A/N: Surprise guys, here's Ally D's POV! Thanks for the reviews loves! xo
Disclaimer: I don't own Austin and Ally or The Disney Channel. I don't own the song lyrics either.
Teardrops
Ally's POV
I've just reached the radio station where I'll be releasing my newest single. I'm at KTTM radio station in none other than you guessed it Miami. I'm only here to promote my single and then going back to Italy because I think that I've found a place there to live. I love it so much there, that I decided that I'm going to live in Europe when I'm not touring. I am staying at The Marriott not too far away from the station, so the limo just dropped me off out front, my body guard just walked me into the building. I take the elevator upstairs and greet the radio personality and someone I've known for a while now Jett Deely. He used to host Miami Countdown Live when I was still in high school, progressed into running his own popular radio station.
I walk into the booth, greet him with a smile and a friendly hug.
"Hold on all you listeners, when we return I will have Ramone Records hottest selling female artist Ally Dawson here in the studio."
Five, four, three, two, one.
I pull up a seat next to Jett, get ready to talk into the microphone right above my head right after he finishes introducing me to the show. "And we're back. Thank you for joining us Ally."
"It's great to be with you Jett, hey Miami!"
"You look fantastic by the way. So, how does it feel to have three platinum albums in the last few years?"
"It feels great Jett. I've always believed in hard work paying off, I'm proof that it does. I'm truly so lucky to be doing what I do, because I love writing and singing just as much as I love all of my fans and have the best support system."
He glances over and smiles at me, "So, we're here to talk about your newest single Teardrops On My Guitar which we'll be playing for our listeners shortly." He pauses, "Ally, can you tell us a little bit about the song?
"Well, I feel like it's one that many people can relate to mainly young teens, young women, older women you get the jist. But here's the thing, if you take the lyrics and a guy switches out the name I used for a girl the song has the same meaning. You see this song is about being overlooked and being in love with a guy at least from my perspective of the song and having them not love you back the same way."
He clears his throat, "Please forgive me, but I have to ask. Is there anyone in particular that inspired you to write this song?"
Whoa, I was not expecting that. He's always been a curious guy though, so I guess I'm not all that surprised.
"Whatttt, of course not." I say to Jett with that nervous tone, the lying tone, you know the kind where you're caught off-guard and don't know how to act appropriate. Oh yeah, that one.
Way to be convincing Ally. If Trish or Dez were here they'd be rolling their eyes.
Jett sure doesn't look convinced, "Are you sure Ally? Because let's see there was Dallas, Elliott, Ethan, Gavin, and yes that's right even Austin."
"How about we just play the newest single Jett?" I interrupt him, try to quickly change the subject. We're not here to discuss my personal life.
He gives me the cue to tell the listeners about my song, "Hey I'm Ally Dawson and you're listening to Miami's hottest music station KTTM. Here's my latest single Teardrops On My Guitar. Thank you to all of my fans, my "Allygators" stay smiling and keep shining."
Jett flips the switch on the soundboard to play my song.
...
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
This song is just so personal. I literally had to fake a smile around him so he wouldn't suspect thing. I never said what I wanted from him, I just acted like everything was completely fine. The guy had come up to my locker at school and asked me if I was going to study in the library later because he had just met this girl that he wanted to tell me about. I was crushed to say the least because I thought we had feelings for each other.
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about,
And she's got everything that I have to live without.
I remember being busy for the fashion show that I was the model that designer Armand Bianchi had chosen to wear and showcase a dress in an endangered bird's feathers. Of course this was back in the day that I couldn't walk in massive heels for the life of me. Nowadays I don't have any issues dancing in four to six inch heels on stage while performing.
Drew talks to me, I laugh 'cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
That day Gavin and I had gone to celebrate our one month anniversary at The Pickle Factory. But earlier when grabbing a bite at Shredders there was only one person that I was thinking about. There were so many times where this guy made me laugh that it felt like we were the only one's in the room. Later that night I was sitting at the piano in the practice room just writing out song lyrics.
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
I remember hearing him say that he was in love with her to his friends. He said that he finally got it right, he had found the girl that was finally worth fighting for. Sure, we may have been with other people at the time, but that doesn't mean that I wasn't thinking about him. I had many sleepless nights because of this heartache.
