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Chapter 17

"Is it bad?" Anna was sitting on the table, watching Deaton's every move.

He didn't respond but he looked concerned.

"It is bad... that bad?" She asked, her hand began to shake.

"Well, Anna... I have to run a few more tests but your body starts fighting the wolfsbane."

"Fighting it? How is that even possible?"

"Your body is really used to it by now. I mean, it still weakens you. Your body is really sick and sore. Your healing ability keeps you alive, Anna. If you would be human and you would be this sick your organs would fail, you would cough blood. You could die. Despite the fact that wolfsbane is only dangerous and toxic for werewolves and the fact that you are doing this to yourself on purpose... well, your inner wolf keeps heeling you – keeps your body working."

"I know that already. It doesn't change my mind though. I won't stop."

"I feared that. But there is a problem, Anna. Your body is fighting. I guess you've been with the Hale pack recently, am I right?"

"Kind of... yes."

"And since your instincts are starting to work again, it means your wolf is rebelling. As long as you weren't around other wolves, at least not too close, you've been fine. But now your instincts are waking up – starting to fight the poison."

"What does that mean? How can I stop it?"

"Avoid the pack."

"Can't I just increase the dosage?" Anna wanted to know.

"That would definitely make it worse, Anna. You would start coughing and cramping. The healing process wouldn't be able to keep up with your injuries."

"I would die."

"Yes, you would eventually."

"So my only options are avoiding the pack or stop inhaling?" She asked.

"You know that the second one isn't an option, right? Not here. Not with the Argents around."

"I know. I know..."She could feel tears running down her cheek. They would have to kill her – and they wouldn't hesitate to. After all – they were hunters. It was their responsibility.

She had feared this moment -the moment, when she would start regretting her decisions -when she would lose her family again. A family she never dreamed to have again. When she met someone who made her feel better though worse at the same time. When she wished her whole life had been different.

Anna had left the clinic and was sitting in her car. She couldn't stop crying. She was holding her phone – looking at the screen. She had opened a new message – for Derek.

She began to type.

Derek. Last night was a mistake. I can't see you anymore.

She deleted it and began again.

Hey Derek. I'm sorry for last night.
It was a big mistake. This can't
happen again. Maybe we shouldn't
see each other again for some time.

She paused. Some time – more like forever. She went on.

I made this decision to inhale a
long time ago and I still think it
was the right one.
I am sorry.
Anna

Before even reading it again she pressed the send button.

Tears were still running down her face. She could smell and taste the salt on her lips.

Her phone rang.

Derek.

She didn't answer his call – his 15 calls.

She had thrown her phone on the passenger's seat and had started her car. She was halfway on her way home and driving through the forest when Derek appeared on the middle of the road. She stepped on the brakes.

He was standing in front of the car. His eyes were brown – she had expected red eyes though.

She could feel his anger – could see it in his face. He looked hurt. He looked sad. Devastated and confused.

"Derek..." She sighed.

He didn't move. He just stared at her – her swollen eyes. He smelled her tears. She looked like a wreck. He cringed, his crawls dug into his palms.

"Please..." She begged. "Leave."

He shook his head but never let go of her eyes.

Her eyes filled with water again.

"Please, Derek." Her voice was weak. Her body was weak. She had been crying for the whole time and her body was aching. The wolfsbane and her inner wolf fighting it – it was nearly too much for her.

And Derek – his scent, his presence. The look on his face. He didn't know what was happening. He just stood there and watched Anna sitting in her old car. Her wolf wanted him so much. Touch him, feel his hot chest pressed against hers. Wanted to taste his sweet honey lips.

But the wolfsbane was too much for her body. She had added some more to her necklace even though Deaton warned her to do so. She needed to control her wolf – take control of her senses and instincts.

Her hands started shaking, her head seemed to explode.

"Please..." She begged again and closed her eyes in pain. A pain that nearly took over her mind.

She could feel he was gone even before she opened her eyes.

The road was empty – he had vanished.

She opened the window and took a deep breath of fresh air. She could still scent him – his anger had filled the air. But it wasn't that strong and the cold breeze of air helped her to calm down. Then she drove home. Far away from Derek.

Earlier

"So... you and Anna, he?" Isaac smirked at breakfast. Derek glared at him, the rest of the pack kept quite but couldn't help smiling. Jackson and Scott were looking at each other over their coffees. Peter was still downstairs but he sure had heard Isaac.

"Shut up, Isaac." Derek growled.

"What? We can smell her all over you, dude. You can't keep a secret from us, buddy!" Isaac grinned.

"I said. Shut. Up." Derek repeated.

"Okay okay... Gonna ask Stiles than." Isaac added whispering.

"ISAAC!" Derek growled louder.

"WHAT?" He hissed back. "You keep telling him stuff and you keep leaving us out of everything." Isaac complained.

"I am not." Derek sighed.

"You kinda are, buddy." Scott whispered. Jackson just nodded.

"It is... complicated." Derek tried to start.

"No it isn't! You like her. You like her a lot! And you can't be with her because she is under the influence of wolfsbane. But she can't stop because she would turn into a –"

"Don't call her a monster, Scott." Derek glared at him.

"- into a very strong and uncontrollable wolf." Scott ended his sentence.

"But that sounds complicated..." Isaac admitted which earned him another glare.

"It is more than that. It is a never ending circle. It just means that Anna and I – we can't be together. Ever." Derek whispered sadly.

"Maybe we can get her off wolfsbane. Maybe we can help her?" Scott proposed.

"I don't know. I have to talk to her... soon." Derek said.

They all went silent and kept eating their breakfast.

"So... how was it?" Isaac smirked, poking him from the side.

Derek didn't respond. He just glared at his beta.

"Sorry... I'll ask later." Isaac noted.

Derek growled.

"Or never – yeah. I'm good with never.

Derek turned around to Scott who was chuckling.

Suddenly he felt his phone vibrating in his jeans. He pulled it out of the pocket and stared at the screen.

After their "talk" on the middle of the road

Derek kept running. A loud growl filled the air.

He was angry – at her – at himself.

He was racing through the forest without knowing where he would end up. He just kept running. He tried to run from himself.

"Derek!"

Isaac was following him. "Derek! Calm down!" His friend yelled.

But Derek couldn't stop. He was hurt. He was in pain. The look on Anna's face and seeing her like that – it had been too much.

"Derek!" Scott was chasing him as well but he was faster. He caught up to Derek. "Town border is too close, Derek. Turn around!"

Derek jumped. He flew through the cold air and landed on the hard ground. He fell down to his knees. He roared into the forest and a deep, dangerous growl grew in his chest.

He turned back, his eyes brown again, when he felt Scott's hand on his shoulder.

"I hurt her. Scott – I – She is in pain because of me. I saw it – she's a wreck. Because of me!"

"Shh.. Derek. It's not your fault. Shh... calm down big boy."

"Last night – we shouldn't have –"

"Right – The two of you! You and Anna. She kissed you, too. Derek – she wanted it as well. You didn't force her, did you?" Scott said calmly.

"Of course I didn't." Derek hissed back, still staring at ground.

"See."

"But she – she doesn't wanna see me again." Derek whispered.

"I'm sorry, buddy. We'll figure something out, ok? " Scott said. Isaac was standing next to him feeling sorry for his alpha.

"Let's run home, D." Isaac proposed. Let's run to Stiles so he can cheer you up, he added in his mind.

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