Disclaimer: Bleach and Proposal Daisakusen are both not mine.

"Because, if you could love someone, and keep loving them, without being loved back . . . then that love had to be real. It hurts too much to be anything else."
― Sarah Cross, Kill Me Softly

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I just promised that I'm not going to smoke ever again. But here I am, outside this cursed hotel, under a huge fountain, with my smoke and a broken heart.

And to top it all, the weather is so freakin' fine today.

Like the whole universe conspired just to make my day, and the days that will come to be shitty as hell.

Seriously, I don't know what to say.

Umm, it's just that, I was not expecting these things to happen to me.

To us.

If there's an "Us" to start with.

I loved him so much. But I was also too afraid to ask for more.

I don't want to hurt him, or to change our relationship only to make him cry in the end.

He's such a cry baby, and yes, I like to tease him just to see him cry, but, I don't want to see him cry because of me.

No, that's two different things.

If you know what I mean.

"Oi Grimm, what are you doing here?"

I sighed. I can almost picture Karin's grin, so I frowned and faced the brat.

That kid seriously loves to annoy the hell out of me.

But I was taken aback.

She's not grinning, or laughing, or even smiling.

She's... Uggh, I don't know.

"Mourning alone I see."

Tch. Mourning huh? Yeah, maybe.

I just sighed and turned to face the unknown once more.

"You know that Ichi-nii doesn't like it when you smoke Grimm. Why are you always doing what he doesn't like?"

I furrowed my eyebrows and spared a glance on the cigarette that's slowly burning in the middle of my two fingers.

I puffed, and blew the smoke far away. Away with my sorrows and pain.

Then I sighed once more.

"Will not change anything if I'd stop now. He's... It's already too late..."

I heard her sighed and sat beside me, her eyes taking the same direction that I was staring at.

"They haven't signed the papers yet Grimm. It's just the ceremony that's over. You can still kidnap him and take him far, far away."

She sounded hopeful.

"What the fuck are you trying to say brat?!"

She just shrugged her shoulders, and looked away.

"Well, just giving you an idea co'z seriously, you looked like you just lost your legs and feet and that tomorrow's going to be the end of the world."

I frowned.

"That obvious?"

She nodded.

"U-huh... You're like, giving out this strange black aura around you. It's just so awful considering that you should be having fun right now since your 'Best Friend' just got married."

I cringed from that statement.

"H-hey Karin! Which side are you seriously taking huh?! That's a below the belt you fucking brat!"

She giggled. I scowled.

Fuck. I think I'm going to cry.

XXXXOXXXX

We agreed to go back inside the auditorium after a few minutes.

That's when I noticed that they prepared a projector while we were outside.

"Hey brat, what's that?"

Karin automatically turned towards the direction that I was looking at. And I saw her frowned.

"Rukia and Orihime prepared some slide shows for today. Contains Ichi-nii's photos since he was a baby until today."

I frowned.

Ichigo hates showing his baby photos to everyone.

I risked a glance towards his direction, and sure enough, he was scowling.

I can't help but smirk.

I know him so well alright.

He's still the same old Ichigo that I've been with. Still does the things that I thought he would.

He's still my best friend.

Aww.. Okay, I guess I should stop hurting myself with that word.

"Umm, ladies and gentlemen, in accordance to this lovely and wonderful day, We prepared a slide show about our beloved friend right here, Mr. Ichigo Kurosaki-Kuchiki."

Orihime is not a good host is all that I could say.

I looked down.

Yeah, well, what else can I do?

The person that I love, now has a different surname. Even though they haven't even signed that damned contract yet.

The urge to go out of the auditorium and never ever return is very strong now.

Then, when I'm about to turn and leave, I felt it.

Karin tugged the hem of my suit. Acting like my anchor against this huge violent storm.

I just closed my eyes and sighed.

"Grimm, watch this. I think, you really need to watch this."

The lights were dimmed, and the slide show started.

I swallowed.

Those first 10 pictures, I already saw them before of course.

Being a regular in Ichigo's house, of course I already saw all of those pictures, from the moment he was born, until his elementary school graduation.

I used to make fun of those photos. And of course he would be pissed.

Then I'd ask the story behind each photo, and then he would smile and narrate each and every thing about it.

I love it when he's lost inside his own world.

After a few seconds, another set of photos started.

These are the ones that were taken during our high school days.

This is where we met.

I was surprised to see that I was in the background of his first photo.

He was frowning in front of the gates of our school, I think he was forced to pose for this photo, and in the background, several feet away, is me, with all of my glory and blue badass hair.

I can't help but chuckle.

"Even on the first day, you're already there. I think this is a sign Grimm."

My chuckle was immediately followed by a sigh.

"Seriously brat, you've been reading too much shoujo mangas again."

I saw Karin pouted as she turned her gaze back to the projector.

I sighed once more.

I wish, she was right.

That this, is a sign that I and Ichigo were meant for each other.

I hauntingly returned my eyes to see the next photo.

I wish, I could go back and change everything.

I wish I could make him mine.

"Is that your wish?"

Huh?

The lights flickered. And then the sound disappeared. It suddenly became really, really quiet.

I looked at Karin's direction. And that's when I noticed that something's wrong.

She just stood there, looking at the projector.

