thing. I will never be a leader of Abnegation I'm not good enough as hard as I've tried I will never be good enough, but Beatrice has been hand selected by Alice. No leader has pick an apprentice from an initiate class since you father. In the last 30 years it has never happened. Now Alice wants Beatrice. Beatrice will be a leader one day. If she would allow me I would make her my wife and one day when you are gone there will still be an Eaton on the council."
He stands there and looks at me and begins to remove his belt I know what is coming. "Turn around Tobias."
I turn and remove my shirt the belt strikes my scars on my back more times than I can count and I don't make a sound.
"TOBIAS THIS IS FOR YOUR OWN GOOD. YOU WILL NOT TALK BACK TO ME IN MY OWN HOME."
After he is done I put my shirt back on and stare him in the eyes. "I guess I will be going I have a very busy day father. Good day father and I bow my head and leave."
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Tobias POV
The Initiates are all lined up ready to start the initiation celebration, ready to receive their jobs and get their keys to their new homes. I decide to address them before the ceremony.
"Before we start I just wanted to tell you all that I am very proud of the work you have done over the last 30 days. You have proved yourselves to be great assets to Abnegation. As you go forward, please take the friendships you have made and the lessons you have learned."
They all say thank you and we begin to walk to the Abnegation headquarters. The initiates enter the main room and sit side by side on a bench. Marcus reads the manifesto to everyone. Once he is finished speaking, it is time for the older members to wash the initiate's feet.
As I stand there watching the hairs on the back of my neck stand on end. I turn and look and Marcus is walking towards me. Now what does he want.
He has his public mask on and walks up to me and put his arm around me. "Son I'm very proud of you and the job you have done. Also I reconsider that matter you spoke to me about this morning and I would love to have dinner with you and Beatrice."
With that he walked away. A smile spreads across my face and I can't believe it I'm going to get his blessing to make Tris my Girlfriend.