A/N: Alright lovelies, in this chapter you'll find the original inspiration of this fic. A song called 'If I Didn't Have You' by Thompson Square. The song is not mine by any means! I highly recommend the song to anyone who is reading. Also, another slight J.A.G. reference is in here. I know this chapter's a bit shorter than the rest, but nothing else could be added that would be relevant.
Also, updates are probably going to slow down a bit. I have two unit tests coming this upcoming week and I really need to focus on those, even though I'd rather write for you guys.
Disclaimer: I don't own Girl Meets World, J.A.G., or the lyrics of 'If I Didn't Have You'
One week.
It had been one week since the shooting, and Riley's routine didn't vary during that time. She'd wake up, go to school, come home, drop off her books, and visit Lucas as soon as she could.
One week.
One week, and Riley didn't notice any difference as she gazed at Lucas' still body lying on the hospital bed. The doctors said he seemed to be improving, but how they could tell Riley could never figure out. Maybe it was from all the equipment Lucas was hooked up to. However, he looked the same to her. Pale and unusually still.
When her dad was driving her over, he had the car radio playing. Usually, Riley didn't pay any attention to what her father listened to. She never cared for the kind of music he would listen to. But the words of the song that came over the speakers caught her attention, and the meaning of the song hit her rather hard.
Sometimes it feels like, I'm gonna break
Sometimes this world, gives more than I can take
Sometimes, sunshine gets lost in the rain
And it keeps pouring down
It just keeps coming down
This life would kill me If I didn't have you
I couldn't live without you baby
I wouldn't want to
If you didn't love me so much
I'd never make it through
'Cause this life would kill me
This life would kill me if I didn't have you
You are my heart, every breath I breathe
I'm safe in your arms, you rescue me
When I'm weak, you're strong
If you were gone I don't know where I'd be
You were made for me
(You were made for me)
This life would kill me If I didn't have you
I couldn't live without you baby
I wouldn't want to
If you didn't love me so much
I'd never make it through
'Cause this life would kill me
This life would kill me if I didn't have you
If you didn't love me so much
(If you didn't love me so much)
This life would kill me If I didn't have you
(This life would kill me)
Couldn't live without you baby
I wouldn't want to
If you didn't love me so much
I'd never make it through
'Cause this life would kill me
This life would kill me if I didn't have you*
A single tear slid down Riley's cheek as she thought of those lyrics again. They fit her situation so perfectly it hurt. Honestly, she didn't know what she'd do if she lost him. Riley glanced over at Lucas and watched his chest rise and fall with the aid of the breathing tubes fitted to him. She wanted him to wake up; she needed him to be okay.
Suddenly, Lucas' body began to shake. Riley's face grew more worried as the shaking became more violent as each second passed. "Someone help!" she screamed as she dashed out of the room to find anyone that would be able to help.
Two nurses just outside the door heard her pleas and jogged into the room. "I could use some help in here!"** one of them shouted as more medical staff piled into the room.
Riley slumped to the floor and gathered her knees in her arms as more tears spilled from her eyes. This can't be happening! Please no! No, no, no! Please just let him be okay…I can't do this anymore!
It felt like an eternity for Riley before she noticed someone's shadow in front of her. She looked up and saw one of the doctors that had been in the room with Lucas. "Is…is he okay?" Riley managed to ask.
The doctor smiled and took ahold of Riley's hand. "Yes, he's going to be fine. What you saw in there was a convulsion. Despite the treatment we're giving him they can still occur. But don't worry; I don't expect he'll have any more."
"Can I see him?"
"It would probably best if you waited until tomorrow. We're going to keep a closer eye on him for the next twenty four hours, just in case. Just because I say he probably won't have any more, doesn't mean it couldn't happen."
Riley nodded and stood up. "Thanks."
The doctor smiled again. "Don't mention it," he replied and went on his way.
Riley walked into her family's apartment and fell onto the couch, not eager to do anything else for the rest of the day. Topanga watched her daughter as she finished setting the table for dinner. Once the last napkin was in place, Topanga walked over and sat down next to Riley and began to brush the long dark brown hair out of her daughter's face.
"How's Lucas doing?"
"The doctors say he's doing better…but how they know that I have no clue. But he went into convulsions while I was there. Thankfully he's still okay."
"Are you okay?"
Riley let out her breath as she pushed herself up to face her mom. She was getting tired of people asking how she was doing almost every day, but considering how she'd taken this whole situation, she couldn't blame them. Everyone was really concerned for her, and they all wanted to make her feel better. "I don't know…I'm just so afraid that I'm going to lose him despite what the doctors are saying. They're not always right, anything could happen," Riley finished, remembering what one of the doctors said before he left.
Topanga wrapped her arms around her daughter, brought Riley closer to her, and placed a kiss on top of her head. "Don't worry, honey. He'll be alright. Lucas will pull through," she said confidently.
"How do you know?" Riley whispered, doubting her mother's words.
"Let me put it this way…have I ever filled you with false hope?"
Riley shook her head.
"Then have faith."
*lyrics of 'If I Didn't Have You' by Thompson Square
**Line from J.A.G.'s season 1 episode 'Hemlock'
A/N #2: Okay, who hates me? Probably not what you though for Lucas being in here, but don't worry! The next two chapters are what I'm sure all of you have been waiting for, so stay tuned! If you could leave a review on your way out that would be great :) Until next time!