[Chorus:]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
I honestly for the life of me can't even begin to tell you why I put myself through so much. When it comes down to it though, I guess we just weren't meant to work out.
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
He was just so perfect. He walked right past me at Sonic Boom like I didn't even exist when she came in the door. He was so excited for us to meet her. While I was with Gavin, I just felt like I couldn't breathe when I was around the other guy and his "date". He had left with her to take her out, even when he walked away as my heart started to shatter even more he looked absolutely flawless. Talented. Handsome. Outgoing. He's everything that I aspired to be, he inspired me in so many ways I guess you could say.
She better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky 'cause
[Chorus]
So I drive home alone.
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight.
That never happened. I would take the picture of the two of us and turn it down while I cried myself to sleep at night. Wishing on a star that he'd just see me, but honestly I was just invisible.
'Cause he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into.
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.
The song ends and I just now notice that my cheeks are wet. Jett looks over at me and I see sorrow in his eyes as well, I can tell that he was actually moved by the song.
I tell him that I just need a minute and that can he just cut to a commercial before we come back. He does something on the switchboard and cuts the commercial, it's safe for us to talk without anyone overhearing us.
"Ally, are you alright?" He reaches for a box of tissues and hands them to me. I smile at him in appreciation and a way to say thank you without actually saying it.
"Yes, I am. I'm sorry I just really need a minute." I grab my compact out of my mini clutch and check to see if I have any mascara running, luckily I don't.
"Is there anything that I can do?" He touches my shoulder and I just shake my head.
I sigh deeply, look up from my not wet eyelashes, as I flutter my eyes open. "I'm feeling kind of drained. So when we come back from commercial do you mind if we just wrap up this part of the show?"
He looks at me with sympathy, "Of course. It's not a problem. Anything for an old friend."
The commercial ends and the red light blinks letting us know that we're back on air. "Hey Miami, and we're back. If you're just tuning in now we just played Ally Dawson's newest single Teardrops on My Guitar. Don't worry if you missed it, our station will be playing it on the loop hourly. Check out Ally's new song, and that's all we have for today's show. Ally, it was truly a pleasure having you stop by the station and we hope to see you soon. I'm Jett Deelly here at KTTM's hottest Miami radio station and we hope you have a hot, hot day all you sexy people."
I stand up and say goodbye to Jett, go down the elevator and out the back door of the station where my limo driver is waiting.
My limo driver has an umbrella ready, opens the door for me. "Thank you Frank." I climb in first, then my body guard does as well. Frank shuts the door and gets in the drivers seat of the sleek black limo.
"Back to the hotel Miss Dawson."
"Yes Frank, thank you."
Flashback
It's the day of the huge fashion show for Armand Bianchi. I'm showcasing the endangered Jubjub bird dress, not plucked from the bird itself, but ones that had fallen off. My entire ensemble had almost been ruined because Austin decided to dump yellow paint on all of the models including myself all to impress Piper. Sure, he saved me from getting paint all over a one-of-a-kind dress, but he pushed me off the stage, he was wearing a potato sack. He literally did everything to get Piper's attention, this is how I played it off.
"Austin, I can't believe it." I had gone out on the stage after the show to confront him for ruining the show, but like always.
He apologizes, "I know. I'm really sorry I ruined your show."
He apologized, I thought I was going to get some sort of lame-ass excuse or fight out of him but that's not what happened. I had to think quick.
"No, I mean you and Piper. I'm really happy for you."
LIE!
He responded with, "Thanks. So, you're not mad at me for causing all this?
"No, I think it's romantic you made a fool of yourself to impress a girl."
Although it would have been nice if you would have put half the effort into our relationship when you ruined our first date. You just jumped through hoops for Piper all because she's so pretty.
"But I ruined your modelling début." Ugh, shut up Austin. I'm trying to be mad at you right now.
"Eh, I'm sure I would've ruined it sooner or later. Have you seen me walk in heels?"
I struck a pose, ended up tripping. Once Austin saw me tripping and about to fall he put his hands on my back to catch me as I fell on top of him. So beyond embarrassed I scrambled off of him, ran away before he could even say a word.
...
Early the next morning, I was messing around in the practice room just playing the piano. I play the piano to think when Austin comes in.
