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Chapter 10

Derek was sitting in his own living room upstairs. He had two rooms and a bathroom for himself and he sure needed it. Not just because he was the alpha – he loved his pack. He did. And he loved having them around! He cared for them as much as he could. But that was exactly the problem. Since he had lost his first love, since his whole family had died in the fire and Laura was killed by his own uncle, he wasn't able to care as much as he used to. He needed to be alone from time to time.

He had been a pretty funny kid - always laughing, having fun with his siblings. He had felt loved being around his family and he had loved them with all of his heart.

He had fallen in love with an incredible girl.

And he had lost her.

He had met Kate Argent – and she had killed his family.

Kate.

He hadn't thought about her too much lately. After their last big fight, he could have had sworn that he had seen her but he was sure it was just a dream. Peter had killed her – he had seen it with his own eyes.

Peter.

He had killed his beloved older sister and his ex-girlfriend.

Derek hated him and he was sure he couldn't be trusted. He had betrayed them too often, had killed too many innocent people.

Derek closed his eyes and tried to calm down his heartbeat.

And from one day to the other Anna had appeared and his world had been turned upside down.

They had been close – they had been family. Something he never thought he could have again until he had found his new one – his pack. And Anna? Even though she wouldn't accept it – she was still a werewolf. She had done something horrible to herself over the last years and he still could not understand why.

She had always been an awesome wolf – strong, smart and incredibly self-controlled.

She had lived with her grandparents who had never cared too much for her. They had loved her – at least that's what Derek thought. They had given her a home, even though they had never had a close relationship before Anna's parents had died so they must have loved her, right? They gave up their life and took a child into her home.

She had never turned in front of them – not once.

And there had been fights – a lot of them had mostly been about the Hales. Her grandparents had always been against them, never wanted her to stay with them for too long. But Anna? She had always defended them.

His mother had always said that Anna was special. She could control her temper better than anyone in the pack – and she was still a child back then! When Derek had struggled and Peter had helped him to control himself, Anna had tried to stop him. She had always been telling him that anger shouldn't be his anchor – that love should have been it instead.

Love had always been her anchor.

One night, a few months before the fire – she had been 13 at that time – they had been sitting on the porch of the Hale house. They had just come back from hunting and Derek had been in a fight with his older sister over … he couldn't remember. Something stupid, he supposed. The problem had been his shifting. He had not been able to control it properly afterwards because he had been too angry at Laura.

Anna had been sitting next to him, holding his hand while he tried to calm down. Even though Derek had been a couple of years older and he had often been annoyed by his "foster sister", she had never given up on him, she had always had his back.

"Why is it so easy for you, Anna?" He had asked her.

"It is not, Derek. It's not that easy for me." She had answered.

"But you never turn when you are angry…You never turn when you don't want to." He had whispered.

"That's because I control my shift differently, Derek. Believe me – I would turn all the time when anger would be my anchor. I lost my whole pack, my parents, my grandparents aren't the best family to have. You have to find a balance. Anger can make me turn as well as it can make you shift. But love brings me down. And to control the shift you have to control your feelings. I know, that it's not that easy but these two feelings are an entity. Without love or passion there wouldn't be anger. When I am nearly turning, I try to remember my parents and then I would get angry. But then I figured I had to remember them as something special – the best thing in my live. I tried to think about all the love they gave and taught me. That brings me down. You are trying to control you anger but how? I mean – anger isn't a feeling that makes you calm down, right? Love does…"

"But I…" Derek had begun.

"I know… you lost her, Derek. I know. But she isn't the only person who loves you…We all do." She had whispered.

She had been right.

But he had never learned to use this love – he had always used his anger.

Anna had always appreciated the fact that she was a wolf – she had enjoyed the most parts of it. She had never felt the anger, the need to kill – unlike Derek. She sure had been angry, sad and horrible after the hunter's attack that killed her pack. But she had never used this anger to become a wolf.

Derek wondered what had happened to the girl he had known back then – wondered what had changed her.

But he would find out soon.

Anna had promised to call him.

Anna was lying on her bed and dialing Stiles' number.

She had to get it over with. She had to tell him everything. She wanted him to understand why she acted like that.

Derek's voice made her shiver.

He was still mad – still disappointed. She could feel it.

"Hi…" She whispered.

"Hey…"

"You are still mad, heh?" She asked, knowing the answer already.

"What… Anna? What do you expect me to do? I thought you were dead, I find out your alive which made me happier than you could imagine. And then… then I get told you were nearly killing yourself. How… I mean…" Derek sighed.

"It made you happy?" She seemed surprised.

"Of course it did! You are still family and… I don't have much of it left." He added. He had to breath – his eyes filled with tears thinking about Laura. Thinking about how his own uncle had killed her.

"What happened to her, Derek?" Anna asked after a long minute of silence.

"Hmm?" He wasn't sure what she meant.

"Laura… How did she die?" Anna's voice was weak.

"How do you…?" Derek mumbled.

"Well, since you are the alpha … well… it wasn't that hard to figure out…" She explained.

"We… we went to Brooklyn. Lived there. She came back eventually and… got killed by Peter." He told her.

"Uncle Peter?" She was baffled.

"Yeah… he killed her to become the alpha. So I had to kill him but now… now he's back. It's … it's complicated. It's horrible. So many things have happened, Anna…So many people died…" Derek's voice broke.

"I'm so sorry, Derek…" Tears filled her eyes. She had never been really close to Laura because she had been way older than Anna. But he had loved her. Deeply.

"Will you tell me now what happened to you?" He asked, wiping away a tear from his eye.

He could hear her take a deep breath.

"It all began after the fire…" She began. "After you'd left me…"

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