Sorry again for updating after such a long time! The fact though that I don't have many reviews was a factor. I don't know if anyone reads this anymore! Anyway, a big thank you and sorry to those who still read it! Enjoy! Also, this is M rated, so after their kiss you should stop reading if you're not into those stuff. Enjoy!

Chapter 11

JADE'S POV

"Yes, Beck. It's been two years since...um...my first time." I said in a whisper not sure about how I should have reacted.

His facial expression was unreadable.

I don't know if I was embarrassed, because, God, what would Beck think of me when I told him how everything happened back then? Should I be offended, because he thought I was still a kid or because he thought I should be protected? Should I be happy because he wanted something more from me and he cared so much that he put my needs before his?

I was feeling a mix of different emotions, but I knew one thing. Jade West isn't a damsel in distress. She's the only one who can protect herself and most important, she's almost an adult, who can make her own decisions. The only one who can control her future. No man can change her. Not even Beck.

"Babe, sorry... look, I didn't mean to..." Beck started saying, turning around to face me but I cut him off immediately.

"Mean what Beck? That you don't want to have sex with me?" I shouted almost hurt.

"Cookie, don't ever say that again." He raised his voice as well and approached me slowly.

"I'm gonna say whatever I want to and that doesn't change anything. Damn it, Beck I'm 18!" I tried to stand up and leave but he grabbed my hand and brought me back down on the floor.

"I didn't say a thing. You're just not listening, you always want to defend yourself and your guards are never down." His words drove me crazy, but deep down I knew he was absolutely right. He cupped my face with his palms and made me look straight in his eyes. "You don't have to do that around me."

He seemed so sincere, so honest, so sure about us...

I closed my eyes and leaned to his touch. "Sorry." I said under my breath.

"Wait! What did you just say?" He sounded surprised. Well, I was as surprised as him with my words.

"Sorry." I said a little louder. He chuckled in response.

"You're what?" He repeated with a huge sexy grin on his face, that made all his features light up.

"I said I'm sorry." I responded loudly. "And I'm not gonna say it again." I added and snuggled closer to him. His left arm went right around my shoulders and my head on his chest.

"Apology accepted. I'd love it if you'd say that again. I want to record it. It would be an awesome ringtone..." And with a punch of my elbow he stopped.

"Ow! That definitely hurt."

"You deserved it, baby." I said sweetly and winked at him. For a moment we stayed in a comfortable silence. That though, lasted just a few minutes, since his curiosity took the better of him.

"Who was the guy?"

"His name was Nathan."

"You've never talked about a Nathan." Beck stated, raising an eyebrow.

"Well, that is because that's the only thing I know about him." Memories came through my mind and my eyes got blurry. I whipped a tear before he even noticed.

"What do you mean?" He questioned gently.

"Remember when I sneaked out with Cat and Tori on our freshman year, right after mom and dad...um...died?" His nod made me continue.

"I met him, kinda met him, at the beach party I went to that night. I wanted to get everything that happened out of my head, so I started drinking. One beer became two beers, then one vodka became two and then three and I just lost count. He was a friend of the dude that hosted the party and he was nice to me. I haven't been with anyone and I really liked him, so one thing lead to another and we did it on a random secluded spot on the beach. Right after we were...done, he stood up, kissed my cheek and said we'll be in touch. But that never happened." I paused to look at his face.

He seemed angry, devastated, like he wanted to make it up to all those nights I cried because I let a stranger be my first and with that look, with the concern in his eyes he did it. I felt relieved I told someone, except from Cat and Tori. I felt happy I'm with someone who cares about me. With someone that stopped me, because he thought he was getting advantage of me. And at that moment I knew I loved him.

He didn't judge me. He didn't mock me. He didn't make it a big deal.

He just stood there, next to me, caressing my hair, making me feel special and important.

"And this is the story of how I lost my virginity." I said to lighten up the mood. His face though, stayed serious.

"That's not funny, Jade. Why didn't you say anything to me?"

"What was I supposed to tell you Beck? Hey, I just had sex with a random stranger, while I was thinking of you?" The words slipped out of my mouth without second thought and we both froze.

"Wh-What did you say?" He whispered and I lifted my head to stare at him. I wasn't sure of what I said or of what I was going to tell him, but it was the truth. I always liked him. I was always thinking about him. I just admitted it to myself now.

That night, when I was with Nathan, my mind was unconsciously thinking of Beck. What do Beck's lips feel like on mine? What if Beck was here with me instead of him? At first I thought it was weird and sick but the more I was thinking about him the more natural it seemed...

"I didn't just wake up one morning and said 'Good morning, let's hit on Beck, I think I like him'. I liked you since... well, I don't know since when, but it just kinda happened and thought I shouldn't tell you because you might not feel the sa-..."

With that, his lips were on mine. Savoring me. Making my insides go crazy and the fireworks in my stomach explode. My heartbeat got faster and our lips worked in sync. I swear every single kiss was different with Beck. Each one was more deliciously amazing than the last one.

His tongue was caressing my bottom lip and wanted to sneak inside my mouth and at this moment I couldn't say no, so I slightly parted my lips and felt his soft strokes that got intense with every second.

Once again, I was found underneath him, with my hands running through his bare back and his body on top of mine. This time, the roles were reversed, though. His hand slid down my sides and played with my underwear. He grabbed my ass harshly to bring me flush against him and I let out a moan, arching my back to him. Is this really happening?

I closed my eyes when his lips found my neck and started sucking at the sensitive spot making me see stars. He traveled up to my jaw, placing feather kisses and back to my neck, covering every inch of bare skin. For the first time in my life I felt certain, safe and wanted.

"You're so beautiful." He said against my neck and his hot breath tickled my skin. My hands were playing with his silky hair pulling and caressing it while he lifted my T-shirt and parted my legs with one simple move. Without a second thought he started rubbing me beneath my panties and I was more than responsive to his touch. My hips were jerking, trying to create as much friction as possible and he smirked at me with a teasing look.

"Someone is so..." He said and slid his finger inside me, after taking the piece of fabric off. "...So impatient." He finished his sentence and started teasing my entrance with his long fingers.

"If you don't do it faster, I swear, I'm going to do it myself, you're such a tease." I exclaimed between moans and laughs.

"Oh, no you won't." He said and sped things, pumping me faster and harder than before. His hand was positioned it that way that while his fingers were inside of me, his palm was rubbing against my clit, making the pleasure almost unbearable.

No one had never paid that much attention to me like him, no one never wanted to please me and not himself.

His fingers brought me back to reality and I was more than ready to let myself go.

"You can come now." he whispered in my ear, nibbling on my earlobe and that was when I climaxed, screaming his name. He continued kissing me till I stopped shaking.

"How was that for a start?" He asked with his eyes sparkling in the poor light.

"Wow...That was wow."

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