Anakin sat unmoving above the purple linen, lining the bed he was supposed to have be sharing with his now wife, Padme. He sat their staring intently at the door separating the two rooms hoping his pure hatred for it would cause it to disintegrate and wither away to reveal his wife on the longed to just stand up , open the door and beg her with all his heart to see him, to see who he once was, who he could be again. He didn't just long to be heard or seen , he longed to be loved. He remembered as a small boy asking his mother what exactly love was.
Flashback
Shmi laughed her cheeks spreading smoothly upward to accommodate a soft small upon her glowing face. " Ani...when you grow up and find this love you wont have to know what to look for, you'll know.
Younger Anakin eyebrows pinched together in confusion. "Ill know what love is when I know. I don't understand. shouldn't I know what to look for when I do fall in I know what to expect" he asking curiously
Shmi laughed at her son's childlike wonder. "I'm not sure love works that way son but if you want something to look for I will tell you this. When you find that one person all you'll ever want is for her eyes to shine."
"Shine?"
Shmi nodded. "When your in love your who'll being will shine, glow with the happiness you feel from finding that person. when your in love all you'll want is for that person to shine right back at you."
Anakin longed for the glow. He had realized early on their voyage that he had been hurt by her acquainting their marriage as a mere business transaction, but more then that when he searched her features just as he had left. He realized not to long after what he was searching for and the realization had floored him. He practically lost his breath as realization gave way to feeling. His heart beat a little faster, his stomach turned with not's. he smiled placing a hand apon his chest to feel the force of it all. His smile quickly faded when he remembered that even though he knew what he felt, she didn't feel the same way, she didn't glow. She seemed to be little stunned at his appearance at the ceremony and maybe a small feeling of attraction but no where near the emotion he knew she was capable of.
Anakin snared at the still closed door as he stood and began pacing the room. His mind calculating ever so finely the idea forming within it. He couldn't make Senator Amidala fall in love with Chancellor Vader but Maybe he could make Padme fall in love with Anakin. Anakin stopping pacing and walked over to the still closed door resting his head against its cool wall while placing his palm upon the chilled steal, allowing it to warm to his touch.
"Padme." He whispered ever so lightly . " Ma waba, ma Kwee-Kunee."
Anakin smiled lightly before gently pushing himself away from the door and began to remove his clothing still calculating, and prayed that his silent wish would come true. He would win her heart and maybe one day the miracle would happen. Maybe one day she'd shine.
AN: I know the shortest chapter ever but I wanted to get a small part of anakin and his feelings on the matter before I got back to padme. Its been forever since I updated but I promise ill update at least once a week from now on. let me know what you think, thanks for all my loyal reader and reviews, later