A/N:
I am sorry for taking so long to update. I've been so busy with school and life and just got over some major writer's block lol. Sorry again. Hope this makes up for taking so long
Chapter 5: Sorry
EPOV:
I walked down stairs to get a glass of water, when I heard the sobs of my mother coming from the living from. As I edged closer I saw my mother sobbing by the fireplace with our family photo album in one hand and an empty glass in the other. I walked over to her and crawled into her tear soaked lap. I laid my head on her chest and listened to her heartbeat as if it were some kind of lullaby.
"What's wrong Mommy."
"Nothing baby. Mommy's just sad."
"Why are you sad Mommy?"
"Because Daddy doesn't love Mommy the way he use to."
I put my hand over her mouth and kissed it, then said, "Don't worry Mommy I still love you."
She giggled a little and then kissed my check. "I love you too Emmy. Now go back to bed okay."
"Okay mommy."
I walked up the stairs, and I saw my dad standing there, a bottle of brown stuff which I later found out was whiskey when I got older. There was a moment between us where we just stared at each other. The silence wasn't tense but it was at the same time. Then he spoke.
"You two really are my whole world. I just tend to fuck p sometimes."
I stuck my hand out and said "That'll be 5 dollars please."
He chuckled drunkenly and reached into his pocket and gave me five dollars. Then he spoke again.
"Maybe you'll be better." And with that he ruffled my hair and walked away.
I woke up in a cold sweat. I looked to see B stir. She sat up and snuggled into my chest.
"What's wrong baby"
"I had a dream about my parents." She sighed and moved so she was straddling my lap and kissed my lips softly
"What happened in the dream?"
"It was more than a dream. It was more like a memory. I was eight and my mom was cry and my dad was drunk. It was so real. The fucked up thing is I remember everything he did to my mother, and I'm doing the same thing to you."
"Em, I already told you I forgive you"
"That's just it. I don't deserve your forgiveness. I've fucked up so many times and you just take me back. I don't understand how you can do that. I've hurt you so much. You and scar mean so much to lose you two. I would probably die if I didn't have you two. I don't know what's wrong with me B. God I've turned into MY FUCKING FATHER!" I yelled the last part. She then took my hands into her tiny ones. She brought one up and kissed our joined fingers, never breaking eye contact with me.
"Baby, what do you want to do about that. I've tried to take us and you to therapy. But you fight me on it. It has to be something you really want to do. And not just for me and Scarlett but for yourself. I can't fix you. The only one who can do that is you. Then we can fix us"
"I am so sorry Bella. I love you and that little girl so much. I don't know what I would do without you. You are my whole world. And I've just been spitting on all the things you do for. I wanna go to therapy couples and individual. I want to fix me and us. I love you more than anything in this entire world."