She's not moving.

I looked around the auditorium.

Alright, something's definitely wrong.

Everyone, even Ichigo, is not moving.

"Don't worry, they're fine. It's just that the time stopped for a moment."

I turned my head to where the voice came from.

There's a man.

This man, has his back against me but I know that he's busy filling up his plate with food.

I looked around once more.

Everybody is not moving. Everybody, except him.

"W-Who are you?"

He turned and faced me with a spoon in his mouth

"Huh?"

That's when I saw his full feature. He's tall, but not as tall as I am.

Blond hair, green eyes. But what's weird is that he's wearing this strange stripped hat, and clogs.

Can you believe it? Clogs, in 21st century?

I returned my eyes to his face, and he just smiled. Then he took the spoon out from his mouth.

"I'm Kisuke, nice to meet you, Mr. Best Friend."

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XXXXOXXXX

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"What did you do to them?!"

I heard him hum as he returned to what he was doing before he introduced himself to me.

"What makes you think that it's my fault?"

I tightened my grip.

This guy is crazy. It's very clear that it's his fault.

He's the only guy here that's moving aside from myse-

"Exactly. What makes you think that it's me when you, yourself Mr. Grimmjow Jeagerjaquez is also moving? It could be your fault for all we know."

Huh? D-D-Did he just read my mind?

"Umm, well, I think I just did. Oh, look, I did it again!"

He followed that statement with an annoying laugh.

Shit. And he knows my name.

Okay, I'll play your mind games you fucktard.

I saw him grin as he put some hot dogs inside his mouth.

Asshole.

"How would it be my fault huh?"

His smile widened.

"Your wish."

Huh?

"Your wish Grimmjow. Do you really wanna make Ichigo yours? Are you willing to go back in time to correct whatever you did and make him fall for you instead?"

He placed his plate on the table and walked towards me.

"What are you-"

"Oh, just answer the fucking question."

I swallowed.

Is it possible? Can I really go back?

I turned and looked at him.

Is it possible to change everything that I've done?

Memories flooded my mind.

Memories of the night where I screwed up and changed my future for good.

"I'm waitiiing..."

He said with a singsong voice.

I closed my eyes, and sighed.

Then I turned to face this Kisuke guy once more.

"Yes. I am."

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XXXXOXXXX

...

The lights flickered once more and the sounds returned.

I looked around, and suddenly, everybody is moving again.

What the fuck?

What happened?

I felt the familiar tug on my suit.

"Grimm, look, that's during your first inter-high right?"

I returned my eyes on the projector.

Oh, yeah, I remember now.

I joined the basket ball club that time, and forced Ichigo to be our manager.

Ichi can't play for my club because he already joined the Karate club. And it is a rule in our high school that a person can only participate to one club, but can join as many as they want, provided that they will not play for the other clubs.

And so, he became our manager.

Because I told him that I want to be with him.

It was a group picture. The whole team, and our coach.

I frowned.

But I quit that club. And left Ichigo.

Because I lost during my first inter-high game.

He was angry. Called me a loser.

I told him to just quit the damned club too but he said he can't just leave the club like that.

And that picture, was taken during that time.

Maybe that's why Ichigo was frowning.

The lights flickered once more.

Then a freaking choir starter singing.

Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Hallelujaaaaah!

I palmed my face.

Seriously, isn't there a better theme song?

"I heard that asshole."

And sure enough, I heard his voice behind me.

I raised my eyebrow and turned to face him.

"Well? Seriously?"

"That's because Hallelujah has so many meaning. That's why I chose that dimwit."

I rolled my eyes.

Then I turned and looked at the picture once more.

"Why is he frowning?"

I sighed, then looked at Ichigo which is also looking at the projector with a soft frown.

"Because we lost."

"Is that the only reason?"

I looked at Kisuke, he's now standing beside me.

I blinked.

He just returned my stare with a smile.

"Well, why don't you find out why?"

Huh?

Before I could even think, he snapped his fingers, and a very strange thing happened.

It started from my stomach, a very weird swirling feeling.

Then the surrounding started to blur.

My ears are ringing, only the sound of that freaking hallelujah is all that I could hear.

Then everything went black.

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XXXXOXXXX

...

Aww.

I think I landed on a very hard, concrete floor.

I'm going to fucking kill that Kisuke!

I opened my eyes and turned to my right, getting ready to sit up, but then, I saw him...

Holy-Mary-Mother-of-God...

Ichigo...

H-He was laying beside me.

Eyes closed, breathing even. I sighed. He was sleeping.

My cheeks started to feel very very hot.

Then I remembered.

B-But what happened to the wedding?!

"H-HOY ICHIGO!"

He stirred.

Opened his eyes then frowned, closing them once more.

"Hmm, Grimm... It's only 6, train will leave at 10... Let me sleep more..."

He scratched his head and turned to the other side of the bed.

What the fuck?!

I looked around the room.

Ichigo's room to be exact.

What the hell am I doing here?

I was about to wake Ichigo to ask him again, but then something caught my attention.

On the wall, the calendar...

December, 2003

What the...

I turned and grabbed his alarm clock.

Monday, December 18.

Oh. My. God.

This was 10 years ago, on the day where we fought the strongest team.

Shit...

Until next time...

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