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"Are you sure that you wanna do this?" Kate asked her not long after Sammy had greeted them with hugs, he was now showing his newest drawings to Meg, Kate's niece that she now took care of.

"I don't have a choice, Kate. Sammy is starting to draw pictures of a dad he never met, and it's not right to Spencer even though he doesn't want kids."

"Doesn't want kids? What are you talking about? I heard JJ and Garcia talking about how he wants kids the other day. They were kind of gushing about it really."

Ashley's head snapped up to look at Kate, "W-When I was on the team, he told me he didn't want kids, that he didn't want to risk passing down schizophrenia."

Rubbing a hand down her face, Ashley felt her heart drop. Someone had changed his mind. He had changed his mind. But when had he? Would he have changed his mind sooner if she had told him when she was pregnant?

"I think I know what changed his mind, but that's for him to tell you when he's ready." Kate said to her softly, squeezing her shoulder.

"Of course." Ashley cleared her throat. "Could you bring Sammy by his place in an hour? I rather tell him first before he meets Sammy, just in case."

"Sure Ash, it's going to be okay." Kate gave her shoulder another squeeze for support.

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Standing at his apartment door, Ashley took a breath and knocked, immediately wrapping her arms around herself after.

She wasn't prepared for the rush of emotions that came over her when he was finally standing in front of her. Her stomach filled with butterflies, her heart beating faster, and her eyes watering. Blinking away the sudden wetness she focused on his confused face.

"W-We need to talk."

Instead of responding, he moved out of the way for her to come in, shutting the door behind her.

"Um, are you okay?" He asked her hesitantly, his eyes drawn to her arms still wrapped around herself.

Ashley opened her mouth to talk but instead a small noise escaped, she cursed herself for being so weak when it came to Spencer.

"Please don't hate me." She finally whispered, "I'm so sorry."

"Ashley.."

Suddenly, Spencer was in front of her. His thumbs wiping away the tears she didn't know had fallen.

"I've been keeping a big secret from you..and I'm struggling..the guilt is killing me Spencer." Her voice cracked but his hands never moved from her face. When he didn't respond, she continued. "Not long after I left the team, I found out I was pregnant."

His hands finally moved away from her face, but he didn't move away from her.

"P-Pregnant..but that means.."

"With your baby." She whispered.

"A-And you never told me?" His voice rising. "What happened."

"You told me that you didn't want kids..I just..I thought it wouldn't be right to dump a kid you never wanted on you. I left the task force and the FBI not long after I found out. I moved and got a job at a small bookstore." She left out the part where she only got the job in the beginning because it was a small way to connect with him. "Months went by and I..gave birth to a baby boy..I had become good friends with the store owner, and when she passed away she gave me the store-"

"What's his name?" He interrupted her rambling.

"I..named him Sammy..after-"

"Sammy Sparks." He interrupted again, finally looking her in the eye again. "Why..name him after Sammy?"

Ashley finally moved her arms away from herself. "'Cause of how you connected with him..it was the moment I knew you'd make a good dad..but then you told me you didn't want kids..but Sammy meant something to you."

"I need to sit down." Spencer suddenly mumbled, moving to sit on his couch, Ashley followed his lead. "You can continue.."

Ashley wasted no time explaining raising Sammy, how the only one from work who knew was Kate, cutting off Spencer before he could get angry at Kate for not letting him know. She told him how she didn't want Kate to let him know, that it wasn't Kate's fault.

"You changed your mind about kids..you don't have to explain it to me of course but-" Spencer's hand was suddenly on her mouth.

"I'll tell you. You do have a right to know, It's easier to talk about it now than it was a year ago."

Spencer went on to tell her about Maeve. In the end not only was Spencer teary eyed, but herself. Not for the fact this woman was able to change his views on having his own kids, but for the fact he had to lose the woman he loved.

"I'm so sorry, Spencer. She sounds like she was an amazing woman." She told him honestly, taking a risk, she reached out and squeezed his hand. A tear falling when he squeezed her hand in return.

"She was. I'm happy to have known her." He looked at her now, "I'm upset that you didn't tell me when you were pregnant..I had a right to know, but I understand why."

"Y-You do?"

"Yes. You were pregnant and scared, he..do you have a picture?"

Smiling, Ashley pulled out her wallet and showed him the picture of Sammy she kept. She watched as he took the picture, running his thumb over Sammy's face.

"He looks like me." His voice cracking and sounding amazed at that fact.

"He's pretty smart too..I'm sorry to just come here and drop this on you, I mean god I was so dumb just coming here! What if you have a girlfriend or or you had a girl here, oh I'm so sor-" Spencer's lips suddenly cut her off, for a moment she was frozen wondering if she was dreaming, but when he was about to pull away, Ashley kissed him back, gripping his shirt as if he was going to disappear.

She heard herself whimper slightly as he pulled away, both of their cheeks pink. "I'm glad you did. The only girl was Maeve, and while I know i'll always love her, there was always something about you. I never felt..nervous with you. I didn't feel like the awkward 'genius' I am."

Biting her lip, Ashley placed another kiss on his lips feeling her heart soar when he didn't push her away. "But I love that you're an awkward genius..and I.." She swallowed. "I have loved you for a while, Spencer Reid."

She watched his cheeks turn color, and a dorky looking smile formed on his lips.

"While I would love to talk about this more..um are you ready to meet Sammy? I hope it's okay but I told Kate to bring him by."

Right as Spencer was about to answer, a knock sounded at the door. Ashley looked at Spencer who took her hand as he walked to the door.

"Hey you two! I brought the little bugger by!" Kate took one look at their connected hands and gave Ashley a wink, Spencer blushed and avoided Kate's gaze. Clearing his throat, he looked down at the little boy holding Kate's hand.

"I'm not a bugger Auntie Kate!" He whined, pouting at her.

"Sure you're not buddy." Ruffling his hair, she turned back to the two parents. "I have to get back to Meg, I'll see you guys later!"

Sammy wasted no time running to his mom, finally noticing the other person standing there once the door was shut.

"Who's this?"

"Sammy, be polite." Ashley gave him a look.

"Sorry mommy! Hi, I'm Sammy!" Spencer smiled as Sammy stuck out his tiny hand, he let go of her hand and slipped his big one into Sammy's.

"I'm Spencer. It's nice to meet you Sammy."

"Sammy, remember how this morning you drew that picture?" Ashley leaned down along with Spencer, so they were both in his eye view.

"Yeah! I drew us and my daddy." Sammy look back and forth between them confused.

"What if..I told you that you just met your daddy?" She told him softly, watching his eyes go wide and his head snapping to look at Spencer who looked nervous.

"You're my daddy?" Sammy whispered.

"I-I am." As soon as the words left his mouth, Sammy grinned his toothy grin and jumped at Spencer, who wasn't expect it and right as his arms wrapped around the small body, he fell on the floor.

"Hi daddy!" He giggled, giving his dad a big kiss on his cheek.

Ashley watched as with watery eyes, Spencer chucked and brought his son back into his arms. All three of them sat on the apartment floor with smiles on their faces.

A/N: Review? I know it's probably not as good as last chapter but..I hope you liked it anyway!