"Hey Ally, how was your dinner after the show with Gavin?"
"Oh, it was nice." I stayed quiet for a minute.
"Hey Al, is something bothering you? You're not upset that you fell on top of me yesterday right?" I blushed a deep cherry red color.
"While that was absolutely humiliating. No. I'm fine. So, did you plan your official first date with Piper yet?"
"Yeah, I'm taking her to The Jungle Cafe."
Oh, that's so fucking sweet Austin. Can any place he takes his girlfriends not somewhere that was supposed to be special to only us?
I want him to leave. Asshole.
"I have a ton of inventory to do today, so I think you should leave now."
"I'd be more than happy to help."
"No thanks, erm I'll see you later. Have fun on your date."
I sighed a huge breath of relief when he finally left me alone in the store. I closed the door quietly to the practice room and slid down the door in full blown tears, grab my phone to text Trish.
To Trish from Ally:
So, Austin's going on his first date with Piper. Guess where he's taking her.
To Ally from Trish:
Where?
To Trish from Ally:
The Jungle Cafe
To Ally from Trish:
What?! You've got to be kidding me. He's taking her to the place that you overcame your stage fright and where you had your first kiss. That fucking insensitive bastard! As if it wasn't bad enough Kira showed up saying that she would be his girlfriend literally right after he kissed you. I'm coming to Sonic Boom right now! Austin better hope I don't run into him on the way there.
Yeah, that's what I thought:
Insensitive. Arrogant. Selfish. Bastard.
Some best friend Austin turned out to be. Anyways, Trish showed up with a huge tub of Fruity Mint Swirl and two spoons and we ate the entire thing. She listened to me cry, then told me that I should just go shopping or hang out with Gavin so I wouldn't have the time to focus on Piper and Austin together. It worked for a little while.
End Flashback.
To say that I felt relieved that I made it up to my hotel room and didn't get mobbed by the paparazzi or my fans is the absolute truth. I just want to be alone right now. I walked through the door and went to sit at the vanity in my room while I stared at my reflection in the mirror. I'm not the scared songwriter I once was, I've changed. I'm still me, just a more confident version of myself. I find myself thinking about the time when I thought things couldn't have gotten any better. I was so successful, happy, until I received the phone call that literally I never thought I'd ever get in my lifetime.
Flashback
I had been in Italy last year when I got the urgent call from Trish. When I picked up she was out of breath and there was all sorts of angst in her voice.
"Allycakes, there's something I need to tell you."
"Trish, why are you so out of breath? Are you alright?"
"Yeah, I'm fine. Ally, there's no easy way to say this. Austin just got engaged to Piper."
I didn't respond for a good five minutes or so. Ethan had come in and was talking to me about something probably what Trish just told me and I just motioned that I'm on the phone. I gave him a half-hearted smile and he went downstairs to get our coffee across the street.
"Ally, Ally are you still there?" There was worry laced in her voice, but I mean what could I even respond with.
"What?" I pause, "Oh yeah, I'm still here."
Trish sighs and I can hear the compassion she feels towards me."I wish there was something I could say, but I'm at a loss for words right now."
"That makes two of us. So, Austin's going to marry Piper." It took everything I had not to cry and to not completely unravel. "I should get going. Thanks for calling and telling me Trish. Come and visit me soon."
"Love you, Allycakes."
"Love you more, Trishykins."
And then I hung up the phone. Less than a minute later my phone started ringing again, I see that it's a number that I recognize but took out of my phone two years ago. There was no way in hell that I was going to answer that phone call. I knew who was calling and it was the last person I ever wanted to hear from at that point in time. So, I did the only thing that I knew I could do to help me get through by internalizing my feelings, yet getting my emotions out at the same time, through songwriting.
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
That was the very first line I jot down in my songbook. I finished writing that one lyric trying to decide if it was going to go in as a verse or part of the chorus and decided that it would be much better suited towards the very end of my song after putting it all together. I struck a chord on my guitar and let the first teardrop in two years fall. I hadn't cried since the morning after my graduation. I'm not entirely sure how long it took me to write the rest of the song, the only thing I could feel while writing it was my pain, not pain agony, a whole lot of mixed emotions that I couldn't even begin to explain.
...
And that's how my song Teardrops On My Guitar was created.
End Flashback
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